Dean opened his eyes, he glanced at the bedside clock through the darkness of the room, 5:39am. He sighed and settled into bed again, he could feel the weight of Misha's arm draped across his chest. He couldn't help smiling at Misha's sleeping form, his heart sank, he had to go back today. Part of him wanted to stay here where everything is simple and he could have a real life with Misha, but he knew deep in his heart that he had to go back. Dean knew his fate was to help save the world and as much as he hated it sometimes he couldn't just abandon it, not for anything. Plus he wanted to see Cas, it would be difficult to adjust back to just being friends with Cas when he had been so close to Misha, but he missed Cas.
Sometime later Misha woke up, he knew Dean was awake, hell Dean was practically breaking his ribs he was holding him so tight.
"What's wrong Dean?"
"Oh morning Mish, going back today remember" Misha could sense that Dean was unsure.
"But you get to go back to Cas"
"I know but I'm sure Cas won't act like, well this" he said gesturing to Misha cuddled up with him.
"You never know Dean, Cas is probably as crazy about you as you are about him"
"Thanks Mish but he's probably not"
"Well I don't know how he couldn't be, I am" Dean tightened his arms around Misha again and rested his nose in Misha's messy hair and pressed tiny kisses to his head. "I wish you didn't have to go Dean"
"Me too Angel, me too"
Both men sat at the breakfast table, Misha toyed around with a bowl of cereal that had turned to mush and Dean fidgeted with a cup of coffee. The phone rang and Dean picked it up reluctantly. Misha listened to Dean talk about the plan with Sammy over the phone, each word was like a pinprick to his skin. It all made him uncomfortable, he wasn't sure what he was hoping for, if it succeeded then Dean was gone and if not then who knows. Dean hung up the phone.
"So what's happening Dean?"
"Sammy says we will meet there and do the spell at 6, hopefully everyone will have cleared out by then so no one will get hurt"
"What should we do today Dean?"
"Anything you want Mish"
"Can we just watch a movie or listen to music and cuddle up, it might be the last chance we ever get" Misha swallowed a lump in his throat. Dean just nodded in return and reached for Misha's hand.
They sank down onto the sofa, Dean first and then Misha into his lap, they ignored the tv completely and just clung to each other like the earth was going to shatter if they let go. Misha stroked his finger over Dean's freckles on his nose, then kissed each one. Dean played with Misha's hair and rubbed his thumbs in circles on his back.
"I don't want you to leave" Misha whispered into Dean's ear
"I know Mish, believe me I know, I don't wanna leave either. But promise me something?"
"Anything"
"When I go, tell that Jensen guy how you feel, you have a good deal in this world. Make yourself happy Misha, you deserve it, plus it'll be easier for me to go knowing you'll be okay here"
"Dean he won't c..." Dean put his finger to Misha's lips
"Try, make him see how you feel, he will love you Mish I promise" he ghosted his fingers over the stubble on Misha's cheek, "You're amazing, beautiful and damn sexy, any guy would be lucky to have you. If I could stay here then I'd be with you forever I swear" A few tears ran down Dean's cheek, he was crying for all the things he couldn't have forever, he wanted Misha to have everything that he couldn't.
"But what about you?" Misha's voice cracked as water started to pool in his eyes. "What will you do when you're home?"
"I'll get back to fighting monsters and keeping people safe"
"But what about your happy ending?"
"Hunters don't get those" Misha could see how disheartened Dean was.
"You could have your happy ending with Cas, he knows the life and he understands what you do" Misha was almost pleading with him.
"I can't let him get that close Mish. Monsters, demons, even angels could use it against us more than they already do and I couldn't live with myself if anything happened to him 'cause of me"
"He can handle himself Dean, he's stronger than you think, please just at least tell him."
"I don't know"
"Do it for me, I'll tell Jensen but you need to tell Castiel, you deserve your happy ending too. Promise me, please Dean?"
