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Time has run out, for me
I'm sorry i havnt been posting any chapters I've just been so busy and I've fallen into a deep dpression.
Everythings distant and I don't know what to believe
I feel isolted and invisable I don't feel anything...I hardly feel anything at all these days.
It's so hard lost in the world confusion
It's hard to even feel happyness and the world doesn't even notice me
And i need to leave for a while
i dont wanna leave, but i lost my feeling and insperation to write...
Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile
i haven't smiled at all, the smiles that i do put on are fake and people think its a true happy smile...
So goodbye, I'll miss you
So for now it's goodbye i don't know when i'll find my insperation to write again
And i'm sorry, but this is my fate
Everything is worthless
No one who wants me to stay
all my friends dont talk to me anymore they dont care about me anymore the only friend I have is laura, but she live 4 hours away from me n we barely get to talk so everything building up inside
And I'm sorry, but i've waited to long
so heres my goodbye, no one will cry over me
I'm not worth any tears
If i was gone no one would cry not even my mom, she hates me shes told me befor that, shes disgusted to be seen with me and that she can't stand to look at me and that I'm worthless and i geuss I am because no one care about me any more
It's been the years of abuse
Negleted to treat the disorder, that controls my youth, for so long
It's not physical abuse it's mental abuse people don't know what bullying does to a persons mental state. My mom doesn't even know that everyday of my life i'm bullyed constanlt by everyone at school and by her at home by her saying such things to and about me. It's always happening and it'll never stop happening
I'm in a fleshy tomb, buried up above the ground
It's no use, why should I hold on?
It's been 17 years, dont need one more
So goodbye, lifes abuse
everyone sees me, but they don't want to see the real me, people see me get tormented and they do nothing i'm no longer holding on theres nothing to hold onto anymore i've had this problem all my life it's even caused me to have chest pains and insolmnia and does any one care NO! i wish i could say goodbye leave a leter to them like i'm leaveing one to you and just kill myself if I wasn't a christian and new god doesn't want anyone to kill themselves then I'd already be dead God is the only thing keeping me alive
And i'm sorry, but this is my fate
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay
And i'm sorry, but I've waited to long
So heres my goodbye, no one will cry over me
I'm not worth any tears
I don't know what to do to get out of this depression and i don't think i ever will I just can't find anything enjoyable in life anymore and I'm to cowardly to cut myself and even though i have talent in drawing no one apreciates it so I'm never apreciated there fore I'm not worth any tears any way if I died
"Every 18 minuetes, somebody dies from a suicide. Every 45 seconds, somebody attempts one, if you, or anybody you know, is suicidal call 1-800-784-2433"
And i'm sorry, but this is my fate
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay
And I'm sorry, but I've waited to long
So heres my goodbye, no one will cry over me
So heres my goodbye, no one will cry over me
I'm not worth any tears
Singer: jamestown story
Song: goodbye (I'm sorry)
