T.J. POV
I ran out of the house to try and stop my dad from leaving. I knew he was mad at grandma, but I had to try.I was trying to tell him the accident was going to happen now. It flashed right before my eyes while he was yelling at grandma. It was mostly the same except now I saw how it started. A white car kept swereving in and out of both lanes. My dad tried to avoid it and he did, but he started losing control and the rest is history.
"Daddy wait!" I said
"Thomas get back in the house and stay with your mother"
"But-
"I swear to god Thomas get your ass back in the house now!."
I started crying when he said that. That was the first time my dad ever yelled at me. I ran back into the house. I ran past my mom and grandma and headed straight for my room. I jumped on my bed I started sobbing.
My mother came into the room and tried to comfort me.
"Don't worry sweetheart, daddy just needs to gather his thoughts. He'll be back." It took every fiber of my being not to say anything. I wanted to tell her that he wasn't but what could I say? I could barely explain it to myself, explaining it to mom was going to be hard.
SHARON POV
It's been 45 minutes since Jason left. I was really hoping nothing happened I mean it couldn't right? If we look at my track record we should be fine. T.J. still hasn't come out of his room. I thought the poor thing was asleep, but when I checked his room he was still crying. Not to long after that there was a knock at the door. I didn't understand why Jace was knocking. I mean, it wasn't our house but his mom didn't mind him walking in. The only times he did knock was when he brought T.J. and that was because he wanted to teach him good manners.
I went to go open the door and thought it was Jace, but there were two police officers at the door. I was really hoping they had the wrong house because I didn't want it to have anything to do with my husband.
"Are you Sharon Matthews?" said the first officer. I nodded.
"I'm Deputy Caine and this is Deputy Swan" he said pointing to the other officer who I recognized from a party Billy Black threw at his house awhile ago.
"Charlie? is that you?"
"Hey Sharon. Didn't think you'd remember me"
"What's all this about?"
"Well Sharon it's about Jason, there's been an accident." After that everything went silent. I didn't hear anything else that they said. I didn't even hear Katherine come into the room. I felt...hollow like a big piece of me was missing. Before I knew it was the day before his funeral. I have no idea how I got through all these weeks but I guess I was on auto pilot. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were bloodshot, with bags under them. I looked and felt like shit, and before I knew it I started crying again. I was surprised I had anything left.
There was a knock at my door. I opened it and T.J. came into the room.
"Mommy?"
"yes?"
"I'm...sorry." I was a bit taken aback when he said that.
"For what sweetheart?"
"for...not saving daddy" my eyes started welling up as soon as he said that. I picked him up and sat him on the bed.
"This is not your fault, it's no ones fault."
"It is my fault...I couldn't stop him from leaving and now he's...gone" he started sobbing.
I held him for the next half hour before he fell asleep. I placed him on the bed and left the room. I wanted to find Katherine, it feels like I haven't seen her in ages. I went down the hall into the living room. She wasn't there but I could hear some clattering in the kitchen so I headed there. Sure enough, she was standing there getting ready to make dinner. Dinner. Huh I didn't realize I was in there this whole time.
"um Katherine?"
Sigh "I told you Sharon, you can call me mom" she said with a sad smile.
"Well, mom?"
"Yes Sharon?"
"Thank you...for everything. I mean it...thank you"
"Sharon don't thank me. I told you before we're family, and we'll get through this together"
" I know but... I can't believe he's gone" I put my head in my hands and started shaking.
She crossed the room and wrapped her arms around me. I could feel her tears falling down on my shirt.
"I know" she said " I miss him too, but we need to be strong Sharon."
"I know"
We stayed like that for at least fifteen minutes. She let go and went back to cooking. I headed back to the room to go lie next to T.J.
KATHERINE POV
The funeral was a very diffucult to sit through. I never had to much trouble with funerals. But I honestly never thought I would attend one for my son. This shouldn't be happening, if anything it should be the reverse. I should be in his place, he should be here with his family. This is my fault, if I didn't tell him the truth he would still be here.
Alot of Jason's friends came to pay their respects. My grand nephew Sam and his mother Allison came as well. After we got condolences from everyone, we all headed to first beach for the repast. T.J. was sitting with Sharon on some logs and watching the wave crash.
