Count On You

Chapter 2

Carlos was standing around watching everyone talk he knew it was nice of Gustavo to throw them a party and invite their friends but he realized he didn't really knew anybody sometimes felt left out when people had parties or dances. Kendall Logan James always grabbed dates and when Logan was sure he was going with Camille Carlos felt he didn't want to go anymore. He sighed standing by the punchbowl now even Logan was off with Camille somewhere dancing whatever and he was picking at the cookies

Camille had left the party hours ago, claiming she had an audition early the next morning. Once she left, Logan had run into Guitar Dude. One thing led to another and the two boys were seated in the guitarist's hotel room smoking marijuana. Now the drug was making its effects known to the smart boy as he stumbled across the room to Carlos. "Hey, man."

"Hey Logie bear" he grinned loved teasing him with that name. "I think next party Gustavo needs to ask Katie's help with planning the party.. cookies are stale."

Logan giggled at the nickname. He threw an arm around his friend and tasted one of the cookies he was complaining about. "Tastes fine to me, Carlitos."

Carlos laughs "all yours buddy. So is this what la parties are like? honestly I like the ones we through better back at home I don't even know half the people here but they seem to know me, kind of weird"

"Well, you want to get out of here? We can go upstairs and hang out with Guitar Dude. That dude knows how to throw a party." Logan laughed.

"No I barely know him, he's more your friend then mine" Carlos wondered why he was feeling depressed all of sudden. "I'm just going to go back to the apartment"

"Oh, come on, Carlos. Don't be upset. Let's just go up to see Guitar Dude. Just for a few minutes and if you want to leave, we will. I have to get something from him anyway, and I don't want to go alone."

Carlos smiled he'd never let Logan go alone he nodded leaving with him. "Is it odd that us and our friends aren't even at our party? Carlos laughs

Logan laughed as he dragged Carlos upstairs to Guitar Dude's apartment. "I wonder where Kenny and Jamie ran off to." He smiled. Logan was in such a good mood.

"Kendall looked upset Jo wasn't there and James of course probably found some girl. He sighed. Guitar dude was in his room strumming his guitar smoking weed when he herd a knock "enter... hheeyy Loganator" he smiled "and friend"

"Guitar Dude." Logan noticed that his friend was still smoking weed. "You haven't smoked my half, have you?" he teased his hippie friend.

"What friend I am if I did that? Of course no"

Carlos was shocking Logan smoking weed? No never he'd never smoke anything he remembered Logan yelling at his mom to quiet smoking when he was only seven. new his honey going to start smoking? Logan? future dr?

"I was just checking." Logan walked over and took the seat next to him, immediately taking his portion and beginning to smoke it. "Carlos? You okay, man?"

Carlos felt his heart break he felt so stupid so blind he had no right to be angry though just at himself. "Dude you going to be sick barrels right there." he had no idea Logan and guitar dude were going out.

Through the haze in Logan's mind, he could tell that something was wrong with the Latino. "Carlos, come sit down. Are you sick?"

"Sometimes this makes someone sick if not used to the smell dude really come in.." said guitar dude

Carlos knew he was being rude but he didn't want to walk in on a private party "no I'm ok.. sorry..." he forced a smiled

Logan smiled. "It's okay, Carlos. Now get in here. You promised me you'd stay for at least a few minutes."

He smiled he did promise and he'd kill himself if anything happened to Logan because he couldn't handle seeing him with his new boyfriend. "Ahh Logan can I just ask.. When did you start smoking weed?"

Guitar dude chuckled a little "Logan you haven't told him?" Carlos heart kept getting heavier and more heavier

"He would've freaked if I told him. They all would've. You know that."

"No we wouldn't have Logan? How could you say that?" Carlos screamed. "Because Logan so straight and narrow you three never suspect him of being into it"

"Maybe but we wouldn't have freaked over it!"

"Look, I'm sorry I didn't tell you, Carlos, but he's right. You, Kendall, and James would never have approved of this."

"You really think that fucking low of me!"

Guitar dude was shocked never known Carlos to use such language or temper ever not even when bitters changed prices of the snack machine

"Dude sound like my guitar when I break a cord"

Logan temporarily looked at Guitar Dude before turning back to Carlos. "I never said that, Carlos! All I said was that you wouldn't have approved of me doing this, and you know I'm telling the truth!"

