"I don't want to feel, I don't want to think, ok? I don't want to have to think about the fact that i ended up dating a monster... and living with one, and i don't want to feel that... that I still feel the same toward one of them, and unsure about the other"
"Which one am I?" Damon asked with a worried look on his face.
2 weeks. it has been 2 weeks since i left this room. How am i supposed to leave it knowing that the two people i felt, or feel, most for aren't even human? The room feels as if it shrinks more and more everyday. I would walk around the house except theres a vampire wondering the halls, more like staying outside my door, he doesn't leave, Damon is always there. But i can't retreat to school to get away, because his brother waits for me every morning hoping i would return. I want to just run away, pack my bags and keep driving till i can think straight again, but knowing the Salvatore boys they would probably chase me down.
I don't know what to do, what i can do, how i should feel, i need someone to talk to, i need someone to explain what is going on but the only two people on the planet i can talk to about this are the two that i'm avoiding.
The sun had set and i had not noticed, i could hear damon sitting in his regular spot outside my door, monitoring my behavior nightly, he would work during the day then come home, shower, and sit outside my door until the process started again the next morning. After pacing up and down the room endlessly for hours i had come to a decision, i was going to talk to Damon. I had to. I need answers. I slowly turned the door handle, there was still time to back out, but i couldn't. I opened the door with caution, stepping outside into the slightly lit hallway, turning left and right, but he wasn't there, there was no sign of Damon. I let out a loud sigh as i turned around to walk back into my room, i was disappointed, not only was i wanting to find answers, but i was wanting to see his face. I closed the door slowly, and turned around, i let out a loud scream, my heart was racing, Damon was standing in front of me.
"Sorry i didn't mean to scare you." He said quickly. Apologizing for giving me such a fright.
I hit his chest and pushed past him, trying to catch my breath. I walked over to my bed and sat down. "What are you doing in my room?" I demanded.
"You opened the door and i know that you wouldn't have let me in so i just-" "You just what? Just decided you'd sneak in behind me?" I argued cutting him off.
He had no reply, he just stared at me, i stared back, looking straight into those beautiful baby blue eyes, i could see every emotion, every feeling, i felt it too. Seeing his face, hearing his voice, standing in the same room as him after this long, it made me forget what the purpose of all this was, i forgot why i was mad, why i was avoiding him, i forgot what i had to say, what i had to know. I could tell, through his eyes, that he felt the same, he was studying every line, every movement, curve, of mine from head to toe, taking mental pictures as if i was to fade away in a split second. We stared in silence, the look in our eyes were the only words we needed, until there was a loud bang coming from my window, our eye contact broke as we both turned toward the noise. I walked over to the window, pulled the blinds and looked down to the ground, only to find Stefan standing at the bottom, with a rock in his hand. Damon's face appeared through the window as he joined me to find out the culprit that ruined our moment together. Damon frowned as he saw his brother standing down watching them. Stefan was furious at the sight of Damon in my room and in a flash he disappeared. Damon turned around quickly to find his brother standing in the doorway, with his fists clenched he started toward Damon, but i knew what was about to happen, i stepped in between the brothers, blocking Stefan's next move.
"Elena, move out of the way." Stefan demanded, his tone was cold, sharp, dark, the only time i've heard him talk like this is when he 'met' Damon.
"No Stefan." I replied defensively.
"Elena, you might want to leave this one up to me, he could hurt you." Damon said, he was being sincere, he was worried that Stefan would actually hurt me.
"I would never hurt her, Damon, it's you she should be worrying about." Stefan snapped.
"Me? You honestly think that I would hurt her?" Damon fired back.
"I haven't seen you in over 100 years, i have no idea what you're capable of." Stefan argued.
"Exactly, you don't know me anymore, brother, last time i saw you, you were binge drinking on the mystic falls locals and i was cleaning up after you." Damon defended.
"Stop it! both of you!" I interrupted. They turned to look at me, both eager to know my next move. "I don't want to just stand here listening to you two fighting, i need answers and i need them now." i demanded.
"What do you want to know Elena? I'll explain everything!" Stefan was offering to explain everything to me, but i didn't want him too, i wanted Damon too. I was staring at Damon, as he was staring at me.