"Hey guys"
Sharon was the only one to respond.
"Hey"
"T.J., do you want to go meet the other kids?" he shook his head no.
"Are you sure? they don't bite and you can meet your cousin Sam."
I looked at Sharon with eyes that basically meant I was begging for her help. She let out a sigh before saying
"T.J. I think that could be good for you, we'll be living here on the reservation and it wouldn't hurt for you to have people your own age to play with."
"But what if they don't like me?"
"Well sweetheart, you won't know until you try. Besides grandma and I will be right here if you need us ok?"
"Maybe later."
"Why are you so scared honey?" I asked.
"I'm not it's just...I'm supposed to meet Sam later."
Me and Sharon both looked at him like he had purple hair.
"What do you mean later?" Sharon asked.
"I'm supposed to meet them when I'm a wolf remember?"
I forgot he had that dream. Part of me is proud that he will become a protector of our people. But I'm also afraid of losing him. One loss was enough in this family, we don't need another.
"Sweetheart, you can't avoid them forever, everyone here pretty much knows eachother, theres no way around it."
"It won't be forever grandma just till I'm older."
"Are you afraid that you won't change if you meet him now?" he shrugged.
"I don't know, it just doesn't feel right if I meet them now. Don't worry I'll make friends, but not now."
After that we just let him be. I'm sure he would've been fine if he did talk to the boys now, but I didn't want to push. I just hope that when he does change, he stays safe.
T.J. POV
It's been a few months since my dads funeral. Mom enrolled me in school here on the rez. I've been begging her and grandma to homeschool me. They said no time and time again. I kept telling them that it wasn't fair because I would know what we were supposed to do beforehand. I even tried failling a few assignments just out of some form protest. But they told me if I didn't pass, I would get held back. I don't hate school it's just so...pointless.
As far as friends go I did make one, her name is Kim. She's kinda pretty but a little too obsessed with Jared Cameron if you ask me. She would always talk to him but he always ignored her. I wanted to tell her to let it it go but then I had one of those "day dreams" I get from time to time. In it, Jared and Kim looked a little older but they also looked a little weird. I don't know how to describe it but, when she moved so did he. And they looked at eachother with lovey dovey eyes. It was kinda gross but whatever, if their then their happy.
I kept getting more dreams about various members of the pack like Sam, Embry,Leah etc. I felt really bad about how Leah and her brother Seth changed. I know what it's like to lose a parent but I can tell Leah may never forgive herself for that. I was mad at Sam for hurting her but after seeing him explain imprinting, I saw that he doesn't really have a choice. Seeing the way he looks at Emily is the same way Jared looks at Kim. I guess that explains that whole lovey dovey look, still a bit much if you ask me.
I also had a few dreams about a girl named Bella Swan. She seemed so out of place in Washington. She seemed liked she didn't want to be here. Well, until she met some dude named Edward. I'm pretty sure he's not a wolf but they have the same look in their eyes. That...intensity that you would get with imprinting. Speaking of eyes, this Edward has some very strange eyes. His whole family does actually. I've seen them go from black to gold. For the most part, they seem very nice except for the one called Rosalie. Don't know what her problem is, but I'll be sure to keep my distance.
I didn't see them being a problem. Even after Bella decided to "investigate" them if you want to call it that. She tried practically everything, she even asked Jacob, although I'm pretty sure he wasn't allowed to. How are ancestors are descendants of the the wolf. He told her about the treaty that our ancestors made with "theirs". Basically, some pretty major secrets. After she did more of her research she found out the Cullens are actually...vampires. Well Edward kinda told but not after giving her a warning to let things go. He showed her that he was practically a killing machine but she didn't care.
Now I understand this whole protect our land from a threat business. But to be honest with you, they don't seem like a threat. They're different...no scratch that they are different. Like us, they value human life as well. I've seen our people give them a less than stellar attitude, but they have never done anything to violate what we laid down for them. And they never will.
I've been writing most of my dreams down so I can keep track and narrow them down. Haven't had too much luck with a good chunk of them, but I have narrowed down when I'll change. When Sam changes, he looks no older than 18 years old. I'm a year younger than he is so 17 seems to be the earliest with 18 being the latest. And to be perfectly honest I can't wait to be a wolf.
