Chapter 4

Just as I open my book I hear Sophia's older brother Adam talking to one of his friends behind me.

"I can't stand my mom, I just want to kill her most of the time!" he says gritting his teeth.

I turn around glaring at him.

"Don't say that!"

"Why not?" he retorts back.

"Because you don't know what you're talking about!"

"I can say whatever I want about my disgrace for a mother!" he says fuming "I just want to stab her and watch her slowly bleed to death!"

With that my blood started boiling and my anger took over. "SHUT UP!" I scream as I run out.

Tristan just happened to be going to the bathroom and saw the look on my face.

"Whoa" he says grabbing my shoulder like he does when I'm mad as hell. "Okay breathe, what's wrong?" he asks using his sweet calming voice that always works on anyone.

I take a deep breath and relax a bit "Adam was talking shit about his mom again, saying he wants to watch her die a slow painful death bleeding out."

He rolls his eyes and shakes his head "he's such an ass, don't listen to him."

"You don't understand!"

"Enlighten me then" he says looking me in the eyes.

Tears start forming in my eyes. "I caused my mother's death"

He looks puzzled and cocks his head a bit "What do you mean?"

Overwhelmed with emotions I turn to him. "My mom died giving birth to me!" I say as they make their way out, falling down my cheeks, as I run down the hall so he doesn't see me cry.

I too the rest of the period to run the track for a while and get my head straight. Never in my life have I wanted to hunt so much! I look down at my watch 1:45. I go in take a shower and put my dress back on. The gym teacher Mrs. Greggory lets me run the track during my study hall when I'm having a bad day. She's the only teacher I would trust to tell what's going on, which I did. She was sympathetic and understood my anger because her mom died giving birth to her younger brother.

Now my mom didn't actually die giving birth to me but my very first memory was her saying I was beautiful and her heart stopping. So I have all the anger and memories of a child who lost her mother when she was born but my mom was a vampire. It took me years to wrap my head around the concept that my mom was dead but alive at the same time. I'm still trying to work through some of it.

I'm walking out of the door at two on the dot and Jacob is waiting up front in his usual parking spot. I run over to him and he gets out of the car and picks me up spinning me around.

"How was school?" he asks playing with my hair.

"Don't ask!" I say my eyes flashing red.

"Forest?" he asks seeing the red in my eyes. I nod and he opens the door for me and kisses me before starting the engine. His kisses always make me forget to breathe, and any stress of the day just melts away.

We drive to the forest behind my house and hunt for an hour, then on our way back he finally breaks the silence.

"So you going to tell me what's wrong?"

Without a word I touch his face showing him what happened. After a bit he growls under his breath. He knows the pain all too well, and can't stand to see me cry.

Feeling his anger trying to get the best of him I pull him close preventing him from phasing.

"Shhh, it's okay"

He takes a deep breath and calms down instantly. He leans in to kiss me long hand deep and we get lost in each other as we always do, until mom comes over and asks how school was "Fine" I reply as I hear dad from behind her

"Don't lie to your mother" his voice coming from the living room.

She crosses her arms "Renesmee, want to tell me what happened?"

Tears are forming in my eyes again as I turn to dad who just appeared next to mom.

"You tell her" is all I say as I run to my room.

A few minutes later mom comes in, Jacob holding me and rubbing my back.

"Jake, Sam wants to talk to you."

He nods and goes downstairs to endure a lecture about controlling his anger and not phasing in front of me.

Mom walks over to the bed and holds me close like she use to when I was little. "I don't ever want you to feel like you caused my death again," I nod as she wipes my tears away.

"Because of you I became a vampire, and to me that's the most beautiful gift, next to giving birth to the most extraordinary young woman in the world!"

This is one of those rare moments where time stops and we are in perfect harmony.