"Go home, Stefan." I whispered quietly, but loud enough for him to hear.
"Elena I-" Stefan started, but i interrupted. "Now Stefan, go home, now!" I shouted his way. Stefan stared at me for a second, tears forming in his eyes, he nodded slightly, and in a flash, he was gone.
I sighed and sat down on my bed again. With my head in my hands, tears formed in my eyes. Why did this have to happen to me? Why did i have to fall in love with two vampires? Damon sat on the bed next to me, my head still buried in my hands. He looked at the ground, he didn't know what to say, or do, so he raised his arm, slowly, and wrapped it around my neck, bringing his other arm with him, holding me tightly in his arms. I took my hands off my head and i returned the gesture, wrapping my arms around his torso, i let out a loud cry, followed by many smaller ones. We sat there like that for what felt like hours but it was only minutes. I pulled away first, my tears had dried and i was ready to talk.
"How did you become like this? How old are you? Do you feed on humans? Have you ever killed anyone? Has Stefan?" I spat out questions like there was not a second to spare.
"Woah slow down there, one at a time, i'll answer anything you want" Damon replied softly.
"Rise and shine sleepy head." Damon whispered in my ear.
I shuffled in my spot, waking up slowly, when i came to a realization that i was laying on Damon's bare chest. I let out a gasp and a yelp as i sat up quickly, pulling the sheets above my torso, covering my body.
"Damon, what are you doing shirtless in my bed?" I asked, hitting his chest playfully.
"Would you prefer me to loose the pants too? Because that can be arranged." Damon smirked and mocked.
"Ha ha, you're hilarious." I replied, still half asleep.
"Come on, i know you were dreaming about me, explains the drool." Damon tilted his head toward his chest.
"Seriously Damon, why are you in my bed?" I demanded.
"Ugh, you were so much more fun when you were asleep, after i finished explaining everything to you last night, you fell asleep on me, and well, i didn't want to wake you up." He explained.
I didn't have a response, we sat and stared at each other for a while, before i was brought back to reality. I realized the time and the day, it was 8am on a Friday, it was time for school. I hadn't been going for the last couple of weeks, but now that i knew the truth i thought i was finally ready, except for facing Stefan, secretly, i wished i could stay with Damon all day, but i had to get back to my life.
"I have to go to school, Damon." I finally replied sitting on the edge of my bed.
"Need a lift?" He smirked and jingled his keys.
"No it's ok" I hesitated "My keys are right here- where are my keys?" I turned to look at Damon.
"What you think I took them?" He replied.
"Well they aren't on my dresser where i left them, maybe i dropped them on my way home, i don't have time for this i have to get ready." I was in a rush, running around my room i completely forgot that Damon was lying on my bed watching me. I grabbed my white lace tank top and Denim Jacket as well as my loose short black skirt and boots from my wardrobe. I undressed and then turned around to realize Damon was still lying on my bed looking at me in my underwear. I stood still, in shock.
"Nice bra." Damon's smirk grew as i quickly put on my shirt and skirt trying to cover any bare skin that he shouldn't have seen.
"Get out of my room Damon." I threw a pillow at him but he sped up and was no longer in sight. I jumped, i wasn't used to such quick movement. I took a step back to steady myself, i could feel his warm breath on my ear.
"I'll be downstairs with the car in 10." Damon whispered in my ear, he slid his right down the side of my body to the edge of my shirt where it meets my skirt, he brought his hand up now touching bare skin, he slid it up the side of my torso underneath my shirt and put his left hand on my lower back, lowering it and lowering it till it traced my upper thigh. I breathed in and out as i felt every nerve in my body tingle at the sensation of his hands touching my skin. He slowly took his left hand off my body, and then his right and i turned around quickly as i no longer felt his warm breath on my neck and his skin on mine. He was gone. I stood still for a few minutes then was brought back to reality at the sound of Damon's car horn coming from the drive way. I grabbed my handbag and rushed downstairs.
"Hurry up, you're making yourself late, Elena." Damon mocked as i ran to the car and jumped in.
"The only thing that's making me late is the lack of breakfast you should have made me." I mocked back.
"I'm not your bitch." He replied as i put on my seatbelt.