"Okay I promise"
"Promise me one more thing too? Don't forget about me, even when you get Cas, don't forget that for a time you loved me too"
"I could never forget you, you taught me a lot of things and you made me so happy, you'll always have a place in my heart Misha"
"I have to go" Dean almost whispered. His eyes started to fill up again as he reached out to pull Misha into a hug. Misha clung onto him, digging his nails slightly into Dean's back.
"I'm coming to the set with you" Misha mumbled into Dean's broad chest.
"No Mish" He stroked a strong but soothing hand through Misha's hair, "You need to stay here where it's safe".
"Please I want to come with you"
"I can't let that happen, you have to stay here and stay safe and just wait for Jensen to come back then you can get your happy ending" Dean's voice started to give "That'll be so good I promise but please just stay here" Misha nodded hesitantly, he stood onto his tiptoes a little and kissed Dean softly. Dean held Misha in place and kissed him back, both of their faces were damp but neither of them cared. Dean finally pulled back, he pressed a kiss to Misha's forehead, "Goodbye Misha, I'll never forget you, remember our promise yeah?" Misha nodded again and sobbed a little.
"I love you Dean" He managed to choke out through the tears.
"I love you Misha, have a happy life" With one last soft kiss Dean was gone out the door. Misha watched from the window as Dean drove off, he sobbed quietly to himself, he really could see a future with Dean and that's what hurt so much.
*At Bobby's House After Sam And Dean Have Returned*
"You boys sound like you have had quite a crazy time" Bobby joked
"It was insane"
"He was married to Ruby" Dean told Bobby and pointed at Sam. Bobby shook his head and smiled a little.
"Well that's nothing Dean was bangi..." Dean kicked Sam's shin and gave him a glare, "OW Dean!"
"Sammy and his crazy imagination huh Bobby?"
"Well that's all the crazy I can take for one night" Bobby rose from his chair "I'm going to bed, night idjits, good to have you back".
Dean, Cas and Sam sat in Bobby's living room, Sam kept grinning at Dean.
"Hey Cas did Dean tell you about Misha?" Dean shot Sam a filthy look.
"Who is Misha?" Cas looked confused and tipped his head slightly to one side.
"I am gonna kill you Sammy"
"On that note I think I am gonna head to bed too, have fun you two" Sam teased and swiftly left the room as Dean hurled a cushion at him.
"Dean, who is Misha?" Cas' voice came out sharper than usual.
"Just some guy in the other world Cas, nothing to worry about."
"But why would Sam mention him?"
"Cause Sam's a dick."
"Dean I know when you're lying, so I'll ask again, who is Misha?" Cas' gaze was turning steely and cold.
"Okay okay, Misha was the real world's version of you, he was the guy who played you in the show."
"Why would Sam mention that?"
"I don't know Cas"
"Dean..." Cas' tone was harsh, he was getting irritated.
"Fine you want the truth Cas? I slept with fake you." Cas' face filled with confusion which soon turned to hurt with a touch of anger.
"Why?" He spoke quietly but he practically growled.
"I don't know why Cas"
"Stop lying to me Dean"
"Fine Cas fine, because he was like you."
"Then why didn't you tell me? You just decided to make love to someone who looked like me instead?" Cas was practically shouting, his cheeks flamed red and the lights started to flicker.
"It's not like that Cas, he made me feel wanted and I never thought that you would want me so..."
"So you went for the second best option and got some lookalike? After all I have done for you Dean how could you think that I would have no interest? I rebuilt your entire body and soul, I pulled you out of hell but you would sooner go and fuck some guy you barely even know?" Dean flinched at hearing Cas swear. Cas reached out and effortlessly ripped Dean's jacket half off, he put his hand to the bare skin over the scar he had made. "This is my brand, this means you are mine, no one else's" Cas was furious and Dean was dumbstruck.
"Please Cas I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you."
