I sat at the window staring blankly at the trees rushing past us to hide my scattered emotions and thoughts. I listened to the sound of the steady beats of horseshoes pounding the ground, and the shaking of the carriage the reverbirated through us. I stole a quick look at his slender pale face famed in locks of black velvet, his crimson blood eyes closed. He was sitting on the opposite side of the compartment, and at my quick glance jerked his head up, his hair moving from his face except that one stubborn lock that laid in-between his burning eyes, and looked at me. With a sly smile he looked away, as if showing off his perfect demonic beauty to me. I looked back to the window again, lightly flushed, and moved my hand to cover my mouth as I yawned. We were on our way back to the estate, but it would take a while because we left a town that was about 6 hours away from my mansion, and we had just sat down not 20 minutes ago.
"Tiered young master?" Sebastian asked at my yawn.
I only looked at him and drew in a deep breath. I was exhausted. I had not been sleeping too well and waking up three to four times a night sweaty and breathless. It has been a week since Sebastian and I had our small affair, and he has been teasing and toying with me since then, but never speaking a word of his actions, or desires for me. And I allowed him to toy with me, I enjoyed it. It felt exhilarating and secretive to be with someone like him, even if I knew we were to end badly, for some reason he seemed to be worth it. Just as my soul would be for him.
I nodded my head as a reply. Sebastian stood holding onto the ceiling and placed a hand at the top of the bench I was sitting on to steady him self so he would not fall on top of me due to the rocking of the carriage. He sat next to me and patted his lap. I leaned over with my head and folded my legs next to me, pressing my heals against the wall to push my self towards him. I rested my head on his thigh as pillow and closed my eyes.
I felt the carriage bump and my small body rise off Sebastian's leg and bench, jolting awake. He quickly grabbed me so I would not fall to the floor and hugged me tightly bringing my face up to his, so he could hug my chest more. I blushed realizing my hand was holding tightly to his lap, and looking down I realized how close I was to his groin, I had squeezed my hand tightly in the commotion and by being startled awake, quickly and blushing darker I released my hand and sat up, escaping form his hug and looked out the window again trying to ignore his pleasure in my accidental action. The carriage was darker now and I could tell I had been sleeping for a while. I was surprised I had not woken earlier like I do during the night, maybe Sebastian being so close had helped me relax, even if he was the reason I couldn't sleep at night.
I refused to look at him but I knew he was grinning, I could feel the presence of his stare on me.
"Wipe the smirk off your face," I mumbled and speaking a little louder I asked, "How long was I asleep?"
"One hour and fifteen minutes." He said checking his silver pocket watch, glinting in the lasting sun as it was opened. I opened my eyes wider and looked at him, my face full of surprise; that was probably the longest time I had slept consecutively all week.
"Bocchan?" Sebastian asked worried. I quickly recovered my usually grim look, I did not want him to know about my sleeping issues.
"Its nothing we just still have so much longer to go still."
We sat in silence for a few minutes, Sebastian still sat next to me, but I had turned my body so that my whole back was facing him, my legs folded under me. I sat imagining what I could be doing right now with Sebastian in this carriage on a long way to home, I dreamt of kissing him, his hands roaming my body, and being free of embarrassments, but soon I chastised my thoughts when I realized I was pooling drool under my tongue and was sucking in saliva to keep it from falling making quite wet noises. How long was I like that, Did Sebastian notice? I blushed thinking if on the off chance he knew what I was thinking, all of the images ran through my head again, No, I knew that was not true I was just I over exaggerating. But what if he was thinking the same things?
I fell backwards knowing he would catch me, letting my legs slide to the left and dropping , hanging there a few inches above the floor. His hand caught me and held over his lap his other hand reached down to touch my face and he smiled.
"Careful."