"You move faster than i do so you may as well make me toast in the mornings" I smirked and turned to face him.
"If i can have that strip show every morning i will gladly make you breakfast." Damon started the car, his smirk larger than ever as he recapped this mornings events in his mind.
"Don't push your luck." i paused and turned to him "Maybe, if you can keep your hands off me next time."
He smirked "Now what's the fun in that?"
"Just drive Grandpa." I said as i turned away trying to hide my smile.
The car pulled up outside the school gates after a drive of flirting and eye sex. I stared at the large uninviting building. I hadn't been to school in 2 weeks, i wasn't ready, i wasn't ready to walk into school and have to answer everyones questions about where i have been but most of all i wasn't ready to face Stefan. Damon stared at me, he had a worried look on his face, he could tell i didn't want to go, he could tell i was reluctant to.
"Hey, Elena look at me" Damon brought the palm of his hands to my face cupping it gently "You can get through this, if it gets too much just give me a call and i'll come pick you up, ok?"
I stared into his baby blue eyes, there was something about him that i just couldn't shake. I nodded my head "Ok."
Damon watched me walk into school safely before driving away, i swung the large doors open and walked into the empty halls, i was late. I turned the corner and i saw him, standing by my locker, waiting for me. I hesitated and then walked slowly toward him.
"Elena, hi." Stefan started. I ignored him, opened my locker, grabbed my books, closed my locker, gave him one last look of disappointment and turned around to go to class.
"Elena I-" Stefan shouted after me but i just kept walking.
I walked into class and everyones heads turned to face me. "Elena, welcome back." Mr. Saltzman said as his hand gestured toward my chair next to Bonnie. I smiled and walked through the aisle to sit down.
Bonnie turned and whispered to me "Where have you been?!"
I had no answer for her, i had been hiding in my room from the Salvatore vampire brothers for 2 weeks. "I uh- something happened, i found out that-"
"Am i interrupting you, Elena?" Mr Saltzman cut in. Stefan appeared in the doorway, walking into class and sitting down next to me.
"Welcome to class Mr. Salvatore." Mr. Saltzman introduced.
I looked at Stefan and something in my heart broke, all over again "Sorry, um may i please go to the bathroom?" I asked Sir trying to avoid Bonnie's question and my ex-boyfriend.
"But we just got you back." He replied. I was about to break into tears, and Mr. Saltzman could tell. "Don't run out on us for 2 weeks this time?" He gave in tilting his head in the direction of the door. I walked quickly out the door and down the hall to the bathroom.
I closed the bathroom stall door behind me and quickly dialed Damon's number in my phone.
"You've reached the eternal stud, how may i help you?" Damon mocked as he answered the phone. I started sobbing, wiping away tears, trying to hold myself together long enough to get Damon to come pick me up.
"Damon I-" I stuttered.
"Elena, are you ok?" He could hear my crying.
"I need you, Damon." I exclaimed as tears ran down my cheeks.
"I'll be there in 2 minutes, ok?" He replied, grabbing his keys and running to the car.
Damon's car pulled up out front and i ran and jumped in it.
"Are you ok? He turned and faced me.
"I just want to get out of here, i need to forget about all this." I replied.
"Let me take you out tonight, we can go have some fun, i'll help you forget, about all of it." He suggested.
I hesitated "Okay, i can't remember the last time i had 'fun'." I mocked.
I had pulled about 10 different outfits out of my wardrobe so far, Damon wouldn't tell me where we were going, all said was that the dress code was "sexy". I guess if he wanted to follow that dress code he wouldn't even need to wear clothes. I pulled out a white lace dress, black high heels, and my necklace that Stefan had given me, the only reason i hadn't stopped wearing it is that it has vervain in it, which stops me from being 'compelled'. I slightly curled my hair, not too much yet enough and i walked down the large marble stair case to see Damon at the door waiting. He was wearing his black leather jacket and a black t-shirt underneath, as well as his jeans.
"Wow, you look uh- amazing, defiantly following the dress code, but the necklace, that's a no go." Damon smirked.
"Thank you, you don't look too shabby yourself, but it's vervain, Damon, I can't take it off." I flirted back.
