Disclaimer: I don't own the song from Demyx's journal. Really, neither does Demyx. I based it off a song by Johnny Mercer. I don't own "Loop and Loop" or Asian Kung Fu Generation (Ajikan!).

Authoress note: Thanks for reading! Well, I watched "Breakfast at Tiffany's" the other day. I love that movie! –Squee- In my story, it's Demyx's attempt at a song, because I don't think that Johnny Mercer live in the realm of Kingdom Hearts. But it isn't really his; I just need you guys to know that. Well, I hope those of you on Spring Break (like me) are enjoying it like I am! XD If not, maybe my story will make you feel better. I hope it will!


Entry three

March 1st

I can't write songs! Arg! I can't ever write them down. I can play them on the spot, but I can't ever really write them down for later! I wonder why that is. Well, here's my attempt at lyrics:D I've decided to call it "Blue Moon Lights."
Blue moon light
Shining down on me
Deflecting my beliefs
Always

Old dream maker
You heart breaker
Eternally alone
Without you right here…

Two dancers
Never together
Without dreams forever
And you

Always waking up without you
Please dream of me too
Imaginary friend
Blue moon dreams and me

Haha! I think it's terrible! Blech. I bet this could be like… Saix's theme song! Oops, I'm getting called again! This time it's Xaldin.

Below the entry was a large scribble. It was dark and quick. Something must've happened with Xaldin.

"What does he mean it's terrible?" Roxas muttered, looking over the song again.

"It's ok," Marluxia agreed. "Let's read the next one!"

Axel turned the notebook over to reveal a darkly written entry. All three assumed Demyx was pissed when he wrote this. It's so hard to tell when Demyx is mad or upset. Big things have to happen that completely blow his confidence that make him show when something's wrong. Something big must've happened lately.

March 2nd

I couldn't sleep last night because I was so angry. That damn Xaldin threw me in the damned refrigerator! Nobodies probably don't even have to eat! Oh my God! He wouldn't stop throwing me in to things until Xigbar came and yelled at him! Thank God! If he didn't that pissy Xaldin probably would've stabbed me! I couldn't stop crying. I'm so embarrassed I can't stand it. Maybe I should tell Axel or something, then he'd probably just jump him with Xigbar. I'm glad they both care, but he must've had a reason for trying to kill me. Right? Unless I'm just a useless punching bag to him. That damn Xaldin.

The flame user, the flower manipulator, and the key barer stared at the messy diary entry. They should've noticed, right? Demyx is always his smiley, stupid self. But hey, everyone has problems, even if they don't act like it. No drama in his life, right. He was still a nobody, just like them. He died, and was forced in to the organization just like them, right? Everybody has drama in their life.

"That damn Xaldin!" Axel finally yelled to break the silence. Marluxia nodded in agreement and Roxas managed a small ", yeah," in to the conversation.

"Would you just shut up?!" A voice came as the round doorknob turned and a small form opened the door. "I'm so tired of listening to you guys! I'm trying to read my favorite book!"

The young boy glared from his left blue eye. His short silvery hair covered his other eye. Despite his age, he looked as young as Demyx or Roxas, but he was really as old as Marluxia or Axel. He was wearing the general black organization coat that all the members had but usually didn't wear. The boy was probably cold, even though he was probably wearing a long-sleeved shirt under the coat.

"Oh… Uh, hey, Zexion," Axel stalled.

"What are you even doing in here?!" He yelled. "That's the gift I gave Demyx isn't it? Why are you reading it? He told me he made it a journal! How could you read his journal?"

Roxas decided to stay out of all this. Zexion never talked this much, and it was agreed that this was just plain scary. Marluxia decided to speak up. He always spoke up against all the wrong people. "Shut up, Zexion. We're trying to find out what's wrong with him!"

"So you noticed, too?" Zexion asked in a hushed tone of his usual self.

"Who couldn't?" Axel stared at Zexion seriously. "Got any idea about why he's so depressed?"

"He hasn't told you? But you're his best friend," he asked quietly, walking slowly in to the room and sitting down on the edge of the bed.

