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Sebastian didn't know how it happened, but he and Kurt were on his bed cuddling. Kurt was resting his upper body on his, while Sebastian had his left hand surrounding Kurt's waist and the other on his hair.
Sebastian turned his head to see the time. 08.27 PM. They've been like this since 3 this afternoon. He stood up and laid the covers on Kurt. Trying not to make any noise, he went downstairs and started making dinner. It might be a little too late, but they have to eat something. Burt was still in the tire shop. Sebastian was starting to get concerned. Burt has never stayed at work so late. He would come back around 5.30 or 6.
Once Sebastian finished making dinner, he placed it on a tray and brought it upstairs. Widening the open door, he walked closer to Kurt and laid the tray on the floor meanwhile. He was going to drag his hand to shake Kurt's shoulder, but he stopped and used this chance to admire Kurt.
Holy shit.
It was obvious Kurt was beautiful to Sebastian, but there was something else that got his attention, that was already fully on Kurt. And that was the noise Kurt was making.
He wasn't snoring. It wasn't a light snuzzle. No, he's purring. Like, really purring. Really similar to a kitten. Not a cat, a kitten.
Gently, he took his phone and muted it so Kurt doesn't hear the click of the camera. Happy with the result, he finally stopped the admiring session and shook Kurt's shoulder lightly. "Kurt? Come on, wake up. You have to eat dinner."
Kurt squeezed his lids and yawned, which made Sebastian want to act like an annoying little girl saying "AWWW!" when they see something adorable. When Kurt opened his eyes, he asked, "What time is it?"
"09.16 PM."
"What? Really? Where's dad? He usually doesn't come home this late…" Sebastian didn't want Kurt to worry. He was about to say something when Kurt asked again, "What's that good smell?"
"Dinner. I know it's late, but you gotta eat." Kurt shook his head.
"I thought you said it's not good to eat late at night."
"You can eat late if you haven't eaten. Now come on. Sit up and eat." Sebastian picked the tray up and landed it on Kurt's lap. He took his plate and walked over to the desk to eat there, when Kurt grabbed his arm.
"Can you eat here with me? I wanna chat but…I don't wanna talk to loud. And if you're closer I don't have to." Sebastian smiled.
"Of course I'll eat here."
A few seconds later while they're munching, Kurt asked, "So are you still with Audrey?" Sebastian looked at Kurt from his meal.
"No. I never wanted to be with her. I was only using her. And that bitch has been flaunting her fucking ass on my face the only to stop is to 'date' her." Kurt flinched at the three bad words Sebastian mentioned.
"You mentioned swear words." Sebastian chuckled. He forgot that he was talking to a 12 year old. But he needed to speak his mind.
"I don't know why you're saying that when you're going to use those words someday, anyway." Kurt grinned and went back to eating. Until he had another question.
"So you still don't know why your dad is forcing you to not go back to Ohio?"
"We haven't talked for a long time. I told you maybe he dreads this place. But that's kind of dumb, I can sneak out anytime." Sebastian answered calmly, as if he doesn't care about his father. Because he really doesn't.
"I'm sorry your parents kicked you out that day, Seb. It's really sad not to be with your mom and dad and have them love you for the way you are." Sebastian froze.
"I don't need them. At least I have you, I'm ok with whatever happens to me." Kurt didn't respond and went right back again to eating.
"You never told me why you were out in the rain that day we met."
Did Sebastian have to answer Kurt? He doesn't want to make Kurt worried about something that was in the past. And he was confused why he answered. "My schoolmates would never leave me alone. So I wanted to just sit there in the rain and die, until you stopped in front of me." Kurt faced Sebastian, and seemed as if he was about to say something, but shut his mouth quickly. "If it weren't for you I'd be dead."
"You can't be too sure. Maybe someone could've been able to find you if I passed by." A few minutes of silence later, Kurt continued, "I'm sorry you went through that, Seb. Were you bullied because you were…different?"
"Different people are always bullied, Kurt. The way I was different was the way I was with girls and guys. I'd always stay closer to guys, and flinch when a girl touched me. I was sure it wasn't that I had a crush on all of them, it was the feeling as if I was uninterested." Kurt nodded.