"I know it is and i know who gave it to you, that's why i got you this." Damon pulled out a small black jewelry box from his pocket. "Tonight, we're forgetting everything, and we can't do that if we have Stefan dangling on your neck, so i got you this." He stood in front of me, opened the box and inside was a beautiful silver necklace, it had a pendant on it, but i'm not sure what the symbol on it is. "It's spelled with vervain, and the symbol, it uh- it means love." Damon looked embarrassed as he explained to me that the necklace he was giving me was meant to be given to someone you love.
I smiled. "Thank you, Damon, i love it, would you mind?" I picked it up and asked him to put it on me. He brushed my hair to the side and did the chain up at the back.
"Now that that's taken care of, shall we?" He held his arm out and i wrapped mine around it as we walked out the door.
I had no idea where we were, we had been driving for over an hour, we weren't in Mystic Falls anymore. Damon pulled the car up outside what looked like a small town club. "Where are we?" I asked.
"Just a little place i like to got to have fun." he smirked as he opened my door and held out his hand to help me out of the car. He led me inside, the doors opened and all i could see were flashing lights, there were tables set up around the side, a dj on stage at the front, and a bar toward the back, with pool tables close to it. It smelt of smoke, beer and what i would imagine sex to smell like. Damon grabbed my hand and pulled me down onto the dance floor. Damon had moves, moves that i had never seen, we danced and danced along to the fast upbeat music, we grinded along to the beat, Damon's hands running up and down the side of my body and around to my stomach and up brushing the outline of my breasts, my back pressed against his chest, moving together, my hands running up and down his face. He grabbed my hand and spun me around, both my hands landed on his chest, my face close to his, our eye contact stood as i put my arms around his neck and we moved again with the music, i took my left hand and ran it down his chest and beneath his shirt, feeling every line, every muscle, every ab on his upper body. My lips were brushing his cheeks softly, his on mine, his hands ran up and down my body, and we danced and we danced. I laughed and i smiled and i was genuinely having fun, for the first time in a long time.
I laughed seductively as i dragged Damon off the dance floor and over to the bar.
"Two beers over here please sweetheart." Damon asked the bartender.
"Here you go, sweetheart." She snapped back. He handed me a beer and i took a big sip.
"I think we ned something a little stronger than beer." I laughed.
"I like your thinking, but don't you have school in the morning?" Damon replied.
"Not unless in the two weeks of me not attending they started having school on saturdays." I mocked.
He laughed. "Can we get a couple of vodka shots over here?" He shouted out to the bartender. She handed him a tray and he grabbed my hand and led me over to one of the pool tables.
"Let's play." He smirked.
"Only if you're ok with loosing, sweetheart." I teased.
"I take that as a challenge, but first, shots." He chugged back one shot and then another before handing me two. I did the same.
After a long game of pool, well, flirting and cheating, we were down to the last ball.
"Need some tips from the master?" He mocked.
"Actually my techniques a little sloppy, don't you think, how about you come and show me how to do it like a pro?" I smirked seductively.
"Ahh learning from the master, good idea." Damon came behind me and put his arm and hand on mine on the pool cue, his other hand on my hip, he guided my movement slowly, breathing down my neck and then brought our arms and the pool cue back and forward to hit the ball.
"And i win, with no thanks to you." I teased.
"You keep thinking that, i'm going to just go to the bathroom, you go get us some more drinks." He replied.
"Only if you're paying." He handed me his wallet and i walked toward the bar.
"2 vodka shots and a water please." I asked the bartender. I sat on the stool, waiting for Damon, the bartender sat the drinks on the bar.
"Well you're a new face." I turned around to see a man with dark scruffy hair in a tank top and jeans sit on the stool next to me.
"Yeah, it's my first time here." I replied.
"Well you should let me show you the proper way to 'enjoy' this club, you see there's a certain way to do it." He suggested.
"I'm right, i'm actually here with someone, he should be back any minute so." I said looking for any sight of Damon. "I'm going go find him, actually." i stood up and tried to walk away.
He grabbed my arm, stopping me from moving. "I insist." The stranger said with a sharp tone in his voice.
"I should really go find my friend." I tried to loosen his grip but he stood his ground. "Let me go." I demanded.
"I think we should get out of here." He snapped.
