"You're Kira!"
Light's eyes widened once he heard the other's voice behind him, snapping the Death Note shut. He abruptly stood from his chair and glanced over his shoulder at Beyond, amber eyes narrowing a bit. "What are you talking about?" He faked ignorance.
"You know exactly what I'm talking about.. Kira." Beyond spat, glaring back at Light with unforgiving crimson hues. "Stop calling me Kira! What's gotten into you all of a sudden? What, I can't keep track of the Kira investigation myself?" Light frowned, opening the Death Note and showing Beyond the two open pages with criminals names. "See? I'm just keeping track of who's dying."
"Liar." Beyond knew he was right. Light's reactions, Light's attitude, and the gut feeling in his stomach was enough evidence. The Death Note just made things clearer to piece together. Without warning, the raven grabbed the notebook from Light's hands.
"No!" Light gasped and tried to snatch it away.
But it was too late.
Ryuk chuckled from his corner by the bedroom wall, his grin seemed to spread wider from the excitement. "Hello." He said once a silent Beyond made eye contact with him.
Beyond's eyes were wide. But not with fear. No.. More like amazement. Obviously this was a Shinigami. Probably the one who owned the Death Note. And now, now he'd accomplished a small dream of his to actually meet a God of Death!
"Shinigami!" Beyond pointed, a grin curving on his lips. He forgot all about his newfound hatred towards Light. "Finally! I've waited my whole life to see one." He looked above Ryuk's head. Unlike with humans, there was no name, and there was no lifespan.. And he found that to be the oddest thing.
"Rue."
Light's voice snapped Beyond back into reality, blinking a few times before slowly turning back to Light, holding the Death Note tightly to his chest. He flipped it open to the first page, the rules, and read aloud the first sentence his eyes landed on. "Whoever's name is written in the Death Note.. Shall die.."
He looked up at Light.
"My best friend..
The love of my life..
Is Kira."
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Light panicked.
He knew Beyond hated Kira just as much as Kira hated criminals. He knew Beyond wanted to kill Kira, and if Beyond hadn't been Rue Ryuzaki, he'd be dead right now.
Which is why the brunette was holding back so bad.
"You caught me..
I am Kira." Light admitted.
Everything seemed to go downhill from there.
There was a bit of a screaming match when they got into a fight, and if the Yagami household had thinner walls, someone probably would have woken up. "You're a criminal too!" Beyond accused. "And yet you had the nerve to judge me?!"
"Kira's judgement is righteous, of course I am given the right to judge you! As well as all other criminals!" Light argued.
"Oh, BULLSHIT. Kira is nothing! He's a pathetic excuse for a serial killer and he gives other murderers a bad name!" Beyond growled. "What are you gonna do, Light? Huh? Gonna kill me? Go ahead and kill Beyond Birthday. Rue Ryuzaki. Write my fucking name down right in front of me!"
"Why are you automatically assuming I want to kill you?!"
"Because one, I'm a murderer. Two, I hate Kira. And three, I'm an evil fucking murderer!" Beyond yelled. "I kill for fun! And I love it! I love seeing the look of fear on a victim's face before stabbing them, slitting their throat, or even crushing their skull with a sledgehammer! I love blood, I love killing, and worst of all, my youngest victim was a thirteen year old girl! And she was one of the best ones!"
As Beyond ranted, the anger inside Light rose and rose. His blood was boiling, his eyes were turning a dark and sinister red, and Beyond was fucking laughing at this!
"What kind of sick bastard are you, Beyond Birthday? You're a monster!"
...
"I'm a monster, huh?" Beyond grinned. "Well.. I guess I better act like one, then." He grabbed Light and shoved him back against the wall, grabbing his black hoodie off the desk chair with one hand. With his surprisingly strong grip, he was able to pin the brunette there and press the blade of his bloodstained knife to his neck.
"Oh, yeah? You gonna kill me, Birthday? If you kill Kira, you'll kill Light Yagami too. Do it. If you can." Light smirked, crimson red eyes shining vibrantly, just as Beyond's always did. This wasn't the Light Yagami he remembered, the one he fell in love with. But then again, the same could be said from Light towards Rue. They both turned into what the other hated, and vowed to eliminate.
"You're gonna kill me!" Beyond yelled.
"You're gonna kill me, unless I kill you first. I don't wanna die, Light!" Damn, was Beyond actually begging now? The tone of his voice was slightly shaky. Why did Light have to be Kira? Why did Beyond have to be a criminal?
Or better yet..