"I know I am. I'm real surprised that he hasn't said anything. All he does is sit in here or on the couch or something and clean or cry," Axel smiled sadly, fiddling with the blue journal he held in his hands. "I think Xemnas said something to him or something, or maybe Saix did something."

"Do you think perhaps one of us did something?" Zexion asked without turning his head towards them. He stared at the empty wall, like he was searching for something that wasn't there. The blue eye shot from one thing to another, without seeing any of them.

"Like what?" Marluxia cut in as if he were completely sinless. "He doesn't really ever get mad at any of us!"

"Shut up, Marluxia," Axel groaned. "You forgot his birthday. I fight with him all the time, Roxas doesn't like playing with all the time, and Zexion prefers reading compared to talking or playing with him. Any one of us could've done something."

They all grew silent. All of it was true, but Axel was persistent and wanted to continue. "Xemnas yells at him for failing missions all the time; Xigbar's over-whelming and hardly ever leaves him alone; Xaldin doesn't even like him; Vexen's a creepy science freak; Lexaeus never talks to him because when he's never out on a mission, he's sleeping in his room; Saix doesn't like anyone except Xemnas; Luxord's nocturnal and never gets to talk to anyone anyway, and Larxene scares him when she's not playing with him. See, it could've been anyone of us."

Zexion nodded and grunted in agreement. "But," Roxas began, "he's not the type to get mad at people for small reasons. If nobodies even can get mad."

"Roxas is the newest here," Zexion stated, as if that explained everything. He finally turned around and faced everyone with that serious, icy look of his. "He doesn't know Demyx as well as the rest of us. Even Marluxia doesn't know him as well as Axel and I do."

"What's that supposed to mean?" Marluxia growled.

"You didn't see him when he first came to the organization," Axel answered for Zexion.

"What was he like?" Roxas asked without meaning to. Roxas was a curious person, and sometimes asked questions without meaning to.

Axel leaned back on his arms and sighed deeply. "It wasn't pretty. By the time Marluxia got here, he was all happy and cheery. All he did was cry all the time and sit there and not do anything because he didn't wanna be a nobody."

"He acts like he has a heart more than everyone else," Zexion added quietly.

The room grew silent.

"Next entry," Axel stated quietly as he turned the page.

March 6th

I spent all day playing in the pool today! All up until Xemnas started yelling because I was spending too much time in the basement. When he left I started laughing! Can you believe that? I started laughing, even though he just walked in and yelled at me! I got up and left the pool, but just went and took a shower! I love loopholes now. That reminds me! I just heard a song called "Loop and Loop" by Asian Kung Fu Generation! It was so cool! Oh no, Marluxia's looking for me. I better hide this before he finds it!

Axel let out a small sigh. Demyx was happy again, and happy Demyx was always a good thing. He suddenly realized something warm and small leaning against his back. He looked to his right (Roxas, leaning against the wall the bed was next to, reading the journal entry), and then to his left (Marluxia, leaning on his right arm reading over Axel's shoulder). It took a moment to register the only person missing before he heard a small laugh of Zexion's next to his ear as the cloaked schemer finished the entry himself.

"Why the hell is Zexion leaning on me?" Axel thought with a twinge of annoyance. "Whatever, as long as he doesn't act on it."

"The little brat!" Marluxia scowled as he finished the article. "Jeez!"

"Shut up, Marluxia," Axel responded nonchalantly. "Leave him alone. He's finally happy and you gotta call him a brat."

"Quiet," Zexion ordered, and to Roxas' surprise, they did.

"Turn the page!" Roxas ordered in a much lighter, happier tone. To Zexion's surprise, Axel did.


Authoress note: I hope you enjoyed it! Well, I have a proposal. For those of you who know what song I based Demyx's song off of, post it in a review and if it's right, I'll… do something for you. I'll let you know next chapter who wins and what you get. XD I know it's kinda cheesy and untrustworthy, but it's fun! Go for it guys! Also, I think the next chapter will be an extra chapter, but I'm not absolutely sure. Look forward to it!

Review responses:

Mooncry – Mwhaha! I will, don't worry. I will.

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