"I'm not going anywhere with you." I screeched still struggling to get away, unable to go anywhere.
"Quick trip to the bathroom sound ok with you?" He grinned his teeth and pulled me toward the bathrooms.
"No way in hell, let go of me!" I yelled. He pulled me into the corridor of the restrooms and pushed me against the wall kissing my neck. I tried to push him away, but he was strong. Suddenly he flung off me and into the corner. I kept my eyes shut, i didn't want to look at him, i didn't know if he was still there. I could hear the sound of a fist going into his jaw, my eyes remained shut. I felt hands on my arms as i screamed.
"Let go of me! Get off me! Please get let me go!" I yelled hitting the mans chest.
"Elena, hey, Elena, it's me, Damon, it's ok, i got you, it's ok." Damon said softly stroking my arms, trying to calm me down. I opened my eyes to see Damon standing in front of me, the strange man lying on the floor in the corner with blood coming out of his nose. A tear rolled down my face and i flung my arms around Damon's neck. I was shaking, i was terrified, he wrapped his arms around my back and held me tight, i felt safe.
"Let's get you home, ok?" He whispered in my ear. I nodded my head and he guided me out the door, giving fierce looks to any guy that just so much as looked at me.
Damon walked me to my bedroom door, making sure i wasn't going to breakdown.
"I'm fine Damon, you can stop worrying." I turned to him as we reached my door.
"I will never stop worrying about you, Elena." He replied. I opened my bedroom door and turned around to face Damon again.
"Thank you for tonight, it was fun, honestly, up until the last part it was the most fun i have had in a very long time, thank you." I smiled and looked into his eyes.
"Any time." He smirked and stared into mine. He held my gaze. Enough was enough, i cupped his face in my hands and pressed my lips to his, i kissed him hard, it was long over due. He put his hands on my back and we moved backwards into my room, he shut the door behind us, we kept moving back until i fell onto the bed. He came down on top of me, kissing my neck, i ran my fingers through his hair, i wrapped my legs around his waist. I pushed my hands on his chest and flipped him over, i sat up, he guided my dress up and over my head, i did the same for his shirt. Looking at his bare chest i pressed my body against his, i kissing his neck and his pecks, i slid my tongue down his chest and traced each of his abs with my lips then sucking each one gently. I unbuttoned his jeans and pulled down the zip, i grabbed the side of them and dragged them down his legs and off his body quickly. Trust Damon to go commando. He grabbed my waist and pushed my onto the bed, he kissed my neck and then the side of my bra, he turned me onto my stomach and kissed down my back, sucking every inch of skin leading to where my bra was clipped together. With one simple tongue movement he undid my bra, i sat up, each leg on either side of his waist, i brushed my hair away from my face and Damon grabbed me by the waist again, slamming me on my back Damon's lips pressed to my skin, kissing my cleavage down my stomach and tracing my white lace panties, he moved further down and kissed my upper thighs, then his tongue leaving a trail on my skin till he reached the inner part of my thigh, my body was aching i needed him, now.
"Damon" I screeched, my need growing.
"Be patient, princess." He smirked and continued to tease me.
"Now Damon, i need you, now." I demanded.
"Alright, alright, calm down." He mocked as he pulled off my panties, finally giving me what i wanted. Damon pushed himself inside of her, my back arched, she had never felt anything like this before; the feeling of being complete, their bodies were now one and it felt so right. He pushed himself into her over and over again gradually changing the pace, faster then slower, then faster again until both of them were moaning like animals after every thrust. I twisted and moved, bucking herself up with Damon each time. His hands found place on her breasts, squeezing them gently and tracing her nipples. With each movement they both cried out each others names.
"I'm almost there." Damon panted. He thrust harder and faster, i lent back momentarily and her orgasm grew louder at the sensational feeling. Their pace gradually slowed and he exited her carefully. They both lay on their backs, out of breath. This was the most perfect night i had ever experienced.
"Who knew you could move like that." Damon teased as he turned on his side and wrapped his arm around my waist.
"I was more surprised you could go that long, with your old age and all." I mocked.
Both our heads turned to the door as it flung wide open and a dark angry figure stepped in the doorway.
"Stefan! What are you doing here?!" I yelled at the intruder.