Why did their identities have to be revealed so soon?
"Why would I kill you if I love you?" Light demanded, trying his hardest to squirm out of the raven's grasp.
Though for the first time.. That sentence towards Rue might not have been the truth.
How could he love someone who was willing to kill him?
How could he love someone who hated Kira, the God of the new world?
How could he love someone who was against Kira's ways?
How could he love.. A crazy, psychotic, brutal serial killer?
"Kira.. Doesn't care about love.." Beyond's voice was not as loud as it had been before, and even his grip on the knife loosened ever so slightly. "He cares about eliminating all criminals and creating a new world filled with people he judged himself to be good enough for that world.. And I.. I am not one of those people."
"..You can be." Light mumbled.
"Huh?" Beyond looked up, lowering the knife slowly from the brunette's neck.
"If you change significantly.. Meaning no more killing. No more anything illegal.. And be on Kira's side. Help me with my mission. I know you're kindhearted, my Rue is still in there somewhere.. You can change."
Beyond scoffed.
"I'm not the little kid I was when we met. I never liked Kira and I never will, don't you get him? He's pathetic, and I hate him. I used to dream of killing Kira. And I still do."
Light's eyes grew wide. His life was in danger.. Beyond was insane. Emotionally unstable. He believed every word the news said, and Beyond denied nothing regarding the claims made towards him. One day, he could die from Beyond's own two hands. And he could not let that happen.
How could he love someone like that?
How could he allow himself to get attached to someone like that?
"Light..? Light, are you o-"
Light snatched the Death Note back from Beyond, quickly darting over to the wall opposite from the older male and flipping open to a new page. He flipped out his pen from his pocket and pressed the tip to the page.
"The crazy serial killer and Kira can never be together."
Beyond blinked widely, holding both his palms up, as if to show he was defenseless and meant no harm towards Light. "Light, please, calm down! I may not like Kira, I may hate Kira, but-"
"Kira is God! Kira is righteous! Kira will create the ideal world, free from monsters like you! And you will kill me, Beyond Birthday! I'd be a damn fool to think otherwise!"
He felt anger rushing inside him, the adrenaline and power in the moment was just too much. He didn't even realize he'd already written a 'R' on the page. "I can kill you.. If you try and take one step towards me, I will write your name!" Light threatened, hands shaking a bit.
"Light, please, think about what you're doing.. Why would I try and kill someone I love? Believe me, I'd love nothing more if you gave up being Kira so we could be together, but-"
"Kira will never die! He's bigger than life and he does not need criminals like you messing up the perfect world! A world where he will reign over only good and kindhearted people!" Light interrupted. "Damn it, what will you do, Beyond Birthday? Will you kill me? Will you burn my Death Note? Will you try and stop me? Will you write down my name yourself? Will you run away? Will you-"
"Light, shut up!" Beyond yelled, hands balling into fists at his sides. He then charged forward and grabbed the Death Note, flinging it onto the bed before yanking Light closer by the collar of his shirt, and pressing his lips roughly to the other's.
Neither of them knew this would be their last kiss.
But it was. And they never even took the time to cherish it.
. . .
Light couldn't even begin to describe the horror he felt.
"Where did Rue run off to..?" He carried a black umbrella over his head, one he intended to share with Beyond in the soaking rain when they walked back to his house. After a long day of school on Friday, he immediately noticed something different in the raven when he came to walk home with Light. They knew eachothers secrets.. But nothing could quite return to how it had once been. If only Beyond wasn't constantly watching him while they were awake, he wouldn't have felt the need to take out the Death Note after Beyond was asleep, and then he would not have been caught.
If only.
But after Beyond left a note while Light was in the shower, claiming to have gone to the store for more strawberry jam, Light waited two long hours without his Rue beside him. It wasn't that he was paranoid that Beyond was hurt.. But he was paranoid he was doing something he shouldn't.
And once again, Light Yagami was right.
At a quarter to eleven PM, Light found Beyond, pressing a female against a dirty alley wall. He wasn't engaging in any intimate acts with her, no, Light would have preferred that over what he actually say.
Beyond laughed and dropped the lifeless body of his last victim to the ground, licking dark crimson blood off his knife. He sucked the blood from each of his fingers, kicking her body to the side into a puddle of fresh rain and blood. He didn't account for Light actually finding him, though he did assume Light would go out looking.
Light was going to kill him one of these days.
He knew either his or Light's life was coming to an end soon.
