Chapter 4- Cancer

By: gone.disappearing

(if its sounds weird in the narrating then in screwed up and its in 3rd person srry guys) I DON'T OWN ANYTHING OR ANYBODY THEY ARE STEPHANIE MEYERS( this is so If I use anything I may not but just in case)

Edwards POV

I felt her fall beneath me, at first I thought she had tripped on air again or maybe she had slipped so quickly I grabbed her. I looked down to make sure she was alright when I saw her limp she was in my arms because I had caught her

"Carlisle" I spoke anxiously

"Carlisle what's wrong with her" I looked up to find 6 pairs of sad eyes staring at me and Bella's helpless body. They defiantly new something I didn't.

"Alice" she looked at me with the saddest eyes I read her mind she had started to think with the commotion 2 things happened 1. I forgot everything and stared sadly at Bella 2. I growled in shock not my Bella was all I could think of.

"WHAT!!! no. No. NO. NO NO NO NO. your kidding she cant she just cant" if I could have cried right there I would have. I would have cried for hours mourning she couldn't have it she wasn't getting dizzy that I knew of anyway. My Bella sweet Bella had it the most horrible disease other then being eternally damned but that wasn't a disease

Bella had cancer that had been Alice's vision she had called me to tell me Bella was to collapse for she had cancer in her left knee and right calf and it was BIG. She was going to need to be treated soon or she was to die. I was furious. Bella my Bella was going to die unless I bit her… that was her wedding present, then I realized unless I bit her she wouldn't make it to the wedding. I was pacing back and forth in the living room.

"Edward I'm taking Bella to the hospital. Alice you and Jasper Esme and Rosalie go and find Charlie and tell him to come to the hospital tell him Bella is sick and there ok. Off you go know." They ran out.

"Edward. Go and get the Mercedes and bring it around front I gotta get some things for Bella" I looked at Carlisle for a second then raced off to the garage and turned on the ignition. I drove out front and called for Carlisle and then saw him carrying Bella. I opened the door and then we were off. We hadn't talked the whole way. I was scared to know the answers to my many questions. ME scared that's one of a first.

"Carlisle how is she?" I was scared to know the answer

"I cant tell we will look at her when were get her into a room carry her will ya."

I walked around to the door and lifted Bella out and then I heard her speak.

"E-Edward…I-I." it was barley a whisper and both she and I knew I could hear it.

"It's ok my love I'm here. Charlie's on his way and we are at the hospital you should feel better soon."

Bella's POV

I looked at him his voice ringing in my ears. He knew I wondered when Alice would find out I hoped it would be the longer end of time. He smiled my favorite crooked smile but his eyes were filled with worry and something else…fear Edward was scared he was scared for me. I couldn't concentrate very well my legs hurt…A LOT. I felt Edward put me down and I panicked.

"Edward, Edward don't leave me"

He turned and looked at me "I wont my love never will I leave you" He smiled again. I fell back into the hospital bed I was sitting now lying in.

"Bella, Bella, Where's Bella." I looked up to see Charlie and boy did he looked worried it was written all over his face.

"Dad" I said I was scared I never wanted him to find out but I knew he eventually would find out I never told him for a reason I knew he would be plenty worried and ship me somewhere or do something I didn't want done. I had made secret trips to the doctors office after school or during school I would skip class to go but when I did it was usually gym.

"Bells why didn't you tell me. Why. We could have got you an operation. We could have made you better. Carlisle says its to late now its gotten to big we cant help you now Bells we… we…" He was shaking his head with silent sobs coming out of him and few tears falling from his eyes.

"Dad this is why I knew we didn't have the money and you would have gotten really worried and never stopped worrying and we wouldn't be happy this way I knew was better for everyone." No matter how you tell someone that you have cancer weather you say it kindly or when it gets found out like mine they always, ALWAYS worry. I actually felt sorry for Charlie I mean I was gonna die at age 18 almost 19 buts that only if the Cullens changed me.

I laid back in the bed having a light doze about what I would look like as a vampire and what my special ability would be I no longer dreamed… well I still dreamed of becoming one but I knew I could no longer for Edward promised it on our wedding night we weren't to be wed for 2.5 months still I would not last that long the cancer would spread through the whole of both legs in about a week I had not much longer.

"Bella… Why didn't you tell me? Why we could have helped you I know we could have."

"Edward I already knew my consequences I visited a doctor he told me that even if I got the surgeries I would most likely die in the process and I knew then Charlie's money would be wasted… if I got the surgeries I would have to live without legs and we both knew how bad that would turn we have both seen me with legs every second step I trip over something." I giggled remembering all the times Edward had caught me falling on the last step of stairs at Charlie's home.

Edwards POV

"Bella we cant save you now…your going to die."

I watched the hurt in her eyes then I new it was coming.

"No" I spoke this with firmness I don't know if firmness is a word????

"Edward its ok I know there is no chance of that now we made one deal but will not make another you don't want to 'condemn me in an eternity of hell with no soul' I know I know and we made a deal for our wedding night for me to be changed so No deal I get it."

I could see the sadness in her eyes she still wanted it but knew I wouldn't until after the wedding. I could hear the wanting in her voice though I also knew she was trying to hide it to bad I couldn't read her mind it sure would have helped me now.

"Bella its… well… I promise I will follow soon after… I just"

"Edward its fine I promise"

WOW. Bella was being co-operative there was defiantly something wrong she was defiantly sick.

"Bella its not that I don't want you to be with me forever but I don't want to…"

"Condemn me in an eternity of hell and have no soul. Edward its fine I know ok its fine." She was getting frustrated I could hear it in her voice.

"Well I am going to go look for Carlisle I need to speak with him"

With that I left the room I couldn't stand to see her suffer it was hard watching her not move in that bed and the room oh god the room was so white it was horrible I hated seeing her in there.

"Edward" it was Carlisle. "Don't you think that's a bit harsh I mean you were going to give Bella this life anyway well I just trying to say that you might need to look at life right know from Bella's point of view. She's dying Edward she's only going to live another week or so, think about it would you Bella would be fun to have around."

He smiled then frowned and walked away. Charlie, Esme, Jasper, Rosalie, Emmett, and Alice they all had gone home.

I walked back in to find Bella sleeping only when I called Bella many times did I realize something was very wrong.

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