I don't own Twilight, but I wish I could own Jasper…

I went to the same place Jasper took me hunting earlier. I didn't want to go into town because after all I was a newborn; I didn't know how I was going to react if I smell them. I didn't want to hurt humans, I just needed time alone.

It wasn't my intention to put Emmett inside my shield like that; I just wanted him to stop whining, and then when he went after Jasper I couldn't control myself. My instincts told me my mate was in danger and my emotions were all over the place; my gift just did what I wanted; it stopped Emmett and now I think he's scared of me. He was shielding Rose form me, I'm sure he thought I would hurt her.

Why couldn't I be normal for once? I was strange as a human and now I'm even weirder as a vampire. Edward once told me gifted vampires weren't so common and when a vampire has a gift it's just that, one gift. I have a lot of them. I looked around trying to distract myself; I have too many things going on inside my head. I could see everything and heard everything; it was so disturbing and amazing at the same time.

I was mentally tired but not physically, so I just sat on a boulder for a moment until I heard someone coming. It wasn't Jasper.

"Bella, are you ok?" Emm asked me. I nodded but didn't look at him.

"Do you mind if I sit with you?" I shook my head and he sat beside me.

'I'm sorry' I thought to him.

"Why?"

'For trapping you inside my shield like that; I didn't mean to, it just that my instincts kicked in and…'

"It's ok; it was my fault" I was going to tell him it wasn't but he kept talking "I was being immature and stupid. You are a recently mated newborn vampire, I shouldn't have pushed you like that or go after Jasper, even I know better than that. I'm sorry and I apologize to you"

'You shouldn't; I scared you' I told him and he took my hand.

"You're my baby sister, you didn't scare me" I looked at him with an eyebrow raised and he laughed a little "ok, you scared me a little, but I was mostly confused and worried"

'You stood in front of Rose so I wouldn't hurt her'

"I knew you wouldn't hurt Rose. It's just like you said, after you set me free my instincts kicked in too, I was a little scared and really confused so the first thing I thought was Rose. I was a little defensive. You tried to protect Jasper even though I know you knew I wouldn't hurt him I did the same thing with Rose. It's normal for mated vampires to protect their mates, that's all"

'So, you're not angry at me?'

"Not at all; are you angry at me?" he asked back.

'No' I smiled a little and he smiled back. This was the longest serious talk I had with Emmett, he always act like a fool, I guess he just like to maintain things light.

"Come on. Let's go back, Jasper and everyone else are really worried" I nodded, my poor Jasper, I could feel him through our bond, he was extremely worried about me. We went back to the house, they were still outside; I could feel they were relieved when they saw we were back.

'Are you ok, darlin'? I was going to go after you but Emmett told me he needed to explain himself. I felt you needed to hear why he acted that way from himself. It was the hardest thing I've ever done, to see run away from me and not go after you; don't run away from me like that again, please' he took both of my hands 'Because next time I'll follow you no matter what'

'I'm sorry, but you were right. I needed to hear it from himself why he acted like that; if I had heard it from you I would have thought you said that just to make me happy' he smiled and kissed my forehead.

"Bella, did Emmet apologize for acting like a jerk?" Rose asked me looking at me expectantly; Emmett was smiling a bit waiting for my response.

"Even though he didn't need to, he did" I told her and she smiled.

"Oh, he needed to; he's an old vampire Bella, he knows he shouldn't pester newborns" I nodded at that.

"Are you sure you're ok, dear? If you want we can go back inside so you could rest a bit" Esme is such a lovely vampire mama.

"I'm ok, don't worry or you'll get wrinkles" she laughed at that and shook her head.

"Are you alright, Carlisle?" he hasn't said a thing since I got back and he was way too worried.

"Yes, Bella, it's just…"

"You're worried and afraid; why?" Jasper asked him frowning. Carlisle let out a breath and looked at us.

"For Bella, I'm worried for you"

"Why? I'm here, I'm ok" I told him but he shook his head.

"Partly it's because your shield. It is very powerful and I think we haven't seen everything it can do" he said frowning and I shook my head, I have the same exact feeling, I know it can do more "And it's also because you have the advanced gifts of Alice and Edward and additionally you have Jasper's powers too, that's a lot for a vampire. We need to be careful"

"I'll be careful. I won't hurt you. I promise"

"I know that, sweetie" he said smiling sadly "It's not just you who has to be careful, is all of us too; if Aro finds out what you can do, he's going to come after you" Jasper growled low and held me closer.

