Author's Note: Here it is! I hope you have as much fun reading it as I did writing it.
Even in the darkness of the room, Sebastian could tell that Ciel was terribly startled by his unannounced entrance. "Care to explain just what the hell is going on,
Sebastian!?" came a loud voice, clearly agitated by having been interrupted from sleep. Sebastian let out a low laugh, which, to Ciel, sounded much like the laugh of a
madman. Perhaps it was. The boy was unsure as to whether or not he was happy about his butler's presence in his room. It was rather late, and he couldn't see
anything save for the moving dark mass that was Sebastian.
"Young master" Sebastian began, approaching the bed slowly as he talked. "Were you not missing a book earlier this morning?". Ciel felt as if his heart had
stopped. His usually-pale face blushed a horrid red, and he grew a bit shaky as he attempted to come up with a logical explanation for the contents of the diary. For
once, regardless of his lying capabilities, he knew that he would be unable to convince the demon that his written words were not true. He swallowed uneasily,
wondering how exactly the devil would react to this situation. Before he could ponder his next move much longer, light filled the room. He turned to find Sebastian
standing at his nightstand, lighting the candles that surrounded his four-poster bed. "Well?".
"Did you happen to see it somewhere?" Ciel asked quickly, hoping against hope that Sebastian had recovered the wrong book. The chances of this were slim to
nothing, but Ciel still found himself hoping. "Indeed I did. It's on the foot of your bed if you'd care to put it away. It is the correct volume, is it not?". Ciel bit his lower lip
worriedly as he glanced towards the foot of his bed, and upon finding that it indeed was the correct book, he closed his eyes and swallowed. "You read it, didn't you?"
he asked slowly, clenching his bedspread with his clammy hands. Sebastian smirked as he lit the last candle. "Why are you so concerned, young master? What is in
that book of yours that makes you so uneasy?". Ciel knew that the demon was toying with him now, dodging his questions because he was unable to lie. "You know
perfectly damn well what's in that book!" Ciel cried, turning to face the towering man beside him. Sebastian pretended to be surprised at the very notion, but, unable
to keep it up, he allowed his signature smirk to return.
"At least tell me how far you read". "I honestly do not remember. Shall I have another look so that I can see what entry I was on?". Ciel, infuriated by the fact that
he had actually admitted it and still managed to remain calm, ran his hands through his hair in an attempt to calm down. His bangs fell across his eyes, obscuring
Sebastian's mark. "So you know now?". "Know what, young master?". Was this man seriously going to make him say this out loud? "You truly are cruel" Ciel mumbled,
glancing up towards the demon's perfect face. Sebastian, finally able to see the child's eyes, had an overwhelming desire to embrace the boy, but he quickly
suppressed it. "Why don't you be more specific in your wording? Perhaps then I'll understand perfectly". There was a devilish twinkle in his eyes that nearly drove Ciel
mad. He glared at Sebastian as he reached for the diary and pulled it to his chest protectively.
"I won't stand to be humiliated by a servant". "What is there to be humiliated about?". Ciel looked up, almost as if he were offended by Sebastian's question. "I, Ciel
Phantomhive, head of the Phantomhive family, am in love with a man, who just so happens to be a demon and my butler. How is that not humiliating!?". Sebastian's
eyes widened as Ciel scowled. "I never thought that you'd actually say it" he laughed, glancing curiously over at the child in an attempt to understand his current
mindset. Hadn't his motto always been "Never give up"?. Ciel lowered his head in shame. "Is this amusing to you?" he whispered. Sebastian, realizing his mistake,
quickly tried to correct himself. "No, young master! It's just tha -" "GET OUT!". Sebastian stepped backwards, a crease upon his brow. "But master -". "I SAID GET
OUT!".
Darkness... That was the only word that could even begin to describe what Ciel was feeling. It seemed as if the weight of one-thousand burdens was weighing
upon his chest, smothering him underneath the grim details that they consisted of. He just felt so heavy, so weighed down... Sighing, Ciel attempted to sit up, but the
weight pushed him back to the tear-soaked, cerulean bedspread that he lay upon. His hair was a mess, its noticeable blue tint no longer visible in the dark of his
bedroom. Darkness. Sebastian had arrived once again as soon as the sun rose, bringing tea and apologies. Ciel, of course, had refused both. He knew for a fact that
he shouldn't be blaming what happened on the demon; It was his fault for being so careless with his diary. Yet somehow, he was still angry with him. "Love isn't
anything like I imagined it" he whispered in to the silence of the room. Ciel frowned as he realized how nasally his voice sounded. Had he been crying? He tried to
remember exactly what had happened after the demon had left his room, but everything was blank. His memory consisted only of, well, darkness. Somehow, Ciel found
the strength to sit up, and, upon finding that the weight was only a figment of his imagination, he managed to make his way over to the nightstand, where he lit a
candle after several failures doing so. The blinding light caused a searing pain behind his eyes, as he had grown accustomed to the darkness. Wincing, he pulled on a
pair of trousers, tucking in his sleep-shirt as he had seen Sebastian do before. It was then that he decided he could not live without him, could not function properly
without his assistance. Not only was Sebastian a major part of Ciel's everyday life, but he had grown rather fond of him over their time together. That was when he
decided to apologize.
