Here be chapter four! Sorry I didn't get it up yesterday. Things got a little crazy! Oh well it's here now! YAY! This here is a long chapter of doom. I have started chapter five WOOT WOOT! No idea when it will be up though. Thanks to everyone who has been reading hope you enjoy this! REVIEW!

Lily couldn't help but stare. She was in herbology class, A shocked expression on her face. Sirius Black had just told how extremely sexy she was looking that day and Ja-Potter, she meant Potter, had done nothing about it. He hadn't even agreed. She felted... shocked. Yes that was it; she felted shocked that Ja-Potter had resisted the chance to ruin her day. Most of her day was sent in this shock. He hadn't said one word to her all day long. What's gotten into him? She thought as she undressed for bed.

"You must be happy, Lily" it was Alice, a dorm mate of hers.

"Mhmm?" Lily asked being dragged into the present.

"That James Potter didn't bother you at all today."

"Yeah!" Lily tried to sound as though she had had the best day ever because of it.

"I wonder what's gotten into him?" Alice said the question in Lily's mind.

"I don't know." She was climbing into bed now and Alice was doing the same.

"Maybe he's finally gotten over me." Lily said trying her hardest to sound cheerful at the thought. Alice only made a throaty laughing sound.

"What?" Lily asked getting a little offended.

"Lily Evans, do you really think James Potter would give up that easy?" Lily had to admit it was out of character for him...

"I suspect he was just having an off day. Maybe he didn't feel like having you yell at him." For some reason this comforted Lily, wait, what? Why should she feel the need to be comforted when what she had wished for for years had finally come true? She must be more tired than she had thought. Or maybe it was just the abruptness in which it had happened, yes that was it, she was just in shock because of how quickly James had forgotten her, wait James? Maybe there was something wrong with her. Maybe she was getting sick or something. Clearly she needed to sleep before she abandoned all her principles and did something crazy like kiss him! Wait where did that come from? And why did part of her feel happy?

"Jeez Lily get a grip!" she whispered to herself. She must be losing her mild, clearly. I hope I'm not getting sick she thought to herself.

The next morning Lily woke to the sun streaming through her room. Unfortunately, Lily was not happy. All night she had had dreams filled with Potter. In one dream Potter was fighting with her in the Great Hall and then Dumbledore came over and asked her why she and James were fighting and James said it was because Lily wouldn't date him so Dumbledore had asked her why she wouldn't date him. At this point in the dream Lily couldn't think of a reason why so she said James had dragon pox which she knew was a lie but was all she could come up with. So Dumbledore had expelled her. Even though none of this really happened she still woke up hating James Potter.

She spent all of breakfast casting him dirty looks and when her friends asked why she simply said it was because she hated him. She continued to do this throughout the day and was relieved that Potter still seemed to be ignoring her. He didn't even look at her or question why she was so mad at him. Surely he noticed all the poorly concealed glares she had been giving him.

That night as Lily was walking up to the common room from the library she stopped when she heard voices above her. At first she began to turn around to head for the secret passage that bypassed this corridor but when she heard her own name she couldn't help but listen.

"So what do you think is up between that Evans girl and James?" one of the girls asked. Lily recognized her as being a Ravenclaw, and one of Potters followers.

"I don't know. Maybe he's finally gotten over whatever infatuation he had with her." They were both Ravenclaws and Lily knew them well from the stories her friends had of their cruelness.

"Well I certainly hope so. I don't know what he ever saw in her anyway." The first girl continued. Lily knew she didn't want to hear any more but couldn't force her feet to move.

"Well she is smart, and to be honest she's not that hopeless as far as looks go." The other girl said. The mean one must have given her a look because she back tracked

"I mean obviously she's not as pretty as you or anything. I'm just saying she's not ugly. And probably odes have better grades then you..." the girl trailed off.

"Well she also happens to be a know-it-all. Besides she's not even a pure-blood. There's no way someone like James" her voice twisted sickeningly around his name "could ever really love someone like her."

"You're probably right. He probably only paid any attention to her because she wouldn't go out with him." Lily stood there for a moment frozen, a tear in her eye. Why were they so mean? What had she ever done to them? Shouldn't they be mad at James not her? It wasn't like she had gone around making him do all those things! He just had! It wasn't her fault he had a crush on her and decided to ruin her life! She laughed at this last thought, there was no way Potter actually had a crush on her. He just did what he did so he and his friends could have a good laugh. It wasn't her fault he thought she would be a good one to pick on.

Lily was dragged away from this thought when she heard the two girls coming towards her. She quickly ran back down the stairs and hid behind the tapestry that covered the passageway. Once inside she started walking towards her dorm again, the girls stinging words still ringing in her ears.

That night Lily could barely sleep. She couldn't get the girls conversation out of her mind, and the question they brought up; why was Potter ignoring her, and maybe more important, why had he ever talked to her? None of it made sense to her. If he was only making fun of her and her reactions hadn't changed then what had? Did his friends not find his jokes about her funny anymore? And why did she care so much what Potter did or didn't do? She decided that tomorrow she would act like things were normal, even if Potter didn't talk to her.