"Beyond!" Light screamed, dropping the umbrella to the ground, his freshly washed brown hair immediately getting drenched as well as his clothes.
How could he?
Beyond promised him that night after they kissed that he would try and change! He said he loved Light, said he could see having a future with Light, and claimed he'd stop his murderous ways!
And Light believed that son of a bitch!
He fell in love with him all over again!
And what's worse; He allowed Rue to take his virginity.
Beyond's head snapped up, a sinister sparkle in his vibrant red hues. "Light Yagami! I knew you'd find me, job well done." He giggled, obviously not in the right state of mind at the moment. Beyond slowly clapped his hands and walked towards Light, licking the red substance off his lips and twirling his pocket knife expertly between two fingers. "You found BB, good for you.. He missed you, Light..
Too bad he missed killing a bit more."
"You.. You animal! You psychotic ruthless serial killer! You monster! How could you kill innocent people like this?! How could you? You have no heart, you liar!" Light took another huge step back. "Get away from me! Disgusting!"
Beyond just laughed at the new tears in Light's eyes. "Oh, Light.. You fool. Don't you see? You can never change me. I'm evil. Coldhearted. A monster. Wicked. I thought I could love.. But I guess I was wrong.
Because I've snapped to the point of no return."
Light had no idea of Beyond's alternate personality. If he had, he'd realize this was not the real Rue Ryuzaki, and he would never run home. He'd never slam the door in Rue's face, kicking off his wet sneakers and running upstairs to his bedroom. He wouldn't have wasted time crying his eyes out, he would've came up with a solution to save the both of them!
But he didn't.
And by the time Beyond was back and had come to his senses.. It was too late.
"Light! Please, listen to me! I can explain!" Beyond yelled as he ran up the stairs, heart pounding and racing in his chest, he felt as if he was going to faint from having ran so fast, on top of screaming Light's name over and over again.
The raven barged open Light's bedroom door.
And just like Light, he too had a look of pure fear on his face.
'Rue Ryuzaki' the Death Note read.
"I'm sorry, Rue.." Light whimpered. His eyes overflowed with tears, some running down his cheeks and dropping lightly into small puddles on the floor.
"I'm so sorry.."
"You.. You killed me.." Beyond whispered with disbelief. He knew things might come to this, but at the same time... he didn't.
"But I love you-" Beyond was cut off by his own gasp of pain, clutching his chest, his body shook violantly and his arms flailed a bit in protest. He dropped to his knees and crashed down on the hard wood floor, vision blurry with tears and his breath caught in his throat.
The.. The pain.. It hurt so much!
It felt worse than the fire!
Worse than anything he ever felt from his life!
And it wasn't just the fact that his heart was trying to jump out of his fucking chest. It wasn't just the fact that he couldn't breathe. It wasn't just the fact that he was coughing up blood.
It was because Light Yagami was the one to kill him.
Kira.
Light dropped down onto the floor and clutched Beyond's left hand, the one that hadn't been desperately clawing at his chest just a moment ago. "I'm so sorry.. I love you so much.." He whispered, staring into the frozen and unforgiving red eyes of his first and last love. The ones that used to be so bright and full of life.. That were now dead and dull.
But it wasn't true.
After finding out who Beyond Birthday really was... The words were never true.
In a moment of panic, Light reacted, and wrote down Rue Ryuzaki's name in his death note. And now, as the trembling brunette emitted loud and heartbroken cries of anguish on the floor, clutching Beyond close to his chest.. He was forced to listen to Ryuk's cold chuckling behind him.
"He'll get over it.." The Shinigami thought.
"He is Kira, after all."
. . . . . . . .
Light Yagami
The name was already written in Ryuk's notebook.
Light's eyes widened as an awful pang was felt in his already weakened chest, his heart racing and yet stopping at the same time. He never experienced this before.. But he'd caused it on others enough times to know what was happening to him.
Kira was having a heart attack.
And just before his vision turned white, just before his soul was whisked away from Earth, to be forever lost in neither heaven nor hell.. He saw Rue.
Rue, the raven he fell in love with as a child, and as a teenager. The man he killed seven years ago. The only name in his Death Note that it truly killed Light Yagami to write, leaving only Kira behind in the brunette's body.
"Rue.."
Light felt himself barely whisper his name, his heavy eyelids drooping until they were almost shut. He wanted to see Rue again. He wanted to talk to Rue again..
But he never could.
...
"We'll be best friends forever, right?" Said a five year old Rue.
"Right! Best friends forever!" Agreed a five year old Light.
"Until the day we die!"