I have a title at long last!!!!!! KaixHiro is now called silent tears! Got that took me forever to think up

Silent tears

Chapter 4

lying to yourself

Kai hadn't gotten much sleep last night, his mind was on Hiro's kiss. Wasn't Hiro supposed to look out for him and support him? Was that his way of comforting him? It didn't make any sense. Why kiss him?

'Kai?'

He spun around, making his head go all dizzy at the sound of Hiro's voice. 'Hey.'

'Listen, about last night. I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me. Can we…keep it between us? And just pretend it never happened.'

'Yeah. Yes that I want too.' Kai replied feeling relieved.

'Kay.' Hiro smiled his usual calm smile.

Kai sighed and smiled back, satisfied with the returned smile Hiro left the kitchen to have a shower, leaving Kai to burst into tears.

'Bryan Kuznetsov yesterday pleaded not guilty to the charges of stealing a car and arson…'

Kai rolled his eyes, how can he plead not guilty when he was caught red handed? It was ridiculous.

'Bryan!'

Tyson spat his orange juice out all over the table. What was Tala doing in the house? Nobody let him in. Tala burst into the kitchen looking around frantically. 'Guys whe…' Bryan runs into him, knocking him to the ground. 'BRYAN!!!'

'I'M INNOCENT!!! INNOCENT! INNOCENT!!!!'

'GODDAMN IT BRYAN!! SHUT UP!' Tala screamed. He got to his feet, only to be knocked down again as Bryan pushed past him. 'Bryan!!'

'I'm innocent! The police all lied! I never set that car on fire!!!!'

Everyone's eyes widened as Bryan mooned them. He shook his bare butt at them. His butt, had a picture he must have drawn on himself, it was a picture of (they guessed) an igloo.

Meanwhile…

Hiro stared at the pond in the garden. He couldn't stop thinking about the kiss with Kai. It was brilliant. He loved every second of it. He shook his head, denying it. I didn't enjoy it damnit! I'm not like that, ok I've got to calm down. I was comforting him. Yes, no. No. No I kissed him because I like him, very much. A little too much. He's hot. I cant keep my eyes off him…

He sighed before walking back into the house. He ran a hand through his hair as he walked into the living. Kai and Tala were sleeping on the sofa while Bryan slept on the floor. Kai's eyes fluttered open just as Bryan snorted. He slowly sat up and rolled off the sofa onto Bryan who let out a huge snort.

'I'll have chicken on mine thanks.' Bryan muttered.

'You cant put chicken on ice cream.' Tala replied as though they were having the same dream.

'Like hell I cant!' Bryan lifted his hand and put his fingers in his mouth. 'Mmmm.'

Kai raised an eyebrow before getting off Bryan, stumbled slightly and went off into the kitchen as Bryan let out a gargled yelp. Pouring himself a glass water, Kai turned around to find Hiro standing before him.

'Hey.' Hiro said.

'Hey.'

Hiro hesitated before speaking, 'You ok?'

'I'm fine why shouldn't I be?' Kai glared.

Hiro walked towards him and placed his hand on his cheek. 'Your upset, and I want to make you feel better.' He told him quietly and seductively.

'How? Are you going to cook me something nice are you? Show me photo's of your travelling?'

Hiro smiled. 'No.' He closed the gap between them, capturing his warm soft lips. Kai pulled back but his head was forced onto Hiro's face by his strong hand. Kai continued to struggle against him, Hiro in response pulled Kai closer and harder to his body. He slipped his tongue into Kai's mouth. Kai choked as Hiro's tongue slide around in his mouth like a snake, the adrenal in Hiro rocketed high. His member got hard and Bryan started shouting about his innocence, again. He grabbed hold of Kai's bum sending a shiver down his own spine, Kai fought back tears as his last rape came to his mind.

Hiro finally pulled back for air before he went any further. They both gasped for air. 'Now…then. That wasn't so bad was it?' He whispered to Kai. Kai pushed past him, walking into an empty living room. Tala must have dragged Bryan home. Hiro stayed in the kitchen, still breathing heavily.

Collapsing onto a chair, Hiro shook his head slowly. Realisation came over him as quickly as the adrenal. What he did was seriously wrong. But he liked. No, he loved it. He loved it. But yet, Kai hated it. Was Hiro becoming a paedophile?

'No! I cant be. I'm twenty, that doesn't make me a paedo does it? And Kai's going to be fourteen in a day or two anyway. That's only six years between us. Maybe I shouldn't have forced Kai into the kiss…' Hiro thought to himself.