The next morning at breakfast she found that Potter was still ignoring her. She hadn't really expected him to stop, but it was still a little shocking. She felt kind of empty, like a friend had abandoned her. This bothered her. Why should she feel that way? Potter was no friend of hers. He was just a thorn in her side. He is a jerk and you're better off without the stupid git. She thought to herself.

The third day went by fast. Lily found it was nice and quiet. She was even able to talk to Severus in potions! Maybe we can make things work out! Lily thought excitedly. Even though he had been a complete jerk and didn't deserve her friendship Lily couldn't help but feel bad about the way things had gone with him. She felt she at least owned him a chance to apologize even if that's all. End things with him on a clean slate. He would have to really mean it for her to be able to forgive him, and that was up to him. She was going to give him that chance. They had agreed to meet in the library the next day and Lily spent the rest of that day nervously thinking about it.

The next day she had a quick breakfast, her and Severus had agreed to meet over breakfast before classes. After she grabbed some food she left for the library. She knew Severus wasn't there yet because she saw him sitting at the Slytherin table but she had some homework she wanted to do before he got there. Once in the library Lily started looking for a book she needed for a charms essay. She had looked the library over yesterday for just the right book so she knew where to go. She grabbed the book off its shelf and walked towards her favorite table.

She was surprised to see someone sitting at it; it took her a few seconds to figure out who it was. James Potter was sitting at her table in the library. Shock ran through her body and she quickly ducked behind a book case so her couldn't see her. After a few deep breaths she popped her head around the bookshelf to get a better look. There he was sitting with his head in a book, looking a little uncomfortable. Another wave of shock washed through her. She didn't even know Potter knew the school had a library, let alone where it was. She had never seen him here before, and she spent a lot of time in the library. Another shocking thing was he was alone; Potter hardly ever left his friends.

It took her a few seconds to realize how dumb she was being, hiding behind a book case! She gathered her courage and walked towards her table.

"Potter?" she asked him trying to hide the shock from her face and to sound like she had just seen him. For a second she thought he might ignore her, but then his face light up in the most falsely innocent smile in the world and her heart skipped a beat.

"Evans! Fancy meeting you here!" he said it coolly but Lily thought she could hear excitement in his voice, or maybe she was just imagining it due to the excitement she now felt for god knows why. She looked at him for a moment expecting him to disappear or maybe make fun of her, she wasn't sure which, before she heard herself blurt out the question on her mind.

"What are you doing here?" she just couldn't wrap her head around it.

"Why studying!" he said ever so innocently. Yeah right. Lily thought to herself before he went on.

"Care to join me?" not being able to think of a good reason why not Lily sat down awkwardly. They sat in silence for a moment before Potter spoke, clearly desperate for the silence to be gone.

"So what brings you to the library this lovely morning?" I could ask you the same thing, she thought trying, and she was sure failing, to hide the suspiciousness from her face.

"I'm Meeting a friend. We are going to study some stuff together." She said hesitantly, she didn't really want to tell who the friend was, Severus had always been a sore spot with James, she meant Potter.

"Oh maybe I could join you two." He said. This was exactly the kind of thing she wanted to avoid. He must have seen her squirm because he amended himself

"Only if that's alright, of course." He tried to smile but it was nervous and Lily couldn't really return it.

"I...don't... think that's a good idea." She tried to say "no" in the most polite way she could think of. She could see she had hurt him and in an effort to save whatever was left of the conversation she added

"It's just I haven't really talked to this friend in quite some time.." she trailed off not wanting to give out any more information than necessary.

"May I ask who your friend is?" this was what she had been dreading, telling him who she was meeting. Again she hesitated. She could feel he was looking at her and she squirmed.

"Who are you meeting?" she was about to yell at him and say it was none of his business when she thought, oh hell why not tell him? Why she he care? He was supposed to be ignoring her.

"Severus Snape." As soon as she said it she regretted it. for a moment he looked at her as though she was joking and when she said nothing looked hurt and angry.

"You've got to be joking!" she didn't say anything and he went on seeming to get madder as he went.

"After what he said to you?" now she was mad. As if she didn't know perfectly well what he had done! As if she was somehow stupid for giving him a chance, which maybe she was, it didn't really matter. It wasn't Potter's place to pass judgment on her!

"I'm giving him a chance to apologize!" Just like I gave you a chance to be a decent person! She thought bitterly

"Why? He doesn't deserve a second chance! He meant what he said and you know it!" she could feel the anger and betrayal in his voice. And it made her even angrier; she hadn't betrayed anyone and he shouldn't make her feel that way! Why did he have to be such a jerk? She knew what Severus had done and she was trying her best to forget it, but oh no Potter had to take every chance he could get to drag Lily through her worst memories! She could feel tears of anger an hurt gathering in her eyes.

"Why? You know what, Potter" she spat him with all the strength and hate she could muster

"What I do is really none of your business! Severus was-is my friend and I owe him a chance!" she gathered her things and left before she burst into tears, heading towards the closest bathroom. She was stupid. She should have never talked to him, she should have known he would just end up hurting her again, like he always did. Why did she always let him hurt her?

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