"Well that shows how much you fucking know me Logan Mitchell! I would have been shocked if you told me you were gay yes but I never would have disapproved of it! thanks a lot for even thinking I could a bigot!" he didn't care about his promise anymore he got up and left not wanting to watch Logan flirt with his new boyfriend anymore

"Umm somehow I don't think were talking about the same thing here?" guitar dude said after Carlos left

"I don't think we are at all. I got to go after him." Logan made it to the door before turning around to face Guitar Dude. "Don't finish mine while I'm gone. I'll come back up tomorrow." He ran out of the apartment. "Carlos!"

Guitar dude gave him thumbs up signs as Logan left and back to his guitar. "I don't want to talk to you right now Logan" he said calmly not wanting to look at him. But he hurt too bad inside how could you think that way of us? of me I always like to think we were closer then with the other two why would you think id ever be against you being gay Logan?" he cried Logan couldn't even tell Carlos loved him

I've never been angry at you before Logan before now"

"I'm sorry I made you upset, Carlos. I don't think we were talking about the same thing back there though."

"You could have told us you were gay Logan we never would have turned on you why would you ever think that?"

"I don't think that. Carlos, what Guitar Dude meant back there was that I didn't tell you guys that I've been smoking weed for a month now. I was going through some things, and I came to relax by the pool. He talked me into going up to his apartment and things went from there."

Carlos felt like such a jerk he just made an idiot of himself in front of guitar dude and.. and his crush "oh..oh Logan I'm sorry I…I'm sorry" he hugged him "i was just angry because I thought you thought id be angry over it.. god.. I'm so sorry"

Logan hugged him back. "I didn't want the three of you worrying. That was why I didn't tell you. Maybe I should have told you. I'm sorry."

"Actually when I got there you smoking was last thing on my mind I thought it was odd yes but .. I was more concern with.. I thought you and him were dating. You're allowed to have secrets Logan"

Logan couldn't help but start to laugh at Carlos's assumption. "I'm sorry, Carlos. You thought I was dating Guitar Dude?"

Carlos blushed "well you guys spending time together lately.. sorry I'm at the point lately were I think everyone's paired up"

"That's ridiculous! Like I said, he's been helping me get through some issues I've been having. That's it. I wouldn't date Guitar Dude."

"We should probably get back down there I feel I owe him an apology"

"I didn't want to say it, but yeah, you kind of do. You were a bit harsh."

"You're my best friend Logan" he hugged him and go back to his room.

"You're my best friend too, Carlos, and I'm sorry if I made you feel any less."

"I'm just glad I was wrong." Carlos knocked on guitar dude door

"Enter" he herd from inside.

"Hey.. um.. I'm sorry I must have looked like a nut before." Carlos its ok man.. just relax.. come in."

"We can go back home if all of this bothers you," Logan whispered. "I can come back up here tomorrow by myself like I planned. Whatever you wanna do, Carlos."

"no its ok I fell a lot better now I mean now you know I wouldn't be against you so you say this stuff makes you feel better?" guitar due took a smoke and nodded. "Makes you feel with it man forget everything."

Logan walked in with Carlos and resumed his previous position. He took a smoke as well and looked at Carlos. He couldn't believe he was about to do this. Logan handed his out to Carlos. "Wanna try?"

Carlos nodded if Logan was into he would at least try it.

"Here." Logan handed it over to his best friend.

Carlos took the joint and took a puff coughing right away.

"Oh yeah don't take such big puffs dude easy and I don't want to start more drama or anything but if you want an easy way to do this you can blow smoke into his mouth"

This only made Carlos cough again trying not to blush

Logan moved closer to Carlos. "Easy, buddy. You want to try doing that? That's what I had to do my first few times."

Carlos nodded just wanted to feel Logan breath on his lips he felt so nervous as they did this the way he sat on the bed his hand hands were holding the mattress which he slipped onto Logan's kissing Logan well falling onto his lips

Logan was taken back when he felt Carlos's lips against his. Oddly enough, he didn't pull away. Instead, he pulled the Latino closer and moaned softly into the kiss. Maybe it was the month of drug use finally getting to him or maybe Carlos's assumption of him being gay was true. Considering how high Logan was at the moment, he didn't honestly care.

Guitar dude just smile and played gently "little make out music guys?"

Carlos was surprised Logan didn't stop him it was an accident even though he wanted so much to kiss Logan he loved that his hands gave out at that moment he started to hug Logan "I'm feeling a little light headed"

Logan looked down at Carlos, holding him close. "Are you okay? What happened? Is the smoke starting to get to you?"