Later that night…

With Bryan gone loopy and Tala trying to kill him and Spencer trying to stop Tala from murdering Bryan, and Ian being a pain in the arse, Kai decided to spend time with the last person any of his friends would expect him to spend time with.

Voltaire Hiwariti

Born on the 12th of October 1948

Died on the 27th of July 2009

Died aged 61

A loving father and grandfather

Who shall forever be on

Our minds and in our

Hearts

His grandfathers headstone was clearly new. The writing was inscribed in gold, as was the rest of the headstones in the cemetery. The headstone wasn't like all the other around, not the meter high perfectly round top. His had to be special. It had to be better than all the rest…just like him. In front of the freshly filled grave was a large grey-white headstone. A rectangular box that was perhaps six foot five tall, making a five foot six Kai feel small and weak. Everything in Voltaire's world had to be big, powerful and impressive.

Perched on top of the rectangle-which contained the inscription-was an angel. A male angel at that. It had muscular, masculine arms in front of its torso. In the angels hand was a sword with some words writing on the square platform that held the angel high.

Powerful but caring angel

As is this man

Kai snorted. Caring his arse. There was nothing caring about that man. Only cruelty and evil. And mysterious. Every since the day he died Kai has wondered why he killed himself. Why would such a powerful man like Voltaire take his own life? The empty Voltaire carved into Kai's heart was supposed to be filled by somebody he loves, but its only grown bigger and he doesn't know why. It was never possible for Kai to love his grandfather. Not after all the pain he put him through but yet he cried at the funeral, and he was crying now.

Unexplainable feelings filled his soul. He couldn't be grieving surely. Maybe it was the shock from finding his body. It was getting cold now, and is was seriously spooky in the cemetery, especially when the angel seemed to be looking down on him. A dark sinister angel, as is the man buried in front of it.

Only 'angel' should be changed to 'devil'. Everyone will be worried about him.

When everyone had noticed Kai disappeared they all went out to search, all except Hiro. The strange emotions Kai felt in the cemetery were still lingering. He was far too emotional for Bryan to act all weird and stupid, and for Hiro to touch again. He found Hiro slouched on the sofa alone. There was no Tyson shouting, no Daichi farting, No Max high on sugar. He assumed they were all out. Hiro suddenly had the feeling he was being watched, he sat up quickly only to discover it was Kai.

The silence between them stretched on before Hiro spoke. 'Hey. Are you ok?' Kai remained silent. He got up off the sofa and walked slowly up to Kai. 'Listen. I…I love you. And I'm sorry about this morning, I couldn't help myself. That's what love does to you.' He takes Kai's face in his hands and looks into his glassy crimson eyes. 'I love you Kai.'

For the first time in his life, someone had told Kai they loved him. But he didn't know what love was or felt like. He was still afraid of Hiro, he grieved for his grandfather, at least he think he did anyway. The world was messed up. Confused and desperate for love, Kai flung his arms around Hiro's neck, went up on his toes and smacked his lips onto Hiro's. If love meant he had to kiss someone he was afraid of, he would take it. Anything for a hug, anything to be held close. Kai would do anything for love. He tried his hardest to earn Voltaire's love, only to be snatched away when he refused to use Black Dranzer at his battle with Spencer three years ago. But now he can be loved, and he'd do whatever it takes to hold onto the comfort.

Hiro pulled away slowly, he put his lips next to Kai's ear, 'Come sleep with me tonight.'

Kai's eyes widened. Anything for love, except that! 'No! I don't want to have sex.' Unwanted tears spilled over his eyelids.

Watching the younger teens tears fall confused him. Why's he crying? I suppose he was raped a little while ago and his grandfathers dead. behind these questions in Hiro's mind was a raging heart. He would loved to have stripped Kai of his clothes, but he cant force the issue like earlier. He smiled the most innocent and trusting smile he could muster. 'No Kai not sex. Just to sleep. Cuddled up with me.'

Kai quickly calmed and gave a small nod.

'Good. my lovey Kai. my boyfriend.' Hiro bend down to kiss him tenderly. 'Now listen Kai. You mustn't tell anyone about this ok? dont tell anyone were going out, they'll get the wrong idea. understand?'

'Yes, i understand.'

i'll change the title to silent tears when i put chapter 5 up if i remember. next chap is Kai's birthday!