Part 3

Their wedding was simply too much for me to handle at the time. Also it was very pathetic on my part. I remember everything so clearly and it depresses me to the maximum. Well here is how I ended up here in the bathroom crying my eyes out in a corner like someone who's cat just died…if only that were it.

I remember standing outside of the big chapel looking building and saying to myself that I could handle it and that I wouldn't be hurt at all that I would smile because I was worrying over such a small pathetic thing. I took a deep breath and grabbed Sasuke's hand and walked inside with him. I was dressed in a very simple pink dress, of course, with a simple outfit and nothing more I mean really I wasn't here to impress anyone, sure as hell not Naruto. And really what self righteous women goes to a person's wedding just to remind the groom of what he gave up on winning.

I remember walking inside and seeing such a well decorated place and hearing the other guest gossip about how it was the room that decorated the room and how he simply told his bride to be that she didn't have to worry about and really I looked at Sasuke and remembered how I continued to ask him for help and all he told me was "tell me when and where, I'll be there."

I remember watching as everyone went to their seats because it was time. My eyes followed Naruto as he went walked very quickly, really ran , to his position on the alter and his best man Gaara, who really didn't even give an effort to get there, walking behind him. His eyes practically begging Gaara to speed up which he did after making him look like a puppy, smirking.

I remember every one standing up as the song started playing, unlike everyone else I watched him and seeing his eyes light up with so much joy then I turned because everyone was just struck with aww. I turned and saw why. Hinata had her long her in curls with a halter top dress up, not looking indecent in anyway. The dress flowed around her as if she was standing in the middle of a white river and a perfect smile was on her face also a very light blush which simply added to her already stunning picture.

I remember watching them say their vows and really this was one of the main contributions to my position at the moment. Naruto's words cut the most, him talking about how with her he did find his moon and stars and how without her he wouldn't be who he was right now, which is the next hokage. Hinata's words were simply like putting salt on the wound. She spoke of how he changed her for the better and made her someone that she is extremely proud of. They both also spoke of how much they loved each other. As I watched I couldn't help but think about how Sasuke would probably just make someone write something down FOR HIM and not even care.

I remember seeing them kiss when instructed to and how everyone had tears running down their face and how my tears were the only ones that were not sincerely for them and their happiness.

I remember the reception and their dance, how everyone could fell that they had all but forgotten we were here and simply smiled together. I wanted to be loved like that but looking at Sasuke's face told me that I shouldn't expect that anytime soon.

I remember how I desperately I wanted to get him away from her just so I won't have to see their happy faces, or their glee. So when she started dancing with her family members and he went to sit down I got up walked over and asked him could we talk. I wanted for him to say something, anything that would slip out and just undermine what it seem that they had.

I remember sitting down on a bench with him and holding his hand, he thought I was examining the ring that made him legally Hinata's, but I simply held it for the purpose of maybe felling the love that he had for her through his hand. Sadly nothing came there was a spark thought but I think it was just me because he continued to smile looking at the ring.

I remember seeing Hinata in the corner watching us, secretly she thought, and desperately wanting to make her jealous. Yes I wanted her to be jealous I wanted the bride to be jealous on her wedding day. I felt at that moment that I deserved it because I had to watch them be happy ,watch them fix every little problem that came ,and watch them stand up for something so many, including me, was hoping wouldn't last. But in the end it did and here we were at THEIR WEDDING. SO when I was trying to kiss Naruto that could have been seen as expected.

I remember slowly leaning in just enough to get her attention but his words stopped me. He said with so much conviction "I don't think I would ever be able to live without her." So I backed away and asked why would he think that and he said "well I mean everything since we were kids kinda helped me to achieve so much and I don't know if she were ever to leave if I could make it.

I remember his next words and that's really what killed the plan of kissing him right then and there.

Flashback

"Well Naruto what do you mean you've made it through a lot without her you don't really need her to be there." I said. Heck, he can find someone else preferably a man who he won't fall in love with.

"I mean really she just brings so much sunshine and happiness and she keeps me stable. Without her I think I may have given up on my life goal to become hokage. It's not just that she gets so happy with even the smallest things I do and really I think she deserves better than me but I'm just so happy. Every time she looks in my eyes and smiles I just feel so happy, and my eyes being her favorite color helps out a lot."

As he continues I just sit there and thought did Sasuke think I deserved better, did he like the simple things I do… does he even know my favorite color?

