Monday, January 11th

OCD

8:00am

The PC arrived at school looking fabulous as always. They may have been only sophomores at their high school, but they were pretty well known and had a higher status than most sophomores did. That was one thing Massie felt confident about, even if she was pregnant, she still had a high social status. Well, at least until everyone finds out she's pregnant. But she wouldn't have to worry about that for a while, she wasn't showing yet and her body still looked the same as it always has, even though her clothes were fitting tighter.

The PC entered the building all walking in perfect formation, with Massie in the middle, Alicia and Claire on her left, and Dylan and Kristen on her right. There was a bit of tension that Massie could feel within the group since she'd told them about what happened when she told her parents the news, now her friends didn't know whether or not it was okay to talk about. They all wanted to, because this was the most scandalous thing ever to them, none of them would've imagined Massie would be the first to get pregnant and especially not while in high school, but they didn't want to make her uncomfortable, or worse, angry. When they all went in the bathroom to look at themselves in the mirror and fix any flaws they could find, Alicia finally brought it up.

"So have you made a decision about what you're gonna do about the baby?" she asked.

"Shh!" Massie looked around nervously for anyone outside of the PC who might be in the bathroom to overhear, "Someone could've heard you!" she scowled.

"Calm down! No one's in here but us."

Massie rolled her eyes. "You don't understand, this can nawt get out! If people find out, my social life is over."

Dylan and Kristen reapplied their lip gloss for the second time because they weren't sure what to say, they didn't want to say the wrong thing and make their alpha angry.

Claire put her hand on Massie's shoulder in a comforting way, "Don't be so pessimistic, no one knows, and if they did, that doesn't necessarily mean your social life is over."

Massie knew Claire was only trying to be helpful, but her too optimistic attitude about this was kind of annoying, if people knew, Massie knew she'd be labeled a whore and maybe a lot of other bad things.

"So?" Alicia looked at Massie, wanting to know the answer to her question.

"What?"

"Does this mean you're leaning more towards abortion? Because if not then everyone will find out eventually."

"No," Massie hesitated for a second, it was still early and she wasn't entirely sure of what she wanted to do yet, "I haven't made up my mind about everything yet and I don't really want to talk about that right now, I'll tell you all once I've decided."

"Don't you have a doctor's appointment today?" Dylan asked while brushing through her thick, straightened hair.

"Yeah, it's gonna be weird though, I'll actually get to see it."

She had mixed feelings about getting her first ultrasound. On one hand she was curious and wanted to see what was growing inside her, but on the other she was worried. Would seeing it make her attached? If she decided to not raise it then getting attached obviously wouldn't be good. There were too many factors involved in this for her liking, why wouldn't it just be simple?

Kristen opened her mouth to say something but then Olivia Ryan walked into the bathroom.

"Hey girls!" she waved enthusiastically at them. Alicia was the only one that acknowledged her, the rest of the PC found her annoying.

The bell to go to first period rang loudly and the PC exited the bathroom, they all went their separate ways except for Massie and Alicia, who both had Biology together. They took their seats in the center of the class and talked while they waited for class to start.

"So how are things with you and Josh right now?" Massie asked her. For once she didn't want the attention on her, because if it was then it was about her being pregnant.

"They're good, but guess what?"

"What?"

"Nina is coming to stay with us again."

Massie gasped. No! Not that slutty LBR!

"Why?! The last time she came here she basically ruined our life." Well, she thought, at least she had something else to worry about besides her pregnancy.

"She's changed, I think," Alicia said, thinking back to the summer she spent in Spain with Nina. After Nina had tried to ruin her summer, they'd made up and she hadn't done anything bad since then.

"She better have changed, I don't need her coming here screwing things up again."

"I'll try to make sure she doesn't do anyth-" Alicia was cut off by their Biology teacher, Ms. Reynolds.

"Quiet Ms. Rivera! Class has started now."

Both Massie and Alicia rolled their eyes at the same time. Massie kind of zoned out after that, she was thinking about the fact that the slut Nina was coming back, and how ironic it was that she was calling Nina a slut in her mind, considering she was the one pregnant. No, she thought, I am not a slut. Sure, she was pregnant, but she'd only had sex with one person, who she loved, it's not like she was just throwing it out there to any guy with a pulse. Though she was sure that's people would think if they knew.

"...And when the sperm fertilizes the egg that forms a zygote..." Of course Ms. Reynolds would talk about reproduction now of all times.

Alicia quickly glanced at Massie and then back up at the smart board, and Massie frowned at her. Did she not realize someone could've saw that and assumed something? Wait, Massie thought, I'm just being paranoid.