"I understand. But I like hanging out with the girls. Instead of most of the guys that keep on shoving me and calling me—" Kurt quickly shut his mouth when Sebastian looked at him, looking a bit mad.
"Who does that, Kurt?" No answer. "Kurt, you have to tell me! You should've told me a long time ago!"
"I didn't want to make you worried, so I hid it from you…It's just that you worked really hard on getting the scolarship, that you didn't really plan of…" Kurt mutter the last part, "And you need to keep this up until it's time for you to go. I don't want to interfere with your dreams with what I'm having now, Seb."
"We have to tell you father." Kurt shook his head, but Sebastian continued, "Who have you told this to, Kurt?"
Kurt stayed silent for a few seconds, before answering, "I've only told you. I think that if I bring other people to my own problems…it's just wrong! I couldn't tell everybody about this…"
"Well have you came out to your school yet?"
"Not yet…I'm afraid they'd think I was too young for being sure I was different and…I keep on blaming everything on being too young. This is stupid!"
The awkward silence came back. Once they finished their dinner, Sebastian picked up the tray and went downstairs. Burt was really coming home late.
The next morning, Sebastian went downstairs to find Burt taking off. "Hey, Burt, why are you going this early?" Burt stopped his walking and turned back to face Sebastian.
"Please don't tell Kurt about this. I'm planning on telling this myself." Sebastian nodded. "I've been seeing this lovely woman for a few days now, and I don't want Kurt to know about this. So please, keep this secret?" Sebastian nodded and opened the door for Burt. Once Burt left, Sebastian sighed. Why did he have to hide it from his own son?
A few weeks later…
It was just a day before Sebastian had to leave, and Kurt started to get both angry and sad about it again. Sebastian wasn't going to say he's impatient, but he doesn't want Kurt to think he's going to forget him.
"Kurt, why are you acting like this?! Can't you be happy for Sebastian?" Burt yelled through the locked door Kurt was behind.
"I'm not going out until Sebastian says he's not gonna leave!" Kurt knows he's being stubborn. But he never thought when this moment came he's going to feel this way.
Before Burt was about to yell about something else, Sebastian walked over. "Don't worry. I'll handle this." Burt sighed and left. "Kurt, can you open the door, please?"
"NO! I'm not opening the door until you say you're staying with us!" Sebastian wasn't going to lose his patience. Definitely not to Kurt.
"Please, Kurt! Let me in and let me talk to you face to face."
"No, just say you won't leave! If you don't, I'm staying in this room forever! I hate you, Seb! I hate you!."
Silence.
"I see. I guess you mean that." Kurt heard Sebastian say. Kurt just sat there, afraid. Is Sebastian really gonna leave like that? Kurt didn't mean it, of course not!
He faced the door, still kneeling, and opened it slowly.
Arf!
Right in front of his face was a puppy. And adorable puppy. Sebastian was holding it, smiling at Kurt. "Seb, how di—"
"I bought him this afternoon. I know you've always wanted a pet so I'm giving this little guy to you." Kurt carried the puppy's tiny body and turned the lights of his room on.
"So what are you going to name him?" Sebastian asked Kurt, who was petting the puppy's head. Kurt looked as though he was thinking, then his face lit up.
"Sebastian! I'm going to name him Sebastian!" Kurt cheered childishly. Sebastian laughed at that and ran a hand on Kurt's back. Kurt cuddled with DogSebastian, being attacked with licks.
"I'm really going to miss you, Kurt." Sebastian admitted. As if Kurt didn't know that.
"I'm going to miss you, too. Really. At least I have Sebby here to guide me while you're gone." Sebby? HumanSebastian really wanted Kurt to call him Sebby. "I'm sorry for acting that way a while ago, Seb. Human Seb." Sebastian chuckled. "It's just, I was so happy when you announced this but I never thought it would hurt this much when the time for you to leave was so close."
Sebastian didn't notice he was tearing up. He leaned a bit and kissed Kurt softly, happy that he locked the door. He wasn't going to go all the way with, Kurt. But he really would if Kurt was ready.
Kurt was kissing him back, and laying his hands on Sebastian's chest. "I love you, Seb. I really do." Sebastian finally let the tears fall.
"I love you so much, Kurt. I've always wanted you to say that." Sebastian really has wanted Kurt to say that.
