Miyagi
I walked into the library. It was almost closing time, there'd only be one person here. I walked in to find Misaki struggling with a math problem. I knew I'd be of no help so I hung back, not really looking at books. He looked insane, his hair held back in multicolored clips and a huge bandaid on his nose. He suddenly slammed the book closed and rested his head on the table with a thump. "Hey are you okay, kid?" He glanced up, didn't seemed surprised I was there.
"I'm not really smart. I just have too much time on my hands. Some things I can't memorize and force into my head." Misaki wasn't the brightest, but he was on the right path, unlike many kids I'd seen get sucked into the college scene. My now ex-boyfriend being one of them. Things could change you if you didn't have strong will, and even if you did you could still be changed. Shinobu is one of the most stubborn people I know, but still...he ended up the way I hadn't ever thought he would.
"It's okay if you can't do something perfectly. Some things you can't even master with practice, but the fact you're trying your hardest is good enough. Stop stressing and get some rest. I'm sure if you relax it'll come to you easier." He smiled and nodded.
"You're right." He gathered up his books. "I'll go relax."
"Good." He hugged his books to his chest, said his goodbyes, and disappeared.
Misaki
I stopped in the bathroom, pulling the ridiculous clips from my hair. I pulled my head up and started walking home. I lived closer to the school living with Takahiro now. A car pulled up to me, the window rolled down. It was Isaka. "Hey kid. Get in."
"I actually have to be home for dinner...so I can't be going with you." I tried to get rid of anyone connect with Usagi the exception being Aikawa. She'd been a mother to me when I needed it most. She wasn't someone I could simply cut off. Once I week I would take a cab up to her place and stay over for awhile. She wouldn't admit it, but she was often lonely. Aikawa never could hold done a relationship because of her line of work. I knew it was hard for her. On more than one occasion she got drunk and cried herself to sleep. I would stay be her like she stayed by me.
"Fine. I'll get right to the point then." Isaka exited the car, leaned against it. "What's going on between you and that silly author?"
"Nothing anymore." He raised an eyebrow.
"He broke it off?" I shook my head.
"It was me." He scowled. "I need to focus on other things. I wasn't doing good in the classes my brother was busting his ass to pay for. I needed to get my priorities straight."
"You can't do that. You're his inspiration." I sighed.
"Yes I was his inspiration, object, toy, just something shiny to play with. I get it. Now leave me alone. I'm not going back to how things were." I walked home fast. I never admitted to Usagi, but things began to bother me between us.
I plopped down on my bed and hugged my panda bear close. Why was everyone so against the choices I made? It wasn't fair. "Misaki are you okay?" Nii-chan walked in and sat on the end of the bed.
"If I tell you what's wrong...I'll have to explain a lot of things Nii-chan." He patted my leg.
"I'm always here for you Misaki. No matter what. I can help you figure out anything you need help with." So I told him about everything...about me and Usagi. I didn't tell him Usagi had liked him because I had no business doing that, but I let him know the things about me he'd missed out on. When I was done I couldn't tell what he thought. "I wish you would've told me this when it was going on."
"I'm sorry." He smiled.
"It's fine Misaki. So...do you want to only date guys?" I didn't even know myself. I shrugged, or the equivalent to shrugging while you're laying.
"I just...don't know."