"Yeah I think it is, and yes I'm ok." Carlos was shocked by everything he loved the kiss Logan gave him or that he gave Logan he wasn't sure his crush just kissed him "I don't know if its just the smoke doing this to me."

Guitar dude looked over at him. "Is he going to pass out?" he knows Logan wants to be a doctor someday

Logan looked at Guitar Dude. Logan was the only one who really understood the guitarist. Over the past month the two had really gotten to know each other. Logan realized how caring he really was. "I don't think so." He turned back to Carlos. "Are you going to be alright?"

Carlos nodded he felt himself getting hard he didn't want the others to see that he sat up trying to hid it "yeah I'm ok." the bathroom is next room over"

Carlos just shook his head feeling even more embarrassed

Logan rubbed Carlos's back soothingly. "Are you sure? Do you need anything?"

He leaned over to Logan I have a hard on" he whispered

"Oh, really? What caused that?"

"They say weed causes that."

"You spending too much time with Logan" Carlos laughed "its natural Carlos were all guys here but if you do want to take care of it bathroom is down there"

Logan laughed. "Or maybe I'm spending too much time with him. Who knows?"

"Nah never too much time buddy you guys always welcome here."

Carlos smiled he was glad guitar dude liked him he always felt so closed in when the other guys wasn't with him and he hated that feeling. "Logan you said you were feeling sad when you come here. What's wrong?"

Logan sighed. He knew this was coming eventually. He just wasn't expecting Carlos to ask so soon. "I wasn't feeling loved. I didn't tell you guys, but Camille and I broke up a long time ago. She cheated on me with that Steven guy. On top of that, there was all the stress from the band and the tour. I felt like I had to live up to this huge expectation of who I should be. I just didn't feel like myself."

"Logan…you have no ones expectations to live up but your own and as for Camille. I'm sorry but she's not worth you feel so sad over and Steven next time I see him ill go over and punch him out for making you feel hurt"

"That's what I've been trying to tell him…well in a way " said guitar dude

"And you have been loved Carlos smiled

Logan smiled. Carlos, Guitar Dude, Kendall, and James all loved him. They were his best friends, and they were the only ones who mattered to him. "You're right. I love you guys."

"If Camille can't see what a great man she had then she wasn't that smart to begin with and Steve please he's not even cute" guitar dude kind of laughed told him that too.

Logan laughed. "He did tell me that. Thanks a lot guys. It means a lot."

"You know this.. isn't so bad I mean its nice to get away for awhile." "Its best to do this kind of stuff with a friend instead of off the streets. That way your with someone who cares about you if you know stuff happens"

Carlos didn't want to think of stuff that might happen and it's kind of kinky too" he smiled at Logan

Logan smiled and nodded. "That's why I come to you, Guitar Dude. I always know you'll have my back." He took a smoke off his joint and handed it back to Carlos. "Wanna try it out again?"

He nodded feeling more at ease now guitar dude found himself enjoying watching them. Carlos inhaled slowly again feel Logan's breath it was calming him down

"Better this time?" He asked, genuinely concerned. Logan leaned over to kiss his friend's cheek, gently running his fingers through his hair.

Carlos nodded "much better do you think I can come with you from now on when you come here?" he asked dreamily.

"Hey remember Carlos your welcome here always." guitar dude smiled

"Of course. I'll bring you whenever you want."

Next morning Kendall woke up he had massive headache. He started to open his eyes and realized right away what a bad idea that was. first he wasn't alone in his bed and he wasn't clothed either "fuck..." he mumbled to him self grabbed his pants still feeling half asleep he goes out to hallway towards the bathroom bumping into Logan he quickly hides his dick so he doesn't see just hoping Logan misses the fact he's naked.

Logan looked Kendall up and down. He knew he was still high as a kite, but there was no way he was imagining this. Logan looked at the blonde with a confused look. "Kendall, why are you walking around the apartment naked?"

"Ahh.. I didn't put my pants on yet?"

"Liar. Explain. Now." It was taking all Logan had right now not to laugh at his friend. What the hell happened to Kendall last night?

"Its nothing Logan he started to put on pair of jogging pants on what the hell did he and James do last night? He remembered of course but what why did they do it?