"Sebastian, if you want to, we can do it…" Kurt whispered nervously.
"I want it, but I want you to want it as just as much as I do. If we don't see each other again," Kurt starting to sob. "I want you to just take a look at Sebastian the dog and let him remind you of me. I want you to love another person when I leave, Kurt."
Kurt's face immediately switched into an indescribable expression. "No! I'm never going to love someone else! I love you, Seb…There's just no way I am going to love someone else the way I love you…" Kurt said between his sobs.
"Please, Kurt. That will make me happy. Happy that you're happy. But remember that I still love you, Kurt. Please never forget me."
"I'll try."
The next day, Sebastian was about to leave when he isn't able to find his shoes. "Um, where are the shoes I saved yesterday?"
Burt sighed like he did yesterday. "Kurt! Where are Sebastian's shoes?!" Kurt slowly walked downstairs on laid them in front of Sebastian.
"I'm sorry. I don't want you to leave…" Sebastian chuckled while Burt squeezed the bridge of his nose.
The walked outside and when Burt was preparing the car, Kurt wrapped his hands around Sebastian's arm, and Sebastian removed his arm from his grip. "Don't touch me, Kurt. Your dad with think it's weird." Sebastian didn't want to make Kurt upset, but he did. Kurt straightened his arms and walked inside the car.
In the car, they sat far from each other. Sebastian's second luggage was put on the front seat, so he was with Kurt in the back.
Kurt looked at Sebastian, but he didn't look back. Kurt frowned and faced the window.
Once they got into the station, the train was ready. Kurt and Burt stood behing Sebastian who started carrying his bags (they seem unnecessary, but he was living in another place anyway).
"Have a safe trip, Sebastian. And have a great life." Burt said. "Kurt, say something to Sebastian, he might not come back." Kurt didn't. He faced the other way with glassy eyes. It pained Sebastian to see Kurt like that, but he can't kiss Kurt in front of his father.
Just when Sebastian was about to face the train, the bitch returned. "Sebastian!" Audrey yelled. "You're going so early! Please don't leave!"
"Sebastian, I didn't know you had a girlfriend!" Burt said as he smiled.
Audrey started to hug Sebastian and cry against him. That was when the most painful feeling returned to Kurt.
"Why does Sebastian let someone he doesn't love touch him? And he doesn't let ME touch him? Why is he so cruel to me? Why does he touch everyone but me?" Kurt asked nobody in his mind. Sebastian wasn't paying attention to the bitch. He looked at Kurt with painful eyes.
"She's not my girlfriend. She thinks she is." Sebastian explained. Audrey looked at him in disbelief. "Audrey, please leave. I need to spend this time with my…family." Sebastian walked over to Burt and hugged him. "Thank you so much for letting me stay over at your house. You've been a good second father to me."
"Of course, boy. You deserved that." Sebastian released him. When Kurt was sure Sebastian wasn't going to hug him, Sebastian walked over and squeezed his small body.
"And you, Kurt. Don't forget about how long you've been striving for your dreams. Keep on pursuing them." Making sure no one hears, Sebastian whispers as softly as he can to Kurt's ear. "And remember I love you more than anything." Kurt cried at that and squeezed Sebastian
After that, he left.
Kurt was lying on Sebastian's bed once he reached home. With DogSebastian walking around, Kurt was inhaling the covers. "It smells like Seb…" DogSebastian scratched the wood of the bed and whined. Kurt carried him and put him on to sit with him. "I miss Seb, Sebby. I really do." Kurt began to drop a gallon of tears.
DogSebastian started to pass Kurt, and bit the pillow. Kurt turned back and thought the puppy was telling him something. Which was ridicoulous to Kurt but he looked under the pillow anyway.
And that was when Kurt lost it.
Under the pillow was a note with a writing, "I love you. Please don't cry about me. –Seb". But of course, he didn't listen. He cried anyway.
"He's probably crying right now. I guess I wrote that for nothing." Sebastian whispered to himself, covering his eyes with one hand as a tear fell. He needs Kurt to start a new life. A new life with another person. A new life with a new mood. A new life…
Without Sebastian.
Keep in mind, this is not the end! I hope there are readers…or I'm saying this for no reason ^0^
