Unfazed Love – Chapter 3

Authors note: Here's the next instalment. Hopefully, you all enjoy! All mistakes are in fact my own; all comments and concrit are welcome.

P.s – chapter 4 has also been written, and I'm working on chapter 5 right now, so they both will be posted shortly

Kirst xx

Shannon inhaled and exhaled. Her mind was racing at what felt like a hundred miles an hour; she couldn't believe what she had just done. Lawson was pissed. Shit. Shit. Shit.

Lawson approached Shannon, he was completely oblivious to what was going on with her… something was up, and he just wished she would tell him. Even it hurt, he wanted to know what was going on with his girl.

"Shannon…" Lawson murmured.

Shannon turned around, allowing her attention to be directed straight at Lawson, and then opened the passengers door and got into the falcon, without saying a word.

"So, what did Kerry say?"

"Well, she wants your head on a stick."

"Well, that's a surprise."

"Shan… you've got to take this seriously."

"Oh believe me, I am."

"Because you are staring at dismissal."

"Well, do you wanna keep your job or not?" Lawson asked.

Shannon sighed lightly, and rubbed her hand of her forehead.

"Well, if you are still a cop… this is what we're gonna do. We're gonna find Lexie and we're going to sort this mess out. You up for that?"

"Yep."

"Shan…Talk to me, okay. If you didn't want to do it, you should've told me."

"I'm sorry, Lawson," Shannon murmured as she glanced at Lawson. "Okay. I know I really screwed up."

"Hey… despite whatever you do at work and no matter how pissed I may get at the time… you know that nothing changes between us…"

"Lawson…"

As they pulled up at a set of traffic lights, Lawson turned his attention to Shannon, "No, listen to me. I'm serious. Okay, sure I'm concerned about what just happened, but I love you."

Shannon's blue eyes met Lawson's brown and she smiled lightly, "I know, Lawson."

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Shannon and Lawson walked out of the prison slowly, as they made their way towards the unmarked car.

"Shannon, what was that all about?"

"What was what about?"

"You're reaction to Joe…"

"He's a prick."

Lawson snorted, "You're starting to sound like me."

A slight smile formed on Shannon's mouth, "What can I say to that? Look, he shouldn't have gotten Lexie involved and then he tries to be all high and mighty. He can't seriously expect to be able to support Lexie and their baby."

"If I was him, I would never have involved you like that," Lawson stated, as he opened the drivers door.

"That's because you are nothing like him, Lawson," Shannon uttered in reply, as she got into the car.

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Lawson and Josh sat at the bar together having a few quiet drinks after a long day at work, despite it being a Wednesday night, their usual pub was packed. It looked as many others where already starting to feel the effects of the working week and needed some down time.

"Yeah," Lawson uttered into his phone, completely oblivious to who was on the other line.

"Lawson…"

"Shan?" Lawson asked, as he got up from the stool and tried to make his way to a quieter spot.

"Are you at the pub? I can hardly hear you."

"Yeah, Josh is with me… is that better?" Lawson asked as he walked outside.

"Yeah..."

"What's wrong, Shan?"

"Um, thank you for today. Despite me screwing it up, you still managed to help me fix it. You didn't have too."

"Hey, it's okay. I meant what I said earlier…"

"I know you did, but still thank you. So… Lexie really wants to see Joe in the morning. Kerry said its fine…"

"I'll go with you," Lawson stated.

"How'd you know I was going to ask you?"

"I know you, that's why."

"Thanks. So, I'd better let you get back to Josh. Text me when your home?"

"Sure thing. Goodnight, Shan. I'll see you tomorrow," Lawson uttered as he made his way back towards Josh.

"Night, Laws."

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Shannon had been at the TR base for the past hour, she hadn't slept well and her apartment was too empty without Lawson there; work was the only thing keeping her mind occupied. After spending the past hour on paperwork, she decided that it was probably time she got changed into her uniform.

Shannon made her way into the locker room, and sighed as she opened her locker door and started getting dressed in her uniform. She had just managed to get her pants on, when Lawson walked in.

"Morning," Lawson murmured as he opened his locker up.

"Good morning," Shannon replied.

Shannon turned around to face Lawson as she buttoned up her shirt, "Lawson, are you still coming with me to the prison?"

"Yeah, yeah. I said I would, Shan…" Lawson uttered in a reply as he did up his shirt.

"Thanks," Shannon uttered as she sat down to do her boots up.

"Ready?"

"Yeah, yeah. Let's go," Shannon replied.

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Lawson entered the visiting room, and walked towards Shannon and Lexie. He noticed Lexie turn back towards Shannon, and he sighed as he approached them.

"Lexie…" Lawson trailed off, as he got closer to the table.

"What's wrong?" Lexie asked.

Lawson sat down, "Joe… he's dead. I'm so sorry."

"What? What happened?!" Lexie exclaimed as tears started to stream down her face.

"I haven't been given any details, but by the looks of it, he was murdered," Lawson replied.

"They got to him, didn't they? DIDN'T THEY?!" Lexie yelled.

Shannon got up, and wrapped her arms around Lexie as she cried harder.

"It's okay. It's okay," Shannon murmured.

Lawson watched on. It was hard to imagine what Lexie was going through, as her tears echoed throughout the prisons visiting room; she had just lost that person that she loved completely despite everything that he had done to her. Lexie had lost her one; she had lost the father of her unborn baby.

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It was her fault. Lexie was dead, and her little girl was now without a father and a mother. It was her fault. Shannon's thoughts were going haywire; your fault! Your fault! It was all her fault. She sat still in the locker room, as tears slowly started to cascade down her face.

Shannon's eyes flickered up, as she noticed Lawson make his way into the locker room, "I killed her, Lawson."

"No, that's not true."

"She would still be alive, if I hadn't have gotten to her…"

Lawson moved towards Shannon as he spoke, "Listen. Listen, listen, no." Shannon glanced up and Lawson continued, "She wanted the money plain and simple. She wanted the money so she refused protection and there is nothing you could have done that could've changed that."

Shannon looked down, "Thanks."

A moment passed and Lawson was still leaning down at her level. Slowly, Shannon leant forward so that her head was resting against Lawson's shoulder and in an instant his arms engulfed her. Slowly, they both stood up, and as they did so, Shannon's tears flowed freely and Lawson's grip tightened.

"I'm sorry," Shannon uttered, as she cried into Lawson's shoulder. Shannon was sorry for the way she had acted at work; she was sorry that she couldn't bring herself to tell him that she had been raped and Shannon was sorry that she was pushing him away.

"It's okay, Shan. It wasn't your fault. It's okay, it's okay," Lawson murmured.

As Shannon's tears subsided, she looked up at Lawson, "I'm going to go to the hospital, and see Lexie's little girl. She wanted to call her Cecilia…"

"Do you want me to come with you?" Lawson asked, as Shannon walked over to her locker.

"Only if you want too…"

"Come on then, lets go," Lawson stated, as he grabbed hold of Shannon's hand, and they walked out of base together.