A/N: My desire to write is still strong! Here is chapter four. Please comment, review and favorite please

Chapter 4: Planning and New Members

It was only a few weeks after the funeral when I overheard the plans for moving Harry from his Uncle's house to the Burrow where most of us kids were currently. Hermione had already arrived early that morning just as the sun was peeking out. She almost immediately pulled Ron up to his room and was there for almost the whole day except during a meeting of the order. Sadly I wasn't allowed to attend even though I was going to be 17 in a few days. I hid on the stairs and listened in on the conversation.

"Polyjuice potion? That is never going to work Mad-Eye! He'll never agree to it…" Hermione sighed heavily.

"Even if Harry agreed we're short one person still." Bill added in quickly.

"Seven of us looking like Harry? That has got to be the worst plan Mad-Eye has ever come up with!" I thought to myself.

"What about only one other person looking like him? Nymphadora can change her appearance to look like Harry long enough to fool them if we do get attacked…"

"Don't call me by my first name Charlie! If we did that, they will see right through it!" Tonk's voice took an angry tone for a moment.

"Tonks isn't the right person to…wait…maybe…" and an idea popped into my head. As the argument grew louder, I moved from my hiding spot and went into the kitchen.

"Charlie's plan could work but he picked the wrong person." Everyone fell silent.

"Jessie, you aren't allowed to be…"

"Hear me out. What if I did it?"

"No! You are not old enough yet…" Lupin started in but I cut him off fast.

"Remus I'm not a child anymore! And I'm almost seventeen, therefore of age to join the order and help! Unless you have any other ideas that don't involve polyjuice, there is no other way."

"She does have a point." Fred said and the rest of the order started to agree with me.

"Yeah, she's the best pick. She has been stuck next to him for how many years now?" George added.

"We'll use that as a last resort. Hopefully the first plan will work." Lupin said in a sort of defeated voice.

"Only one thing left to do then," Mad-Eye stood up and a scroll appeared out of nowhere in front of me. I knew what it was instantly. It was the scroll that every new order member signed when he or she joined to make it official. I took the scroll and picked up a quill from the table and signed quickly. After I signed I saw a few names that were faded including Mama's and Dad's.

"As of tonight, Jessie Black is now a member of the order of the phoenix. For the time being she is an honorary member until August 1st. We will leave in three days to complete the mission. This meeting is over!" Mad-Eye left a few minutes later. I looked over at Lupin and went over to him.

"I'm not standing at the sidelines anymore. I want to help end this war before its too late Remus."

"I know you want this war to be over but it doesn't work like that…" Lupin sighed a bit before hugging me "You know you got your father's stubborn streak? Used to drive your mother crazy sometimes when he refused to look at things a different way or when he was absolutely wrong."

"I remember you saying that in my third year after I refused to believe you that Sirius was my father." I returned the hug before he let me go.

"You better go get some sleep, we got much to plan still if we are going to move Harry here in three days time." My heart ached a bit when he mentioned Harry's name.

"Did something happen between you two? What's the sad look for?"

"Looks like my poker face is falling… Why does he have to be so good at knowing when something is wrong?"

"I'm fine, I just miss him a lot is all." I lied and thankfully Tonks came over to Lupin to talk about something, giving me the chance to escape and I did. I ran out the door and kept on running until I was safely hidden in the tall grass that grew around the burrow. I sat down at the edge of the pond where I used to swim in during the summer with Ron, Ginny, Charlie, Bill and the twins before we all got too old to do such things.

"Why is he hurting me like this? I love him and he goes and dumps me so I'll be safe? No one is ever safe in war…" I looked into the water and saw my reflection. Tears were running down my face and my neck/right shoulder was still covered in bandages.

"Why Harry? Why are you doing this? Am I not beautiful anymore because of my…my scars?" I hit the surface of the water with my hand, distorting my reflection.

"Ugly girl…that's what you are now….ugly and alone…" and with that last thought, I sobbed and cried until the sun was about to set.

For the next three days we prepared to move Harry to the burrow. I kept a poker face on though my heart cried out every time I heard Harry's name. Lupin didn't asked me again if something had happened but kept an eye on me the whole time we were planning, as if waiting for me to finally break down and tell him everything. The day arrived and the last preparations were put into place. I grabbed my broom and went downstairs to wait for the others to arrive outside. Ginny stopped me before I went outside.

"Jessie you don't have to go help, they got enough people for the mission."

"Ginny I have to go, if the first plan fails they need me for the backup plan." I attempted to go outside but what she said next stopped me dead in my tracks.

"I know what happened Jessie. I know why you have been acting like this. He broke up with you, didn't he?" she didn't even add any emotion to her voice as she just said it.

"Who told you? How did you find out?" I turned around to face Ginny.

"You may as well be my older sister. You acted the same way when the twins picked on you when we were kids until someone told Mum or Dad what they had done." She grabbed my hand and led me to her room so we could continue talking without anyone overhearing. Not until I heard her door click shut did I let myself tell her everything until I was sobbing for the millionth time. She let me cry and hugged me until I was done. When I had calmed down, she spoke.

"Do you honestly think Harry only dated you because you were beautiful? Harry loves you Jessie. It may not be that easy to see right now but he is trying to keep you safe by pushing you away. You can fight back though Jessie. Prove to him that you will be just fine by his side and as long as you fight by him, no one will hurt you." She finished her little speech and I hugged her again.

"Thanks Ginny. I needed to hear this."

"No problem, everyone needs someone to show them things that they can't see sometimes."

"Jessie get your behind down here! We gotta go now!" Fred yelled up the stairs.

"I better go. See you in a few hours." I ran down the stairs and joined the others.

"Lets go everyone. Those of you flying over, get ready to kick off!" Mad-eye growled a bit and I mounted my broom.

"Here we go!" I thought as Mad-eye gave the signal and I shot up into the sky with almost everyone in the group who was apart of the mission. Once in the air my mind drifted a bit and one particular memory kept bugging me and I remembered the day I had become Harry's girl…

A/N: Hope you guys enjoyed that little chapter. So incase you guys are confused, when Sirius was taken to Azkaban, Jessie was tossed between the Tonk's Family (Nymphadora and her parents), the Weasly's and occasionally stayed with Lupin since Lupin is her godfather and technically her legal guardian (but due to him being a werewolf was never officially made her guardian). Anyway the next chapter is going to be a nice flashback/fluff chapter before we continue with Operation: G.H.T.T.B (get harry to the burrow)!