Chapter 3 Sam's POV

As Meg had once mentioned hell… well it was like hell. Blood, fire, teeth, bone, and tearing, pain beyond measure was all I felt as each day I was torn apart and then offered a deal by a demon called Alastair.

At first the deal was to get off the rack and put other souls on, but then the deal changed into something more sinister. It slowly changed from putting other souls on to just getting off and relearning a few demon powers I had used when I'd been topside, but I knew there had to be more to it, it was much too cheap a price, so I continued saying no.

It took thirty years for him to tell me his motives, which turned out to be that he had been in on Azazel's plan with his 'special children', and now that he had me the 'prized child' he wanted me to become a demon and rise to become the leader I was intended to be, with him as my second in command. Learning this made it even easier to say no. I wouldn't betray Dean, no matter what he thought I was or thought I did, he was still my blood even if my actual blood had long been bled dry by the ground, buried in some unmarked grave by Jo.

At some point pain had become a normalcy to me and it would feel odd to me now to be without pain. I slowly began to realize that I wouldn't even realize the passing of time if I wasn't reminded by Alastair.

Dean kept me going, the thought of him happy with Lisa and Ben perhaps, kept me some kind of sane at least enough to not give in or forget who I had been. Past tense because I wasn't Sam Winchester anymore I was just pain and exhaustion.

At the hundred and twentieth year mark I felt something different going through my body, something that wasn't pain. Before I could try to understand I was surrounded in comforting darkness. It was awhile before I realized I was in a coffin and understood, with fear and trepidation that I was out of hell.

A/N

120 years down there is 12 months or a year up here for anyone who was curious! I did the figuring and since I worked hard to figure it out for simple curiousity I figured I would share with you that right now Sam is back on earth at between 4x06-4x07, but since he went to be with Lisa, which is a helpful tip for next chapter, the cases and situations didn't happen.

This is my responses to reviews thanks guys!

naran2786

Thank you! I try to do my best!

Souless666

Thank you for mentioning this, because when I wrote it I forgot to add the explanation that I had in my head. Because Crowley likes the spot he has now he wouldn't want the first seal to be broken and even the possibility of Lucifer getting out (I'm going on the fact that he helps Dean and Sam later to get Lucifer back in the cage). He obviously doesn't mention this to Sam, but it is a lot of the reason that he agreed to Sam's deal. Sam doesn't realize his luck in the fact that Crowley is just about the only demon that would make that deal with him.

Sammy4evacausehesawesome

Thank you so much!

Soccergirly37

Thank you that's what I was going for! You have no idea how happy it makes me that someone liked that style seeing as it's my first time really trying it out.