"Why?"

"You know Aro, he likes everything that's unique and powerful" Carlisle told me.

"Carlisle is right; Aro wants Alice and Edward to join his guard, if he founds out that Bella is all of them in one plus a shield, he won't stop until he gets her" Emmett said watching me concerned.

"Don't forget she's mated to the God of War. Aro wants Jasper to be the leader of his guard because he has never lost a fight" Rose said feeling dreary. Aro wants my Jasper?

"Then we have to do whatever it takes to keep a low profile. We can't let the Vulturi know about you" Esme said fiercely and we all nodded. I looked at Jasper and he was watching me intensely.

'I won't let anyone take you from me, not even the Vulturi; if they even try, I'll kill them all. I promise' he told me, his eyes were black his voice sounded husky yet all I could feel from him was his endless love for me.

'I know. No one will keep me away from you. I promise' he nodded and hugged me even harder 'I mean it, Jasper; if someone tries to jeopardize my relationship with you they will suffer' his love and lust increased when I said that and he smirked. I guess he also love my 'dark side'.

'Do you wanna keep showing us what else you can do with your gift?' Jasper asked me 'I wanna know what you are capable of' he wanted to know if I could protect myself, just in case.

'Sure' I gave him a kiss and pulled away from his embrace "Would you mind if we keep testing my gift? But not on anyone of you, maybe I can practice on a tree or something"

"Sure, dear" Carlisle said, they were still feeling worried but it was really low, so.

"You don't have to practice on a tree. I'll be right back" Rose said and darted inside the house. I looked at Jasper but he shrugged as clueless as I was. She came back holding four mannequins.

"Where did you get that?" I asked her, I hadn't seen those before.

"From Alice's sewing room" she placed them separately a few yards in front of me.

"Why didn't she use those instead of me?"

"Alice likes to play with lives sizes dolls instead of this; she tried to do the same thing to me once let's just she didn't try again"

"What did you do?" I was curious she was so giddy about it. She shrugged and told me.

"I told her that if she so much as touches me I would reap off both of her hands. She knew I was telling the truth, she didn't try again"

"I guess I should have put up a better fight against her" I said and Rose nodded.

"But then again, you were human. There wasn't much you could do"

"And when I tried to do something, Edward didn't help. Now I know why" I said shaking my head. How didn't I notice this before? I looked at Jasper and he smiled sadly at me "You did saved me a couple times" I told him and he nodded now smiling happily. He took me a couple times for an ice cream or we would just walk in the woods. We never decided where to go so Alice wouldn't know where to find me. Those were the little things that made me fall for Jasper back in my human life; he was so caring. I never acted upon those feelings, because I was with Edward and he was married to Alice. Shit, he's still married to Alice…. Jasper started talking but I couldn't stop thinking about that, he's married… only one part of my brain was listening.

"I felt that you didn't want to be there and I also wanted to spent time with you. I was intrigued, because every time you were around us your feelings were lighter than when you were with your human friends. I couldn't understand you, but wanted to be with you. Now I know why" he was still married. Oh my God, I was the other woman. He came to me and took my hand, but I dropped it. "Darlin', what is it?"

"What is it?" I shouted 'You are still married' I thought to him "That's what is it" I crossed my arms and looked at him furiously. I wasn't furious at him, I was just furious and hurt. I knew it wasn't his fault, but still.

"Hey… it's not fair, we didn't hear what it is" Emmett said but then stayed quiet when I glared at him.

'Darlin', we're not married' he told me

'You said you were… when we discovered what they did you said "My wife was cheating on me with my brother and I have to wait for his fiancé to be turned into a vampire to know it…" I have perfect recall now Jasper, I remember everything, don't try to lie to me'

"I know I said that, but" he yelled

'But, what?' I yelled back in my head

'Alice and I never got married, at least not legally. Emmett performed the ceremony and he wasn't legally authorized' he said urgently.

'Then why did you do it?'

'I don't know, she was my best friend and wanted to wear a wedding dress… it was 1950, I don't know' everyone left us alone the moment our troublesome emotions hit them. They said they were going to hunt.

