A/N: plsplsplspls don't kill me. I have had MAJOR writer's block and ive also had exams. I should upload regularly now, I promise. also this is a Christmas chapter, and I know its late. fight me.

"DAN DAN DAN ITS CHRISTMAS WAKE UP" Phil yelled in my face, on Friday morning.

"mmghrf" I mumbled.

"HERE!" he shoved a box into my hands. I inspected it. It was smallish, wrapped with red and white wrapping paper. On the front it said "FOR DAN xoxo"

'But Phil, I didn't get you anything!" I sat up.

"That's okay! I don't mind." he replied, smiling. "Open it!"

I unwrapped the pretty Christmas wrapping and gasped. "An iPhone 6!"

"Do you like it?" he asked, a worried look on his face.

"I love it!" I answered.

"Yay!" he yelled, hugging me. I gasped again. I didn't want him to let go. Its just a hug, I thought, Why am I freaking out?

He pulled away. "Dan? Im going out with.." he hesitated. "with my girlfriend today."

My heart sunk in my chest. I felt... disappointed. I had no idea why. "Your girlfriend?" I whispered. I guess my disappointment showed on my face, because Phil's expression shifted.

"I- Im sorry." he looked away.

"What for?" I continued looking at Phil. At his beautiful face, and his blue, so blue eyes. I loved his eyes. No. He has a girlfriend. I thought.

"I- I don't know." We sat like that for awhile, me sitting on my pillow, and him about 1 inch away.

"I should probably go get ready. She is coming soon..." He got up and walked out of the room. About 15 minutes later, I heard the door close.

I didn't move from that position for about five hours, thinking about if Phil was having fun. I ignored my feelings. I tried so hard not to think about it.

At about 3:00 pm, Phil came home.

"Dan?" his voice drifted into my room. He walked in. "Are you okay?" I just stared at him.

"Do you want to come to a Christmas party with me?"

"Will she be there?" I whispered.

Several emotions flashed across his face. "I don't think so."

"Ok then." I got up. "What do I wear?"

"Anything." As I went into my bathroom to change, I saw Phil looking at me.

I put on black jeans and my favourite black shirt that had a white circle on the middle of it.

Phil was already dressed. "Ready to go?" he said, emotionless.

"Yeah."

In the car, we were silent.

"Dan I'm sorry. So sorry." Phil broke the silence.

"Why?" I looked out the window.

"Because. I don't know!" he said, frustrated.

"Ok then."

We arrived at the party and Phil took my hand. A jolt passed through my body. Oh my god. Im holding Phil Lester's hand.

He took me over to a corner of the room where there wasn't music booming.

"Ill go get us drinks." and he walked away.

Phil came back, with two drinks in his hand. He passed one to me.

"Ok. WHy are you upset I have a girlfriend?" He asked, all business.

"I'm not." I lied. He gave me a pointed look. "You are."

I sighed in defeat. "I don't know."

"Ok." he looked out at the mass of people.

"Ok." I said.

"I'm gonna go and say hi to a few friends." He got up.

"okay" I curled up into a ball on the seat. I looked at the crowd. I spotted a girl with vibrant yellow hair dancing with a guy. Next to them, there was another couple. They were both guys. I stared, curious. One of the guys was wearing a plaid shirts and staring adoringly at his boyfriend. The other guy was dancing, with his eyes closed. After a couple minutes of people-watching, I fell asleep.

"DAN!" I woke up, startled. Where was I? It was so loud! I remembered, I was at the party. I looked up at the shadow blocking my view. It was Phil. His cheeks were flushed and he was no longer annoyed with me.

"Come on!" he grabbed my hand and pulled me up.

"Where are we going?" I asked, allowing myself to be pulled away.

"You'll see." he had a mischievous look in his eyes.

He pulled me outside and took his hand away. "So, Dan. I figured out why you were upset I had a girlfriend." he said.

"Why?" I asked

"Because you like me! And I like you too!"

My eyes widened. "Phil I think you've had too much to drink."

"No!" he replied

Phil swayed toward me.

"Your eyes are like chocolate. Did you know that Dan?" Phil giggled, still very tipsy.

I laugh and reach my arm out to steady him. "You are drunk!" I realized.

Phil laughs again. My heart melted a little bit. I realized I might have a crush on Phil!. Did he actually feel the same way, or is it the drinks?

"Drunk? What do you mean?" he stepped forward and grabbed me in a sudden hug. "I think if I was drunk, I wouldn't know I love you Dan."

I looked down at Phil. My heart began to beat faster. "Wh-what?"

Phil widened his eyes and whispered "I think I might be in love with you Dan Howell. Do you love me?" his gaze was hopeful, blue eyes earnest.

"I-" I stammered. "I- I don't know,"

Phil put a hand on my neck. Usually, I hated my neck being touched. But Phil's touch was oh-so-soft. Caring. Phil leaned closer, so that our noses were touching. "I love you." he murmured, "I love you." And pressed his soft lips to mine.

CLIFFHANGER MWHAhahahaahahahahahah ILL UPLOAD AGAIN IN LIKE 3 DAYS ILY GUYs xoxo