"Kendall, we're best friends. Just talk to me." Considering the fact that Logan hadn't been asleep all night, the words probably came out all jumbled and messed up.

"I guess you'll find your answer in there" Kendall mumbled sneaking into the bathroom. Carlos came out at this minute giggling "wh..hat happened? We missed something didn't we?" he laughed when he saw Logan

"Yeah, I think we did. Carlos, maybe you should get some rest." Neither them nor Guitar Dude had gotten any sleep, but this was Carlos's first time getting high, and the Latino was already hyper enough without the drug.

"Are you supposed to feel so hungry?"

"Not sure if it's the drug or me normally?"

"It's probably just you. You really shouldn't mention the drug out loud, especially with Kendall and James in the house."

"Oh right.. sorry. so..." he looked at the gorgeous brunette. "I'm still hungry"

"Come on." He held out his hand towards the adorable Latino. "I'll make you something, but then you're going to bed, alright?"

"Yes mom" he stuck his tongue out." Kendall took time in the bathroom just to try to avoid the others then again bathroom wasn't best room to hide from others. "What if he hates me now? Kendall thought he would be crushed. He went back in the room least he can do tell James he thinks the other two know. He went back in James still sleeping he quickly picked up the beer cans quietly.

James slowly started to wake up. His head was pounding, and he was naked. He looked around the room and saw Kendall picking up beer cans. There were nearly ten empty ones lying on the ground. Oh, God, what happened last night? "Kendall?"

Kendall looked up least he could is look James in the eye got did he hurt him did he force himself on him? "Yes?"

James sat up and winced in pain. Why was he so sore? "What happened at the party last night?"

It was then Kendall saw the condom wrapper on the floor he let out a sigh of relieve at least he wasn't a complete moron he sat on the bed with James. "We um.. we had sex James"

James's eyes widened and let his jaw drop. "We what?" He was disbelief. He had sex with his best friend! Why didn't he remember?

"We used condoms though however I think Logan knows. Well knows you slept in my bed naked anyways"

"Logan's not stupid. I'm pretty sure he can piece together what happened. Where were him and Carlos last night anyway?"

"Babe I don't know I'm still trying to figure out us"

"Explains why I'm so damn sore," he mumbled under his breath. He laid back down and tried to figure out everything that happened last night. All he managed to do was give himself an even worse headache.

"You want some Advil?" Kendall asked feeling something sting his eyes he couldn't have hurt James he didn't want to believe that

"I'll get it after I get dressed. Thank you though."

"James…if I didn't tell you last night I don't have anything you know I would have you guys that if I did and…I hope…I hope I didn't hurt you"

I mean I know this isn't the way you probably pictured your first time…not by a long shot…but I would never hurt you James drunk or not"

"Kendall, I know that. I trust you. I've always trusted you. At least I know my first time was with someone I cared about and who cared for me."

"God even if we were drunk?"

"I mean it must have been gentle right when I woke up you were in my arms I don't think id be holding you if I was rough right?"

"I'm pretty sure you were gentle, Kendall. I'll be honest I'm in a little bit of pain, but I was a virgin, so I expected it to hurt. There's nothing we could do about that."

"I remember reading a bubble bath might help that also a good place to think. I'm going to go down stairs so you can dressed do you want anything made for breakfast?'" he went to his draw and grabbed first shirt he saw his main concern was James

James shook his head. The last thing he wanted to think about was food. "I'm not hungry. I'll go take that bubble bath you were talking about and maybe I'll be hungry by the time I get out."

"Ok.. I'll ask Logan and Carlos if they want to hang by the pool so you can have the place to yourself."

"Thanks, Kendall. I'd appreciate that."

He smiles at him as he leaves the room. Carlos looks over to see why Logan stopped talking and smiled trying hard not to laugh. "Morning sleep well?" he ask sipping orange juice

Kendall sighed he felt stressed out still in a complete daze. "I don't think so"

"What's the matter?" When Kendall was gone, James got out of bed and put on a pair of sweatpants and a muscle shirt. He had a bit of a limp but nothing seriously hurt. He wished he could remember last night.

"I just don't remember much of last night that's all…kind of suckish party last night"

"Huh? Huh party?"

"Yeah, Carlos. The party Gustavo threw for us last night. Remember?" Logan turned back to Kendall. "I'm pretty sure you're lying, but I've decided not to push it. Mainly because I'm tired but also because I don't think I really want to know what happened." James walked out of his room and could hear his friends talking downstairs. He went to the bathroom and started running the water for his bubble bath.