After what seemed like forever, the bell rang to leave the class, and Massie felt like she couldn't get out of there fast enough. She quickly got up and speed walked out.

"Slow down!" Alicia called after her, trying to catch up.

"That was so uncomfortable."

"I know, I was thinking that too."

The day went by painfully slow for Massie. She felt like everyone was thinking about her situation, even though that would be impossible since no one but her close friends know, but it still felt like it. Anytime anyone would look at her she'd involuntarily cross her arms low, so they'd be covering her stomach. She never knew she was capable of being so paranoid.

At the end of the day, while the rest of the girls left with Dylan, who turned sixteen at the beginning of the school year so she had her own car (a black Mercedes-benz), Massie had a doctor's appointment so she rode in the rang rover. As she got in she was surprised to see her mom and Landon there.

"What are you guys doing here?"

"I hope you didn't think I was going to miss your first appointment," Landon said as Massie sat next to him.

"Same here," Kendra called from the front seat, "I may not be happy about this, but I'm going to try to support you."

Monday, January 11th

Westchester Hospital

4:15pm

Massie only expected to come here to get an ultrasound and get information about the baby, she wasn't expecting to get blood drawn! She felt like they had to take so much of her blood it made her feel queasy. Then it was finally time to get to the ultrasound. First she met her new doctor, she was a petite woman with dirty blonde hair.

"Hi, I'm doctor Harrington," she smiled at Massie and reached out her hand to shake.

Harrington! That meant she was most likely related to Derrington, and that made Massie a bit uncomfortable. She didn't want this to get back to Derrington, because then he would tell his friends, who would tell more people, and then everyone would know! Massie hesitated for a second but then shook her hand. The doctor seemed friendly, but then she started asking questions that Massie really didn't want to answer with her mom in the room with her.

"When was your last period?"

Massie thought for a second, "October twenty fourth." Landon looked down at the ground awkwardly.

"Do you have any idea when the baby was conceived?"

"I'm pretty sure it was Halloween." Massie avoided looking at Kendra, who was now looking at the ground too.

"Well if we're going from your last period, you'd be eleven weeks. By now your baby's organs are forming fast, it's growing finger nails now..." the doctor went on talking about the baby's development so far and it was so weird for Massie to hear. She'd known about development of unborn babies before so it technically wasn't all new information, but it felt like it was, maybe because the unborn baby was hers.

When it was time to do the ultrasound, she laid back and lifted her shirt while Dr. Harrington spread the jelly stuff on her stomach and started moving the device around. Massie, Kendra, and Landon all looked at the screen waiting to see something. Massie involuntarily gasped when the sound of the heartbeat filled the room and she saw the figure on the screen. As the doctor pointed out where the body parts were, all Massie could think was, wow. She was kind of expecting to see something that shaped like a blob or something like that, but this was no blob, this was a baby. A tiny one, but still a baby.

My baby, she thought. Then she looked over at Landon who was staring intently at the screen, our baby. She looked in her mother's direction, even though she didn't want to take her eyes off the screen, and she saw that tears were forming in Kendra's eyes.

"What's wrong, mom?"

"Nothing," her voice broke, "It just feels so real to me now, I can't believe you have a little person inside you."

Massie felt the same way. Now there was no way she could think about getting an abortion. She'd only been pregnant for eleven weeks, but after this she didn't think she'd be able to think of her baby as an it, it was a person and she didn't think it was right to kill him or her.

Monday, January 11th

the Block Estate

5:40pm

Massie and Landon went in her bedroom to be alone and talk. Actually seeing their baby made things different than before, and more real, as she suspected it would.

"So," Landon said, "After that, I think it's safe to say abortion isn't an option, right?"

"Right," she agreed, "That was... I can't even describe it. Wow."

"I know what you mean, I wasn't expecting all of that."

"Yeah me neither," she sat down on her bed, "So now it's down to adoption and keeping the baby."

"Honestly, I'd prefer to keep it," he says, "But like I said last time, our circumstances aren't exactly the best."

"Yeah, but now I don't know if I'd want to do that..." she knew a married couple could give the baby a good life. Maybe she was being selfish, but she felt like even though adoption could give it a good life, it was her child so he or she should be with her and Landon. It was like the thought of adoption made her feel more possessive and attached. With their parents help, money shouldn't be a problem, but there was other stuff, mostly school. Even though Massie could feel herself growing more attached to what was inside her, she still worried about school. She didn't want her reputation being ruined, which it surely would once her belly becomes the size of a house. Not to mention, Landon was supposed to be going to college soon. She didn't want her child to not have it's dad around...

"I don't want to either," he agreed. Then he hugged her and kissed her head, "We'll figure this out."

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