From: Veronica Mars [vmars#marsinvestigations. net]
Sent: saturday January 22nd 2017 8.14 AM
To: Logan Echolls [l. frost. E#mailtome. Org]
subject: RE: Bygones
Logan,
These past 2 weeks, they were indeed amazing. I think I forgot how good you were at those.. 'hard' things of an entirely different statue.
I do think the tendency to run has diminished a lot over the last 9 years. Sure, some people might say that I ran away from New York and my life there. But, I really don't feel it that way. To me, I just came home again. The last few years of pretend Veronica were really hard, and my psychology degree says talking about it might do me some good. And there is nobody else I'd rather talk to than you.
So how about I start this thing for real. But fair warning, opening up is still not my forte, so it might be with some trial and error. I promise though, to be honest and to try.
I don't know how much you know about what happened that last day at Hearst. So here's the short version. After your fists and Gory had that 'deep and meaningful' conversation in the cafeteria, I went home. I think I packed and unpacked my suitcase for Virginia about 10 times, all the while replaying what you did. And why. And I realized something. I realized that I was going to get you killed if I stayed. Because I couldn't help but stick my nose into things, and you couldn't help the protectiveness towards me, broken up or not. So leaving was the only way I could think of to keep you from getting yourself killed over me.
Piz and I broke up at my front door that night. He was sweet and kind and funny. But he wasn't you. And he didn't make me feel like you did, so it wasn't fair to him to lead him on. He didn't take it as hard as I feared. Deep down he knew, has always know, the just couldn't compete against 'EPIC' you know.
So, I got on the plane without saying goodbye to you. Because I would have stayed if I saw you again. I would have stayed and we would have been messed up until one of us got killed. Sometimes love isn't enough. And ours was toxic at that time.
What I mean to say is. I feel we've both grown up a lot. Both grown into our own person. And I think we needed that. I'm thankful for those 9 years, because I like the Veronica I am now, a lot better than the Veronica I was then.
Does that even make sense?
V.
