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Mixed Up Life- Part 3

Rain poured down over him but he didn't feel it...he carried on slowly walking, staring ahead at nothing. He couldn't believe that she was actually gone...gone for good... She wasn't just going to reappear in a few days...this wasn't like the fights they used to have. When they both would try and pretend that breaking up and not seeing each other was actually for the best... but then one of them would give in... He would go to her apartment and kiss her before she had the door fully open or she would turn up at his office... As soon as they saw each other, the fight would be completely forgotten. That's how much they loved each other... now there was nothing...just him. She was gone for good. Seeing her lying on that hospital had hit home hard for him. He knew that was an image that he was going to live with for the rest of his life.

They had all gone in to say goodbye to her. He didn't hear the others telling her how much they loved her...how much they'd miss her... his eyes were just fixed on her eyes, silently preying for them to open. He had always loved her eyes, even before they got together he thought they were beautiful. He only looked away when he sensed they were looking at him... waiting for him to say goodbye but he couldn't...he could speak...every time he tried, his eyes would fill up with tears and the lump formed in his throat. So instead, he simply stepped forwards, placing a soft kiss on her forehead, a tear sliding down his face before falling into her hair. When he stepped back he looked at his friends, Ross and Rachel trying to console each other... Phoebe just staring down at the floor... But Joey was looking at him, watching him carefully and curiously. Chandler let his eyes met his friend's for a moment before looking away, afraid that if he looked at him for to long then he would work out the truth. He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand before silently turning and walking towards the door... the others following after him. As they all walked down the corridor, not one of them broke the silence and once they were outside, they just stood there...No one knowing what to say or do. Chandler had leant against the wall, watching as Phoebe hugged Ross and Joey hugged Rachel... all of them starting to cry all over again. He stayed back, through…he knew he wasn't the only one grieving…they had all lost a best friend… but it was different for him… they wouldn't understand… he had lost his 'happily ever after.'

That's why he was walking home alone, in the rain. Ross had suggested they all go back to his and Rachel's house, but he knew he wouldn't be able to handle it. He just needed to be alone…to try and get his head around everything. Somehow, the rain felt right… it was cold and miserable just as he felt.

He suddenly stopped and looked up, realising he was stood outside his house. He stared up at it…. A small glow of his daughters' nightlight shining through a gap in their curtains….Even though he was going through hell at the moment…that every time he breathed, he felt his heart shattering over and over again….he knew he needed to get past this…he had children and he loved them more then life itself….he had to be okay….for them.

He rubbed his eyes with the palm of his hand and taking a few deep breaths before slowly making his way up to the house.

Kathy was sat waiting for him, she stood up from her seat when she heard the front door open.

"Chandler?" She called out quietly but he didn't stop or look at her.

Instead he head straight up the stairs, he was always going to be their for his children and he wasn't going to give them up without a fight but it knew it was over with him and Kathy. Guilt washed over him, knowing it was a decision he should have made a long time ago.

He paused at the girls' room, quietly pushing the door open and stood their watching them both sleeping peacefully.

"God bless…" he whispered before pulling the door shut again.

He was surprised to see Jack was still awake when he opened his bedroom door.

"Dad?" He called out.

"Yeah, its me…" Chandler moved into the room. "You should be asleep."

"I was worried."

Chandler frowned and moved to sit on the edge of his bed. "About what?"

"You…. I heard you and Mom fighting and then you leaving." He rambled, sitting up. "I thought you were gone for good."

Chandler quickly pulled his son into his arms. "Never…."

"I know that I don't act like it but I love you, Dad… I don't you to leave."

Chandler hugged him tightly, tears filling his eyes. "I'm never leaving you."

"Promise?" He asked.

"Promise…no matter what happens between me and your Mom…I'm always going to be here for you and your sisters… I'll always love you." He assured him. "Okay?"

"Okay." He nodded slightly, pulling away.

"Good. Go to sleep…you got school tomorrow."

"Okay." "He nodded again, lying back down.

Chandler sat with him for a while, until he was sure he was asleep before leaning down and kissing his forehead.

When he walked out of Jack's room, he saw Kathy stood there.

"Chandler, we need to talk…" She claimed.

"Not now…" He muttered, pushing past her and going into the guestroom, closing the door behind him.

His cell phone rang in his pocket, startled him. He pulled it out and saw Joey's name flashing up on the caller's ID. He looked at it for a moment before turning the phone off and letting it drop to the floor. He fell onto the bed and buried his head in the pillow. Tears streaming down his face as he shrugged to breath through the pain of his broken heart.

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