Sebastian was preparing to enter Ciel's bed chamber when the boy himself came out, looking rather disheveled with his messy hair and clothing. Ciel wore no
accessories; Not even his eye-patch rested upon his small body. Yet, Sebastian still found his appearance rather pleasing to the eye. His hair, so dark in color that it
appeared to be blue in the light, hung limply around his pale, sorrowful face. His eyes were large and far brighter, especially the magenta-tinted one that sported
Sebastian's mark. The other was a lovely shade of blue, standing out against his colorless skin. The child was still wearing his white, button-up shirt, but he had tucked
it in to a pair of trousers that he often refused to wear. His feet were bare and his face displayed evidence of tears. He looked like a weak, helpless child, and
Sebastian was somehow pleased by this.
"Sebastian" Ciel mumbled, momentarily surprised at his sudden appearance. The demon let go of the serving cart that he had been pushing and attempted a sad
smile. "Yes, young master?". Ciel struggled, as if he were attempting to form words but could not find the correct ones to express his guilt. He finally settled on a
simple "I'm sorry", leaving Sebastian wanting more. "It is I who should be apologizing. I should not have laughed, as I am sure that you think of this as no joking
matter". Ciel nodded, feeling as if he were on the brink of tears. "I'm just so... angry at myself, Sebastian! I can't believe that I allowed myself to fall like this when I
had a perfect life ahead of me with Elizabeth". Sebastian turned his head to the side like a cat, confused. "But it would not have been the perfect life if you were
unhappy, and it's quite obvious that Elizabeth isn't right for you". "How so?". Sebastian smiled once again as he began to speak.
"Because if she were right for you, you'd never have thought about me. You wouldn't have had any fantasies unless they were about Elizabeth. You would do
nothing but obsess over her, but instead, you obsess over me". Ciel gave this a bit of thought as Sebastian opened his bedroom door, wheeling in the serving cart as
he did so. Ciel followed closely behind, shutting the door and turning to face the demon. "I suppose you're right" Ciel finally admitted, attempting to avoid Sebastian's
crimson eyes. The candle still burned on his nightstand, and though it was dark, Ciel could still make out Sebastian's facial features. He was unable to read his
expression. "How angry are you?" he asked uncertainly, taking a bun from his lunch plate. Ciel took a small bite and chewed as he carefully analyzed the butler's face,
hoping that his eyes would adjust soon and allow him to understand what exactly Sebastian was feeling. "I'm not angry in the slightest". The words surprised Ciel,
nearly causing him to choke as he ate. "Young master, I've been meaning to tell you this since I returned your diary, but I was interrupted this morning and -". "Tell me
what?". Sebastian swallowed, urging himself to continue with his confession.
"I - I love you as well". Ciel was so in shock that he dropped the bread to the floor, looking up quickly in order to meet Sebastian's gaze. "You can't be serious!" he
exclaimed, blushing. "Please do not play with me like this! I am not the stablest person in the world, and -". "No, young master. I truly love you. I did not realize it until
last night, but I do love you". Ciel's face grew red and hot as his mind tried to process what had just happened. "So - So what does this mean?" he stuttered,
desperately wanting answers. "Are we, like, a couple now, or -". "It's entirely up to you". Ciel walked across the room and flung himself in to Sebastian arms, weeping
tears of joy for once in his life. "Sebastian, you don't not know what this means to me!" he cried, allowing Sebastian to wrap his arms around his back and pull him
closer. Sebastian could feel his lips curling in to a smile. "It's just as you wrote" he whispered. Ciel looked up, confused. "What do you mean?" he asked. "In the diary,
you wrote that no one can understand another's life, as one can only truly understand when they experience something for themselves. You're right; I don't know how
much this means to you. I haven't the slightest idea as to what about me makes you happy. All I know is that I'm a demon, and somehow I've gained the ability to
experience human emotions and I have fallen in love". Ciel smiled against him.
"I love everything about you. You really didn't read very far in to that diary, did you?". Sebastian laughed, closing his eyes as he enjoyed the warm body against his
own. "Sebastian?" Ciel mumbled, closing his eyes sleepily. "Yes, young master?". "Do call me Ciel when it's just the two of us. Being called "young master" makes me
feel rather guilty". Sebastian lifted up Ciel in to his arms and lay him down on the bed, soon joining him and embracing him once again. "You're tired, Ciel. I am sure
that you barely slept last night. Perhaps you should get some rest -". "No. I don't want you to leave me, Sebastian. I want you to stay by my side, always, and I really
mean always. Sebastian laughed as if he couldn't understand why this boy would love him. "Yes, my Ciel". He reached one arm towards the candle by the bed, blowing
it out with one small breath. Darkness.
Author's Note: Okay, I tried to make up for the last chapter's shortness and lateness with this one... Once again, I apologize for that. Also, I know that my
paragraphs are probably a bit unusual (You can tell that I'm not used to writing in paragraph form). Please tell me if you see any errors, as I haven't read over this
chapter as much as the others. I hope you enjoy it! *Smiles* If you have time, please review it! I'd love to hear what you all think. I'd like to thank everyone who has
left a review of my writing before! It makes me so happy that a lot of people like this. One last thing: There was a person who left a helpful review of my "Morning Of
Mourning" short story that really assisted me in creating paragraphs! I'm always looking to improve my writing, so if anyone else has any suggestions or corrections,
I'd be glad to here them!