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This is just an Alex centred chapter
Lyrics are Oh Well by Fiona AppleJay had left early for work the next morning. Alex decided that she wasn't just going to sit around. She didn't really have a plan. She took out her purse and counted the money she had left. She didn't give her mum all of the stripper money. When she stormed out, she kept a little bit of the money. She started to relive what she went through and how she came to this point.
What
you did to me made me
See
myself something different
Though
I try to talk sense to myself
But I
just won't listen
She took a long shower using the water for warmth and comfort; something that she hadn't felt for a while. To the outside anyone would think that she was lonely because she had just split up with Paige. The reality of it was that she felt there was something wrong while they were still together. She was still hurt and in pain because of what went on with her mother. She was unhappy and Paige couldn't see it. She remembered the words "I was still alone" that she uttered before she left the student house. She now knew that she couldn't rely on anyone and that she needed to do something. She couldn't stay at Jay's forever but she didn't have any idea what to do. It was weird how it turned out that Jay, of all people, had been there for her. When she broke up with Paige the first time, he was the first person she saw and it was the first time he was a friend. Here he was again, being there for her. It was a strange feeling but she was grateful to him nether the less.
She pulled on a pair of jeans and a black hoodie from her blue duffle bag. She looked at the empty bottles of beer from the previous night and picked them, ready to place them in the recycling bin. She sat down on the sofa and switched on the TV. Frustrated by the lack of anything worth watching, after flicking through for ten minutes, she switched it back off. She drifted off, in her mind, to nowhere in particular and spaced out.
She wasn't sure how long she was doing for but something seemed to snap her out of it. Alex was hungry and wanted some fresh air. She took the empty bottles and disposed of them on her way out.
She didn't want to go to the Dot, for obvious reasons. Everybody from Degrassi, past and present would be there. She wasn't ready for that, the questions and all. Not that people really went up to her and spoke to her. She wasn't really known for her social skills. Despite her turn around this year, people still associated her as the bad girl that hung around the ravine.
She remembered a coffee place, not too far away, that also served food and decided that was where she was going. She grabbed her coat and the spare set of keys Jay gave her and walked out the door.
She walked for a good twenty minutes and found the coffee place, Java central. They had some computers for internet access but they were already taken. It was pretty busy but after she ordered, she found a spare table. There was a newspaper, left by a previous customer, which she proceeded to read with no real intent of leaving anytime soon.