I closed my eyes and like I had rehearsed in my head I strained my muscles to bring my face up to his. I was worried I'd miss his lips or he wouldn't kiss me back, but I pressed on. My lips met his chin, and instead of pulling away I tried to cover up my bad aim and kissed his neck too. Blushing because I know that I messed up. His hand that was holding my back pushed me up and I felt my lips slide up his neck, leaving a small wet line, I moved my head backwards so I wouldn't run into his chin and kissed his lips. With out moving my face form his I turned so my legs could touch the floor and awkwardly stood leaning down slightly still kissing him. I felt his knees open so that I could stand in between them and I did so I could press closer. I then lifted me leg so I could sit on his lap. When I felt comfortable and balanced on his lap, with some help from Sebastian's hands that were now holing tightly to my back and left thigh, I moved my other leg up onto him. I pushed my hand from his neck down his shoulder, the back of my hand against the soft fabric of the bench, it was a little bit hard to move my hand there because he was leaning against the wall, and pressing into me so close. He had my hand pinned there and that was ok because then I did not fear falling off of him, despite his tight hold on me. I pulled out of our long and intense kiss and tried to catch my breath, I was panting my hot forehead pressed against his cool one, I could hear his breathing too was a little rugged but I had not expected it to be. I pushed a against his forehead before moving mine to look at him. He was staring at my lips, his parted to get more air.
I studied his features thinking how could this be really be happening. How could I, Ciel Phantomhive, be here, right now, kissing this wonderful creature, Sebastian Michaelis.
His hand moved along my thigh and for a second I thought maybe he did share the images in my head because he moved to my inner thigh and softly kneaded my plush skin, just as I had imagined in the dream. He smirked at me knowingly, but just then I knew for certain we had not shared the images, because he moved father and continued to knead, making me pant harder and for more air. My body turned white hot and I could feel small drops of sweat form. He moved his face to my neck and licked, his tongue trembled because of the slowness of the stoke. I softly moaned at his hand, pressing into to me. But I reached down with my free one and held his wrist, I knew I didn't have the strength to move it, but I grabbed it harder and I could feel the bones twist under my slim fingers.
"Please stop, don't do that." I said. And he stopped moving his fingers, placing his hand on my chest, I still held his wrist. He removed his face form my neck and looked at my face. My head was down, eyes closed. I was in pure exactly like this with him, but something was wrong. I just didn't know what. He trailed his hand from chest to my chin lifting my to his face, I opened my eyes, and found his peering into me.
"I understand" he said after a moment, he released his hand form my chin, letting my head drop again, and loosened his grip on my back allowing me to separate form him. But I did mot move. I shook free my hand that was pinned behind him, and placed both my hands on my knees, that were spread over his lower body. I felt the back of my eye patches' strings loosen I lifted my head to look him in the face the same time the black fabric fell, I opened my other eye revealing the mark that he had given me. Sebastian moved his left hand in between us and up to his mouth, he flashed me his white teeth as he bit the tip of his middle finger and pulled his hand down while he flicked his neck never dropping his eye contact with me, his white glove hung by his teeth for a second before dropping. He prepared him self to take and order, but I did not have one to give.
" This mark you gave me. It is my call for you and you must do anything I ask of you. But it is also your way of tracking prey, so that I can never escape. Is that all I am, your Master, your prey?" I asked doubt filled my mind that he would be truthful, but I knew he could not lie because It would break a promise he made to me long ago. I braced myself for his answer.
"You are correct, Young Master, it is indeed what you say it is and no more or less." A tear formed in my eye and I could feel the warm drop fall down my face, it followed my jaw line to my chin and dropped.
"But you are not just my master, Not just my prey."
I looked down at his cheek blushing, that couldn't be true. The reason he continues to serve me is becuase I am his food source.
"Look at me," He whispered. I forced my self to look at his eyes but It took me several tries to hold his gaze. "You are my love. I have never loved a human before, I have never loved. Human emotions are new to me, and vary rare to obtain. I am only one of many that will probbaly never be so close to human nature as I am now"
"I-" Sebastian cut me off with his thumb, tracing the seam of my lips , the rest of his hand caressing my cheek. He pet my lips.
"Kore ijo no kotoba." His eyes closed and pulled me into him.
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*kore ijo no kotoba - 'no more words'
