A/N: I revised ch.2. For those who read it when I first posted it, go back and re-read or you might not understand this one. Also, now that my internet is back, chapters should be up a lot sooner than this one was.


She couldn't understand why they wouldn't let her in on her own case. They've never hid cases from one another. So, why start now?

Amanda and Fin checked their phones while waiting on Melinda to get her report together for them. They both shared the same shocked expression when reading their texts from Olivia. She wanted to know why Fin was hiding things from her about the case. Also, it accused him of not trusting her to control her emotions when it came to Lewis. Amanda's text stated that Olivia was really disappointed with her for hiding things again and that she should trust Olivia to keep a level head while having her back as well. Both knew she wasn't herself, but it did sting a bit that she was beginning to feel she couldn't trust them. Amanda had Fin wait for the report while she went back to try to smooth things over with her girlfriend. She hoped she could get them both out of the dog house.

Olivia watched Amanda walk in and head straight for the bunks. Immediately she followed her. Nothing was said, but the way her girlfriend looked at her Olivia knew to follow.

"Look Liv, I'm sorry I wasn't more open and honest with the whole 'I was out on a case bit'. Cragen told us not to tell you. The last thing I want is to be in trouble with him again."

Olivia made Amanda look at her before responding. "You know I wouldn't have told the captain anything. Whatever we say in the apartment stays there. You know that. Can you tell me about the victim Amanda? I'm going to be seeing it anyway, I'd like to be a little prepared on this one. I know what he's capable of and I want to know before I see pictures."

"I can't." Amanda said burying her face in one of the pillows. "I don't wanna think about it. She looked too much like you." Olivia barely made out the last sentence before Amanda completely broke down silencing her sobs in the pillow. She didn't know what to think. Wrapping her girlfriend in a big hug she gently stroked her blonde hair not knowing what else to say. Olivia knew Amanda blamed herself for the entire Lewis case. She always said 'if I hadn't brought him in, he would have never saw you therefore he would have never hurt you'. To this day, those words still stung in Olivia's ears whenever the blonde got upset over Lewis. It hit her that she owed Fin an apology too. Giving Amanda a gentle kiss she made her way out to find Fin.

"Fin! You got a minute? We need to talk."

"What's up Liv? Everything okay?" Fin questioned her starting to get worried.

"Things are fine. I just wanted to apologize for my message. It was out of line. I never should have said that." The sympathy in Olivia's eyes told Fin she was being sincere. He gave her a hug then asked about his partner. She explained that Amanda needed a minute to calm down.

Nick was able to find the silhouette of a man leaving the apartment complex with the same build as Lewis, but it was too dark to know for sure. The cameras were too far away. Even if they weren't the footage would be no good. They were ancient according to Fin. The three sat down going through Melinda's reports on the victim. Nick started mapping out the timeline. Fin was arranging pictures while Olivia was finishing with the results. She glanced down at one of the pictures and froze. It was almost like looking in a mirror. Now she realized why Amanda didn't want to talk about it. Cragen put his hand on Olivia's shoulder causing her to just about jump out of her skin.

"I'm sorry Liv, I just wanted to see what we had." Cragen apologized.

"Vic is 38 years old. Names Lucy. Bruises, cuts and burns in various spots. She was also raped. He did a real number on her Cap." Fin answered.

"I'll be back in a minute." Olivia spoke before bolting out of the squad room toward the bunks. She just wanted to be held by the one person who could always make her feel better. Nick started to follow but Cragen stopped him. He felt she needed some time to herself after looking at the photos laid out on the table. To Olivia's surprise Amanda was nowhere around. There was no note or text message saying she was leaving. A bad feeling started forming in her gut as she thought about where Amanda could have gone. 'Do I tell the Captain she's gone? Or do I just tell him she's taking a nap?' She asked herself quietly. Walking back to the squad room she informed them she was taking an early lunch. No one questioned it. They figured the case was just weighing on her.

Olivia hailed a cab giving the address of the casino she expected to find the blonde at. She hesitated outside before getting the courage to go in. After 20 minutes Olivia decided to ask around to see if anyone had seen Amanda. One of the security guys said they saw her rush out the front doors after a sketchy looking man walked out. He didn't know which way she went or if she was still around. Walking outside, she tried to figure out which way she would go. That's when she saw Amanda across the street sitting against a brick wall in the alley. It took only seconds for her to cross the street.

"Amanda, what happened?"

"Liv? What are you doing here?" Asked a very confused Amanda.

"You just took off. So… I thought I would check here first. I know you are stressed and I'm not judging you, but can you answer one question?" Olivia asked her. Amanda nodded. "Why did you come here instead of finding me?"

"I couldn't do that to you. You have enough going on." Amanda responded. "Now can you take me to get checked out? I think my back is more damaged than I thought from last night." Amanda was not going to tell her she was in a fight.

Helping her off the ground, they made their way back to the truck. If it wasn't for the long sleeve shirt Amanda had on Olivia would have probably seen the scratches and bruises to her skin. Halfway to the hospital, Amanda's phone went off. It was Fin telling her they had another victim. The Captain wanted both her and Olivia back as soon as they could. Hanging up she told her girlfriend to head back to the precinct as they were needed. Olivia started to protest, but the look on Amanda's face told her it was pointless. Once back, Cragen filled them all in on the new case. He gave them the address and told them to go check it out.

"I wonder what we got this time." Amanda says to Fin as they pull into traffic.