Wow…never really noticed all the angst in here until people mentioned it…-smacks head on keyboard- Well my friend says, "We're teenagers so most of what we say/write is usually angsty." Haha Yeah, sorry about the major angstyness in the story. Please forgive me!
Now to answer some comments.
sacredairbga7: Thanks! I'm glad you like my story. : )
sharingan216: Favourite or sad? Thanks! Hehe, sorry for making you and the others cry though…ahaha My motive worked! I'm making these chapters short because it suits the mood for the story better (odd, I know.) and major projects are being thrown at us right now. No, even if this story is going to short, there won't be another sequel to this. When this is done, it's done, unless I have this huge inspiration for another story in this series (or whatever the heck it's called).
CrAzY-SiLLy-Me: I was so clueless. I had no clue it was so angsty till someone told me. Aha I'm under pressure…PRESSURE! I'm kidding. ) I hope it will be just as good.
JAMmaster142I It's Mizuki. And no, if Sakura ever did…I think I'd just die. Haha That'd be really bitchy don't you think? Maybe I shouldn't have put Mitsuki's and Mizuki's name so similar…but it's too late to change it now. -smacks head with a rubber chicken-
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Citree: Nupe. Haven't seen that commercial. Aha It will be my goal to get eye juice to spill out of well your…eye…AHA
Thanks for all you other reviewers! I've been smiling like a maniac! Aha
Disclaimer: Why do I even bother? We all know that I don't own Naruto.
Currently listening toooo: Dirty Little Secrets by The All-American Rejects (Just a random tid-bit. Aha)
Flashback
'Thoughts'
"Speech"
Shock. That's all I felt when I heard the news. I was half asleep at the time. Ino had called me at practically three in the morning. I guess she couldn't wait until late morning to tell me. But that piece of information was like a wake up call, shaking me awake. Immediately my mind flew to our promise, then to Mitsuki. My heart began to beat wildly. I was starting to become uneasy.
After Sakura had left I found myself bound to that promise. Every time a girl tried to court me, I'd turn them away. This went on and on until my fourth year of university when I was twenty-one. (When Sakura left she was already seventeen. I just didn't write about her birthday. So four years plus seventeen makes twenty-one, no?)
My day was normal as usual, go to my lecture, pretend to listen and then go back to my dorm. On that particular day I found myself falling asleep, I had a dream of my high school days with Sakura and how much fun I had with her. When I woke up, I looked up at the board finding that it said that we needed to write an essay about the lesson which needed to be about ten pages. No more and no less. Obviously Ihad fallenasleep, hadn't taken any notes, and had absolutely no clue what we had learned that day.
That's where Mitsuki came in. I didn't know her all that well at the time. She was a mere acquaintance, one who I would just sometimes casually talk to or ask about what we had done that day. I asked her if she had taken notes and if she had maybe I could borrow them. Her face was flushing red at that moment and instantly agreed. After that day…things started to get heated. I found myself thinking about her more often instead of the person I should be thinking about. I found myself wanting to make her happy and wanting to see her smile.
Then one day, I realized what I was doing. Slowly, I was drawing a gap between Sakura and myself. There was always a gap between us, I just never noticed it. I mean she wasn't there, she was at the other end of the earth, so that was just how it had formed. I began to feel guilty but then persuaded myself that I shouldn't because the girl wasn't here. Besides, when we made those promises, we were young. We didn't know what we wanted. So I decided to go for it.
A week later, Mitsuki and I were together. Again, the guilt came back. I had now broken the promise. I now did not belong to her but someone else. The guilt washed away when I decided that she probably found someone else as well. Before I knew it two years had passed. I was happy with Mitsuki. I was in love. But still, even if I kept brushing the guilt away, it was still there. Nagging and nagging over and over again.
By this time, I was getting frustrated and angry. So to fix the problem, I shut out all my inner thoughts about the 'promise' and whatever lingering feelings I had on it. She was most probably never coming back so why wait for something that would never return? After that, I proposed to Mitsuki. Her hazel orbs glowed with happiness as I bent down on one knee and popped the question. I remember her vanilla scent drifting into my nose as she jumped on me crying with her answer. Her hair had obscured my vision to see her smiling face, but it didn't matter knowing that I was engaged.
Half a year later, the news that she was coming back, hit me hard. But it didn't really matter did it? I mean I had suppressed the feelings I had for her. But I was wrong. When I saw those apple green eyes and cherry blossom hair, my heart lunged out towards her. When she hugged me I felt that she and I were still together and nothing had really changed. But the look on my friends faces snapped me back to reality, I felt uneasy. The news would either devastate her or she'll just give a shrug.
Her reaction was…it hurt when I saw her reaction to the news. There was surprise, shock, confusion, anguish…so many emotions ran through her face. Mitsuki, though, didn't really notice it. She just assumed that Sakura was an old friend not knowing about our past.
After leaving the airport, we left to Café Milky. We don't go there a lot anymore, but since Sakura had come back we decided to for old time's sake. I felt uneasy again when she took a seat in front of me. Tension filled the air around us when Sakura asked how long we'd been together. It was so thick I felt like I was suffocating, but thank god the others lightened the mood a bit…kind of...
My eyes wandered over to her hand. Her left hand. Don't know why, maybe it was to check if she still had the ring. Maybe it was replaced by someone else's. But when I got a closer look I knew it was the exact same one. I felt like I had been winded. She had held on for so long. And me? I had thrown her away and went to another.
When we left, I was barraged with questions from Mitsuki.
"Are you alright?"
"Why did you look so uncomfortable?"
"Why did you look at her like that?"
I just smiled at her and told her it was alright. Nothing was going on between Sakura and me. Nothing was going between us period. She calmed down after that. I can't blame her. If I were in her shoes I'd be asking a whole bunch of these questions as well.
Sighing I fall back onto my bed and stare at the ceiling. Those stupid guilty thoughts are sneaking their way into my mind again. But then again, maybe they aren't stupid. It's getting me to think. It's making me have second thoughts. I keep asking myself 'Did I make the right choice?' A small moan sounded beside me. I looked over and gently I ran my hands through her brown hair.
I looked at my digital clock. Two thirty huh? Sleep consumed me as I closed my eyes. But before I lost my consciousness, thoughts were probing my mind. If I had waited, what would Sakura and I be like? I've been taught never to do things I'd regret. But now I don't know if I'm feeling regret for my choices or guilt.
'If I had a chance…I would go back in time and redo everything…'
There, Sasuke's point of view out of all this. Hope you likes! Holy crap, my tenses suck ass. I should get this betaed. But Mika wasn't online and I wanted this out. So...maybe next chapter.
I've been thinking of changing my pen name. Or should I just leave it? Suggestions?
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Until then!
Rachel
