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Chapter 4

The Great Start of the Year Feast had begun, the ickle little firsties had been sorted and Dumbledore was holding his announcements… Same old same old thought a certain Sirius Black; he had had the best summer of his life since he had come to Hogwarts. He'd run away from that excuse of a home and gone to live with the Potters. It was heaven. In his mind he was still in Potter Manor frolicking around not paying attention to what Dumbledore was saying. After all he always said the same things, right? He began to tune in to Dumbledore's speech as he announced

"Finally, I would like to welcome Miss Herminia Jean Fae. She has transferred to here from Beauxbatons. Please make her feel welcome."

As a thundering applause rose in the hall Hermione took a deep breath, she had to face her past now. The great hall was the place of her worst nightmares. It's were countless people she'd loved had died. Desperate times called for desperate measures she thought as she closed off all her emotions behind her Occlumency barriers, for now she had relief. For now she felt blank. She heaved open the large doors to the great hall and stepped inside. She kept a blank face as she walked up to the teachers' table, but inside her emotions were threatening to break loose. 'Deep breathes Hermione' she told herself 'you can do this'. She turned around to face the students and with a loud and clear voice, thankfully it wasn't shaky she had thought afterwards, she said;

"I appreciate the warm welcome. Thank you."

Short and sweet she thought as she walked towards the end of the Gryffindor Table and sat down. Dumbledore could explain for all she cared. As she looked around the hall she had flashbacks of the battle. She ate little and sat in silence trying to keep her emotions in check only wishing for the feast to end. How the hell was she supposed to do hold out this torture? When Dumbledore announced it was time to go she silently thanked all that was holy and was making her way over to the Gryffindor Prefects when a voice called out to her.

"Excuse me, Ms Fae. I'm Lily Evan, the head girl. I'll show you our dormitory."

Hermione turned around to face lily and was confronted with Harry's eyes. Her breath stocked in her throat and she gulped squishing down all her feelings behind an iron wall of blankness. She should have known, everyone always said he had Lily's eyes. If she reacted like this when she saw lily what would she do when she saw James, he was a carbon copy of Harry after all.

"Thank you." Hermione said in a controlled voice, and followed Lily out of the great Hall.

"So Herminia, if I may ask, why did you transfer in your 7th Year?"

"Please call me Jean, I prefer my middle name. It reminds me of my parents... They passed away in July. So I came to live with some relatives here in Britain. My parents went to Hogwarts so I guess I wanted some closure and asked Professor Dumbledore if I could enroll. He said yes, so here I am." Hermione said as the walked up one of the countless moving staircases.

Lily looked at her in pity and Hermione's face darkened.

"I'm sorry about you parents, I shouldn't have been so nosy, it's just that you're the first transfer student to Hogwarts since Professor Dumbledore became Headmaster."

"It's okay, just don't look at me like that. I don't want nor do I need your pity"
Hermione said harshly and turned her head away from Lily. After a while she looked at Lily who seemed to be rather upset.

"I'm sorry for snapping Lily, I just hate being pitied"

"I'm not offended, don't worry about it. Anyway we're here" Lily announced but she seemed distinctly more distanced, as they stopped in front of the painting of the fat lady.

"Flamel" Lily announced and the painting opened revealing the warmth and coziness of the red and gold Gryffindor common room. Hermione eyes watered and a few warm salty teardrops escaped her eyes as all the terrible and wonderful memories flooded her mind and she quickly wiped her eyes. Lily hadn't noticed her short break down however one person had. He had been watching her since she walked in the great hall and was greatly puzzled by this mystery girl. He watched her flee into the girls dormitory leaving a very puzzled Lily behind. Evans turned around n caught his eye, hesitating for a second before making her way over to where he was sitting with his 3 best friends.

"Black, Potter, Pettigrew, Remus" she said acknowledging each of them with a nod of her head.

