OBS! As you know, this story is set at the time when Damon took Elena on a little trip to Atlanta. And some of the lines and stuff, are originally not said until after that trip, but I used them anyway. Just to clear some confusion, if there was any. Obviously, it is me who has written this story, but all rights is reserved to L.J. Smith. Chapter four. DPOV
Stefan once told me that history won't be repeating itself, and I totally agreed with him. I didn't give him any other promise though. He knows how I feel about Elena and deep inside, he knows that I will do whatever I can to have her for myself in the end.
Only, I guess Stefan isn't quite as sure in that point as I am. Of course he thinks that Elena will become his wife and they will live happily ever after. But you see, that's where I come in. Elena will be my princess of darkness, and we will live happily ever after, without Stefan in the picture.
And after our little, you might call it love confession earlier, I feel positive about my future with Elena. I don't see any possibilities for Stefan right now. Why would she want him, when she can have me?
There was no turning back anymore. I just hoped that Elena knows that too.
EPOVAfter having sex with your boyfriends brother, shouldn't you be feeling a little bit guilty? I didn't. It wasn't exactly my first time doing this, but it sure was one of the best times ever. It was everything you can imagine, plus more. It was beyond description.
Some parts of me though, felt a little bit stupid and regretful for doing it. Only because I know that it will hurt Stefan alot. I know that he loves me more than anything, but I can't control my feelings. Even though I love Stefan as well, I love Damon too.
And like that wasn't enough, it feels like I'm causing problem between the two of them, almost like I'm becoming Katherine at some point; only because I love them both. I swore to myself that I wouldn't be the cause for history repeating itself; yet here we are. Doing the same thing that Katherine did over a hundred years ago.
"Hey Elena," Damon looked at me with a confused look. "Can I ask you something?" I hoped for everything in the world that he wouldn't ask me that question. "Of course Damon, what is it?" Please, don't ask me that question. I held my breathe while waiting for him to ask me.
"What will happen when we get back?" I could see he was hurt by this whole situation. I allowed myself to breathe a few times before answering. It took me a few minutes before I could manage to find the right things to say.
"I-I don't really know yet Damon. As much as I love you, I still love Stefan too. And I just can't go home and break things off with him." Damon's eyes left mine, and he stared down into the floor. I quickly continued. "I need a little more time, just so I can figure out how I will tell him without totally breaking him." Damon's eyes grew wider and he lifted his head up and looked at me. "W-what?" He was surely surprised by my answer. "Yeah, I mean, I can't just go home and say 'Hey Stefan. Look, I don't love you as much as I did before, in fact, I love Damon and I want to be with him'. That would destroy him, I need to break it to him more gently." Damon were in front of me in a second and had me in his arms. "Oh Elena," he kissed me softly on my mouth, "are you sure that this is what you want?" What is he talking about? "Yes Damon, I've never been more sure of anything in my entire life. I love you and I want to be with you." I pressed my lips against his once more before locking my arms around his waist and laid my head on his chest.
~~~~ TWO HOURS LATER ~~~~I was oddly nervous when Damon and I got in the car and began to drive home. There was a million different thoughts in my head, everything from how extremely happy I was with Damon, to how I would break the news to Stefan. I needed to do this the right way and put it in a way that won't break him entirely. And just as selfish as it might sound; I hope that we still can be friends after this. I don't want to loose him.
As we started to get closer to Mystic Falls, I got this weird feeling in my stumach, illness took over my body and I started shaking. Apparently, Damon noticed.
"Are you okay Elena?" He moved his eyes from the road to me, and back a couple of times so he could keep eye contact as much as possible.
"Yes. No, I don't know. I guess I'm kind of nervous about this whole thing; breaking it to Stefan you know." I tried to let out a little laugh, but it didn't really came us as I hoped it would. "There is no need to worry princess, I'll be right there behind you. Supporting you." He grabbed my hand and squizeed it for a second before letting it go again.
"Thanks Damon, but I think I need to do this alone." I said and turned my head towards the wind shield.
When we were outside the boarding house, Damon gave me a soft kiss on the cheek before getting out of the car and change himself into a crow and flew into the woods. "Here we go" I muttered for myself as I got out of the car and headed for the front door.
SPOV (Didn't see that one coming, did you?)I could hear a car pull up in front of the house and I knew that it was Elena and Damon who was coming home. I went into the living room and peeked through the curtains, watching them as they sat in the car.
I knew that there was something wrong with Elena after our talk on the phone. I didn't expect much, but I never thought that she would be so cold towards me. That wasn't how she was.
Just when I was about to go and welcome Elena home, I could see Damon leaning in and kiss her on her cheek. What a hell? I thought; anger was building up in me. Right after, he stepped out of the car and changed himself into a crow and flew into the woods, and Elena headed for the front door.
I went over the couch and sat down instead, waiting for her to make her entrance.
"Stefan?" I heard her call from the hallway. "I'm in the living room" I called back, still waiting for her to come in her. She walked and sat next to me, slowly took my hand in hers and was about to kiss me when I flinched away from her.
"What's wrong?" I could see the confusion in her eyes.
"Why don't you tell me?" I wasn't going to play all nice to her. I wanted to know what was going on between her and Damon. "What are you talking about?" her eyes send off another confused look. "Oh, don't pretend like you don't know. I saw you too through the curtains, I saw him kissing you." I let go of her hand and stood up, walking towards the old fireplace.
"Stefan, wait, let my explain." She begged me to listen. "Fine, then start explaining." She took a few breaths before she started.
"Look, while Damon and I were gone, there was alot of things that happened. That night when you called; we kissed. But when we hung up, I could feel that it was wrong. I couldn't do that to you. But the next day, I couldn't resist him anymore." A loud growl came from my mouth. They kissed? My head was yelling out in anger, but I shut up and continued to listen to her.
"Everything happened so fast, and all of a sudden; there we were, having sex. And I swear to God, I didn't want to hurt you. But I can't pretend anymore. I can't pretend that I'm not feeling anything for Damon, because I do." Now she started to cry, really hard. "And I can't look past the facts that you and I aren't going anywhere. Sometimes it feels like you treat me more like a china doll that could break into a million pieces; instead of the human being I am. And this weekend with Damon, he makes me feel alive." There was sparks shooting off her eyes as she mentioned his name. "And I love him, I really do. And I.. I want to be with him Stefan. I'm so sorry."
I felt empty. She didn't want to be with me anymore, she wanted to be with Damon. I should have known that something was up, I should have done something right after that call. I should have gone after her, looking for her and nothing of this would have happened.
"But Stefan, please, please don't blame yourself for this. And don't blame Damon either. He helped me realize what my true feelings for you are; and to be completely honest, I don't love you the same way I used to do. But from the bottom of my heart, I really hope that we can still be friends. I really do."
I didn't know what to say. I needed time to think about all of this.
"Elena, I can't do this right now. I need time to think about all of this." I said, leaving the room. "And I'm sorry too. Good bye Elena."
I heard that her crying became more strained and Damon was coming into the house and started comforting her. I couldn't deal with any of that right now. I ran upstairs and jumped through my window and ran. I ran as fast as I could and I didn't look back once.
AN: this chapter was a little bit longer than the others, and I will probably just right one or two more chapters on this story. Please, read and review! That makes me really, really happy!