"You were supposed to be only mine Dean"
"Cas I...I'm sorry"
"Not good enough Dean" Cas was on Dean before he knew what hit him, he crashed their lips together, Dean staggered from the force of it but he held onto Cas tightly. Cas' hands were everywhere. They were in Dean's hair, under his shirt, he dug his nails into Dean's back. Dean arched into him, Cas pulled his mouth from the kiss and placed sloppy but fire hot kisses down Dean's neck, he paused to bite occasionally. Small red marks started to flourish under Cas' touch. Dean struggled for breath, his head was swimming, was this really happening?
"Cas" Dean struggled to stop panting enough to speak briefly, "Are you alright?"
"I am proving a point Dean."
"You don't have to prove anything to me Cas."
"I want to show you, that you are mine." Dean opened his mouth to speak but Cas' lips and tongue were there before a single word came out. Cas removed Dean's shirt swiftly and pushed him down onto the sofa, he sucked and nipped Dean's neck and chest causing Dean to gasp. A low growl escaped Cas' lips. "Do you want me Dean?"
"God yes, but what if someone hears?" Cas snapped his fingers and the setting changed, they were instead laid on a bed in a hotel. "I forgot that you can do that."
"No one will hear or see us here Dean, so where were we?" Dean reached out and pulled Cas to him. Cas started biting Dean's neck as Dean tried his best at the awkward angle to unbutton Cas' shirt. The shirt was shoved from Cas' shoulders and thrown to the other side of the room along with the trench coat and blazer. Followed shortly by the rest of their clothes. Dean stared at Cas' body, he was so beautiful. "So can you tell the difference between us?"
"Huh?"
"Me and Misha, can you tell the difference?"
"Of course I can Cas, why would you need to a..." Dean stopped in his tracks when Cas' large, coal black wings spread out from the angels back.
"But Misha can't do this" Cas grinned and was pleased he could go one better than Misha.
"Cas you're gorgeous" Dean reached out and stroked Cas' feathers. "They're so soft." Cas raised his eyebrows and flashed Dean a smile.
"Dean I am losing my patience." Cas purred. Dean's heart skipped a beat, holy hell, an angel of the Lord was naked and straddling him. He was sure for a minute he was dreaming. He pulled Cas forward so fast that Cas lost his balance and fell on top of him. Their lips pressed together and limbs intertwined. The lights flickered again, "Say it to me Dean"
"What do you want me to tell you Cas?"
"Tell me that you love me"
"I love you Cas, I've loved you for months, it's always been you" Cas hummed appreciatively.
"I love you too Dean. I have since I found you lost and broken in hell, I loved you even then."
"You're not still mad are you Cas?"
"No Dean, I'm not mad" Cas smiled a soft smile at Dean then kissed him hard and began to work his way down Dean's chest towards his hips. Dean couldn't believe his luck.
*In The Real World*
"C'mon Misha spit it out, what did you want to tell me?" Jensen asked eyes widened slightly in worry.
"I made a promise to Dean while you were gone, that I would tell you something."
"Well what was it?"
"I love you Jensen." Jensen's facial expression didn't move at first. Misha's eyes started to drip water, he turned away fast so Jensen wouldn't notice, as he went to walk away a strong hand grabbed his wrist and spun him back around. "Please let go, I've made an idiot of myself, just forget I said anything."
"What if I don't want to forget?" Jensen held Misha's jawline and touched their lips together.
"Does this mean that, well ya know?"
"That I love you?" Jensen questioned.
"Yes"
"Yeah it does Mish"
"Really?" Misha was in disbelief.
"Yep, I love you a whole lot." Misha threw his arms around Jensen and Jensen held him close. Misha silently thanked Dean wherever he might be.
Dean looked down at Cas, his hair was ruffled and his cheeks were flushed pink. He was drifting off to sleep, Dean laid there for a second wondering how Misha got on with Jensen, he whispered "Good luck Mish and thanks for the advice, you were right I got my happy ending." Cas heard and smiled to himself, he was touched that he was Dean's happy ending.