"Why call Remus by his first name and not the rest of us Lilyflower?" James whined

"Don't call me that Potter! Its because Remus is the only sane one between all of you!" Evans shot back at him,

"'kay lovebirds break it up. You'll have enough time to quarrel when you're married" I joked which caused Jamsie to be lost in his Dreamland and Lily to start denying everything and hitting James over the head with the daily prophet and chasing him around the common room. It was truly a sight to behold!

"So what's up with the new girl Lily?" Remus asked trying to defuse the situation.

Evans plopped down in one of the comfortable armchairs opposite Remus,

"She didn't talk much and she seemed totally unimpressed by everything. I can't assess her personality, she seems so emotionless.."

"Not the whole time." I said quietly, which caused them all to stare at me,

"Didn't you guys notice, she nearly broke down in the common room, she was crying" they were all staring at me like I'd grown a second head

"Who are you and what have you done to Padfoot?" James asked which I decided to ignore.

"Why do you think she's usually so emotionless?" Moony asked and they all turned to look at me

"Why are you all looking at me?"

"You seem to be the one who can judge her the best Black."

"You honour me Evans, but that was pure observation. Although if I had to guess I'd say she's hiding her emotions behind a mental barrier, it's a technique a lot of purebloods use to seem superior."

"Do you think she's one of those purebloods?"

"She didn't seem to have a problem with me, Pettigrew. Besides is Fae a pureblood name?"

"Not that I'd know of…"

"You're forgetting one possibility."

"What Padfoot?"

"We'd have to research, but maybe she's from a Family that's officially died out or in hiding. But there's so many died Families it would be extremely time consuming and hard to find out that way." An awkward silence followed.

"Well, I'll be in my dormitory if you need me" Lily stated and walked up the stairs to the girls' dormitory.

"We should probably be hitting the sack too, guys"

"Sure, what ever" as we walked up to our dormitory I once again found myself pondering the mystery that was Herminia Fae.

Hermione was currently lying in her bed in the girls dormitory with the curtains spelled closed under the covers silently crying her eyes out, releasing all her pent up emotions, she screamed and shouted large teardrops falling from her eyes at the unfairness of it all. She didn't want a second chance, what was the use of being the Morrígan's daughter, being powerful when you didn't have anyone to share it with? These people were her age, but they seemed decade's younger, naïve, innocent and fragile. She had no right spoiling all that with her issues, her problems. How was she supposed to survive this alien time, this alien world?
Hermione fell asleep once again with fresh tears still glistening on her cheeks.

REVIEWS

Guest:

Thanks for your review. I'm going to make Hermione's new looks permanent because of her powers, thanks for that idea! I'm currently debating between Sirius/Hermione and Remus/Hermione. The gods in general wont play that big of a role but fate will pop up now and again, cause I find her quite funny. I hope you keep enjoying this fanfic!

Hamster the Angel:

Thanks for your review. Grey eyes sound really cool too, I've got ice blue/gray eyes but I agree with you, violet eyes sound like the coolest things ever! As per your request Hermione remains a human!

Paulaa90:

3 long reviews! Thanks you so much for that. Long reviews deserve a long answer! Thanks you so much for that. Hermione is the daughter of the Morrígan but she's still only human, she's not a god. She has boosted power and extra powers but she'll still have to work for her achievements. Also I'm going to make her friends with the marauders and Severus and Regulus eventually, however Hermione's just came out of the war-zone. She's going to have psychological issues that don't allow her to socially interact normally. I'm trying to make this as realistic as possible because in a lot of fics Hermione gets thrown back in time and is immediately friends with everyone. That just isn't possible. There is a lot of psychological damage to people during a war that Hermione won't be able to just shrug off. She's not going to join the Marauders either, I don't want to criticize anyone who's done that but I can't imagine Hermione playing pranks, she always was against the twins products and their pranks and more on the serious side. For the rest of your questions you're going to have to wait and see.
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