Kendall secretly thanked his friend for dropping it now he probably knows anyways but knows James doesn't want a lot of questions and neither did he. "What's with you Carlitos? Not sleep well?"

"I'm fine.. just tired.." he smiled at Logan. Kendall laughed "yeah that's basically what I just asked you."

Logan smiled at Carlos and laughed. "Yeah, so am I. We're going to bed after he finishes eating."

"how about we do each other a favor what happened last night stays last night ok?" he laughs at Carlos who was kind of making him ask question about him and Logan and warn me please I don't think I want to be around when he wires down"

"Works with me," Logan said. "I'll be sure to let you know." He laughed. Maybe taking him to Guitar Dude's wasn't such a great idea.

"Isn't Logie cute Kendall? and sweet too"

Kendall just smiles at Logan's expense as he eats his cereal. "Oh yes Logie is very cute"

"Oh, shut up, Kendall. Carlos, stop talking and finish eating. I'm tired, and I want to go to sleep."

"Ahh but I know who Kendall really wants" Kendall looked up at Carlos a little nervous. I think you better listen to Logan c.. when he's tired he gets cranky." you like Jamie"

Kendall just froze not wanting to answer.

Logan came to Kendall's rescue. "Carlos, you're tired. You know how imaginative you get when you're sleepy. How about we go ahead and go to bed?"

"Yeah but this time I didn't imagine it.. I herd him" he laughed "last night you told Jamie you loved him."

"No I think your dream Carlos I care for James yes.. he wanted Carlos to just shut up he wasn't anywhere near ready to talk about last night with people who wasn't even there, he wasn't even ready to talk about it with James

"Carlos, we were out nearly all night. They were asleep by the time we got home. Maybe you were imagining it."

Carlos went over to Logan and hugged him and kissed him Kendall just sat there shocked "no more sugar for him today ok Logan?"

Logan gently pushed Carlos away and turned to Kendall. "Got it." If only Kendall knew it wasn't sugar their friend was hyped up on.

Kendall shook his head. He knew all along. He started to put the dishes away wanting to stay away far away from upstairs as possible. Kendall also knew he lied to Carlos first time he lied to him he did love James he saw James coming back down he wished he could have been here five minutes ago. "Ahh seems like they are staying here to "sleep" he laughed "and it also seems like we missed some fucking party ours selves"

James looked at Kendall confused. "What do you mean?"

"I'll tell but it's between us ok? Logan and Carlos are stoned or at least Carlos is and doesn't usually do anything without Logan or one of us there, oh yeah and Carlos kiss Logan on the mouth I don't know if he used tongue or not"

"They are not stoned. Logan wouldn't do that, and he wouldn't let Carlos do that." At least, James didn't think they would get stoned. "Are they together?"

"I don't know all I know Carlos is acting very giddy…more then usual and I repeat he kissed Logan on the lips"

"Maybe he just had too much sugar. You know how he gets when he eats too much of it."

"That's what I thought too just wanted to tell you they were staying behind James.. are we.. we're ok right last thing I want is to ruin our friendship"

"That's fine if they stay here. I don't mind. Of course, we're okay. I wouldn't let something like that come between us."

Kendall couldn't help but laugh a little I do feel better known those questions were answered though I would hate myself if I hurt you James I just wish I remembered more of the feeling how you looked"

"Kendall, you didn't hurt me. I'm fine. I wish I could remember it too. I feel bad not remembering it."

Kendall felt the question burning to be asked on his lips but he didn't dare "nah never mind"

"What were you going to say?"

"I um shouldn't even suggest it.. but I was thinking we both obviously did enjoy last night maybe give each other a replay? Just so we have an idea what happened instead of blank memory? See stupid idea"

"I don't think it's a stupid idea. In fact, I like the idea."

"Yeah really?" he blushed "well how about I make it even better offer. the next day off we get we sneak away to a motel well spend the day there in the room no one will bother us and well really make it romantic he took James hand bringing him in for a kiss no string attached if we want to start something well talk about it after then?"

James smiled. "That sounds good to me. As long as that's really what you want."

"Are you kidding? James I would do anything to be with you last night I go to be and I have no recollection how it went only that we loved it now I want the memory too maybe even better one"

James smiled. "I want that too."

Kendall's heart melted he went over to hug him "well find time soon as we can"