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I never felt close to Christian. I was always the one who fought with, the one out of the group who he disliked the most. I was always the one to pick on him, or he was always the one to pick on me. We had a brother/sister relationship. We were always there for each other in times of need, but we bickered and argued. A lot. You could pretty much say that we were too much alike. He always seemed to get on my nerves or make jokes at the wrong time. I never really liked him.

Until now.

I looked over at Christian who was sleeping soundly. He looked like a model from a magazine called: 'Perfect Men'. His eyelashes weren't too long, but they weren't too short. His skin was clear and had not a pimple on it. His lips weren't too big, but they weren't too small, they were the perfect pink colour. Everything about him was right. I couldn't find one thing wrong with him as I studied him. I smiled to myself and looked out the window. The sun was just coming up. I jumped out of bed, forgetting that I had training with Dimitri. Then I remembered. Dimitri was gone. He wouldn't be back for a while, if he even came back. I got back into bed and took another look at Christian. I suddenly realised I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep.

"Christian..." I said softly, feeling guilty for trying to wake him up. He didn't move. I planted a kiss on his lips and his eyes fluttered open.

"Man, I wish I was woken up that way every day." He said, smirking at me.

He pulled me into a hug and we stayed like that for a while.

As I was lying there, I wondered if last night even meant anything to Christian. Maybe he thought of it as a one night stand. I was confused.

"Christian..." I started.

"Yes," He said smiling at me.

"Last night...did that mean anything to you?" I asked nervously, I didn't want to ask but I felt that I had to.

"No it didn't mean anything" Christian said, with a serious face.

My heart dropped, I felt like crying. Wait what? What was wrong with me? Was I in love with Christian? I couldn't be. If I wasn't, why was I so hurt?

I looked at him with hurt in my eyes. He laughed.

"Rose last night didn't mean anything. It meant everything." He said, still laughing at his own joke.

I smiled, but on the inside I was shaking. He scared me to death. I kissed him again, not just any kiss, a heated, passionate kiss that left me shaken. His arms were still looped around my waist and I felt a feeling of security.

"You're beautiful," He said, hugging me tighter to him.

Time froze. I realised what I wanted all this time, was for somebody to want me. I was so sick and tired of being pushed away by Dimitri, being shrugged off like an annoying fly. With Christian none of that happened.

"You have beautiful eyes" He said, and then it hit me.

That was exactly the same thing he had said to Lissa a week ago in the library. My head flashed back to when it happened:

We were all sitting in the library and Lissa was on Christians lap. They were looking at each other and at that moment Christian said

"Liss, you have beautiful eyes"

I jerked away from Christian quickly. "Lissa" I choked out.

His eyes widened like he had forgotten all about her and suddenly remembered her.

"I umm, I..... Fuck!" Christian said, looking guilty.

"What are we going to do?" I asked, looking at him intently.

"I don't know." He said truthfully.

As I gazed back at him, the jealousness of him and Lissa being together was hurting me. I wanted him all to myself. I think I was in love with him.

"We have to tell her, we can't just have a secret relationship!" I said, feeling just as guilty as Christian did.

"Don't you think I know that?" Christian shouted.

I didn't want to cry but I couldn't stop myself. Tears rolled down my face. I wiped my eyes quickly. I didn't want to seem like a baby. It was just hard to listen to all this. I couldn't believe myself. I had slept with my best friend's boyfriend and I think I was in love with him. All the stress of field experience, it was all just too hard to cope with.

Christian pulled me into his arms. "I'm sorry for shouting, but I'm just as confused as you are." He said plating a kiss on my forehead.

"Do you even want a relationship?" I asked him, praying the answer would be yes.

"Of course I do. From the moment you kissed me, I wanted a relationship with you." He said twirling a lock of my hair around his finger.

I smiled and hugged Christian tighter.

I felt as if nothing in the world mattered except Christian.

Until there was a knock on the door.

I took a blanket from Christian's bed and threw it over myself. I looked out the peek hole and my heart sped up.

I gave a 'hurry-the-fuck-up-and-get-dressed' look to Christian and he knew what I meant. He chucked on his pants and the shirt he was wearing last night and jumped into bed.

I put on what I was wearing yesterday, which happened to be the shorts and the singlet and chucked a blanket and a pillow on the floor to make it look like I had been sleeping there.

I then got ready to face the person at the door.

Lissa.

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