'So matrimony to you it's not important at all?' it was important to me now. I said no to Edward when he asked me to, because I wasn't sure I wanted him, but with Jasper I'm 1000% sure. I wanted to marry him, he hasn't asked me but if he did I would say yes… but for him getting marry is just… nothing…

'Baby, don't twist my words. Matrimony for me it's sacred, that's why I never married her; I knew she wasn't my mate'

'Then why you pretended to get marry?'

'You know Alice, she wanted to have a wedding on her own, because she was tired of just being the maid of honor in Rose's and Esme's and at the time even though I wasn't in love with her I cared very deeply for her, so I did it, and we were also pretending for our family' I sob escaped my lips and I tear fell from eye… wait, what…? vampires aren't supposed to cry… I'm a defected vampire… I kept crying…

'I'm sorry' I said shaking my head and took a step back from him.

'Bella' Jasper gasped and took my head in his hands 'Please, don't… I'm sorry… please… forgive me' he was crying too, but without the tears...

'I know it's not your fault and that I wasn't born yet… but it hurts to know you're some else's' I told him still crying, I couldn't stop the tears from falling… he fell on his knees and hugged me… his head was pressed on my stomach his arms wrapped tight around my waist… I could feel his despair, his pain, every emotion he was feeling matched my owns…

'I'm yours, I'm only yours… I swear… I love you, I've only loved you… please, believe me' he begged me… I was really tired; I should have listened to Esme when she told me to get inside the house and rest. I took a deep breath and brushed Jasper's hair with my fingers. He was breathing hard so I tried to sooth him.

"Hush…" I was still hurt, but I knew it wasn't his fault; it was nobody's fault 'I shouldn't have been expecting him to be a virgin waiting for me, when he's been with Alice for more than fifty years…' it doesn't make it hurt any less 'Just to think he's been with Alice make me want to hurt her'

'I've never been with Alice'

'You heard what I was thinking?' I asked and he nodded 'Wait… You've never been with Alice?'

'No' he said shaking his head

'You have been pretending to be her husband for more than fifty years and you've never slept with her?'

'No, I told you I cared for her, not that I was in love with her. For me, love and lust come together'

'Have you ever been with someone, like that?'

'No' I looked at him and he kept talking 'Back when I was human I was only interested in going to the war, so I never courted anyone; then in Maria's army she tried to get to me, telling me she loved me but I knew that wasn't true, I knew what she was feeling, so I always turned her down. She wasn't easy to reject'

'Why is that? Was she that beautiful?' I couldn't stop my jealousy

'Not because she was beautiful, it was because she insisted to much… so, after a while I find the way to do it… every time she came to me feeling lustful I would sent her every disgusting, unpleasant feeling I could. She stopped coming for me… I used that with every women and vampire that got too persisting'

'So, you're telling me that you're a virgin?' it's hard to believe

'Yes… how ironic, Edward told us he was virgin when he was sleeping with Alice… and everyone thinks I've slept with her and I'm actually virgin' he said/thought and that was true…

'Why didn't you start from there?' it could have saved us a lot of drama…

'I don't know' he shrugged 'I got scared when you said you were sorry. I thought you were going to run away from me. Oh!

'Ok, so we're both virgin' I said and he nodded 'And we still wonder why our exes left us?' I joked and it worked, because he started laughing.

'Well, I wasn't mad because she slept with Edward, I was mad because they lied to us'

'Me too'

'You were going to leave Edward' he said and I nodded 'You didn't love him' I shook my head 'I felt it' I imagined he would have felt it

'I was mad because even though I wasn't in love with him, I didn't want to hurt him or Alice and they didn't care about our feelings'

'I was going to tell the family the truth, that Alice and I were just friends. I wanted you to know I wasn't her mate. I was waiting for you to wake up, but you had all those visions and well, you know what happened' he was looking at me uneasy

'We're ok, Jasper. You can come closer'

'Oh, thank God… this was killin me' he took me in his arms and kissed me so intensely that I thought I was going to pass out, while he was kissing me he thought 'I love you, only you, forever'

'I love you too, only you, forever' I repeated, after a while we pulled apart…

'What are we going to do now?' I asked him, it was already dark and even though I wasn't physically tired, mentally I was.

'Right now, we are going to rest, let's go to one of the spare room and lay down until tomorrow comes, then we'll decide what to do'

'That sounds good, let's go' he carried me in his arms and then laid me on the bed, I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep in Jasper's embrace.

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