End of Flashback

I remember Gaara coming outside with his girlfriend, I think, Matsuri. He just looked at me as thought being able to read my thoughts. Slowly I shrank away Naruto got up and Hinata appeared as though she wasn't hiding at all. They asked if everything was ok Naruto hurriedly said yes and went right by her Gaara and Matsuri blocked my view his eyes conveying a message to me. It kinda said "don't try anything pinky."Matsuri suggested we get back to the reception and that the bride and groom couldn't really stay outside all day. Leaving me and Gaara in a stare down which I gladly let him win he then said "look I don't like you but if you try to mess up his life I'll hate you and people I hate aren't really seen often." Then turned and walked away. He then left not looking back leaving me to my thoughts whatever they were at the moment. I then decided to stay outside for a while and just think.

I remember getting lost after walking around trying to think and stumble on Hinata and Naruto outside his arms around her. This is what really hit me and caused me to be here in the bathroom.

Flashback

I was walking around the building as was everyone else the reception had somehow traveled outside and everyone was just hanging out talking with a friend or family of the bride and groom.

I decided then to travel to the front realizing that it was probably the only place where people wouldn't be found. As I got there I saw to figures getting closer I could see that it was the lovely couple.

They seemed to just be there watching the sunset hand in hand.

'Talk about bad host's.' I thought shaking my head. As I watched them stand there something happened. Hinata turned and took Naruto's hand into hers making him face her with a look of confusion. They were both now facing each other hands forming a ball.

"I need to ask something." She said so softly that I had to strain my ears to hear.

"Do you…I mean did you…?" she continued looking down never once glancing in another direction.

Looking carefully I saw that her shoulders were shacking a little. Naruto put his hands under her chin and pulled her face up whipping the tears that were coming out of her eyes.

"What is it?" He said in a very understanding voice as thought giving her time.

"Did you ever get over her?" Now he was really confused but I think I sort of understood who she was talking about and suddenly I didn't want to walk away and give them their privacy I wanted to hear everything he had to say.

Now I'm regretting I didn't leave.

"What do you mean get over who?"

"Do you still love her or have any feelings for her?" she asked again her voice creaking slightly from either fear or anger and at the moment I think it was both.

"What do you mean get over who still have feeling for who?" he was now completely lost obviously seen in his face.

"Never mind." She said abruptly dropping his hands and wrapping them around her. He looked at her for awhile no movement then he grabbed her hands.

"You mean Sakura right?" he pulled her closer as he said it and she looked up her eyes waiting for the answer.

"Well if you must know. Yes I still do have feelings for her." The moment those words came out my heart leaped in my chest doing dances of joy and I could even swear that I smiled as Hinata's face immediately went down.

"Then why marry me, let me guess I was your last choice right." She said roughly pulling away from him tears streaming down her face.

"Can I finish please?" he asked coming up to her looking straight down into her eyes her face tilled upward.

"Those feelings I have for her will never change. I will always want to protect her and help her up when she's down and I will always be here for her to fight when the time comes. But with you it's so much different. I don't want to have to protect you like I protect her I want you to be close to me not far away. I want to be able to cheer you up by telling you how beautiful you are and beat up the people that put you down. And if that time ever came I would be ready to kill at a moment's notice. What I feel for her is like a brother ready to protect his sister what I feel for you is complete and total devotion so yes I do still feel the same about her because she will always be my sister. But with you my feelings went from friend to girlfriend to fiancé to finally getting to call you by my last name. There is absolutely no need to worry because I've already won the best thing ever I don't think I'm dumb enough to leave it. Hinata Uzumaki" he finished smiling down at her.

At that moment I didn't feel my heart jump up and down or do any little dance. I felt as though hundreds of kunai were piercing my body going straight through me making sure not one piece of me was left.

I felt those little pieces of a heart I had left just be stabbed over and over again breaking into smaller pieces probably never to be found again.

I felt my knees give way not being able to watch this show any longer. So I ran and knowing that many people were already surrounding the area I ran inside and into the first door I could get into which proved to be the bathroom.

So here I am a sad soon to be bride crying at another's wedding not because of the festive event but because I realize that me and the person I "love" will never view me as Naruto views her and maybe I did miss out. But as I look around I realize that not everything lasts for long I may have hope he may become annoyed while my marriage makes it or he may remember what we had and want me back. So with those thoughts in mind I think that's what pushed me to get up and walk around after awhile because even thought my heart was crushed beyond repair I had hope that he would mess up and want me back.