(A/N) Thanks everybody for the reviews! Can I get more?(: If I can reach 15 I will love you all forever! Anywho here is chapter 4! WOO! This one is where it gets really good! Enjoy and remember to review!
Chapter 4: The anniversary
I woke up in a cold sweat. That dream had come back again but why? I shook it off and looked back at my alarm clock. 6:30am(human time). I got up and slipped on my Nike slide sandals and put my stake in pocket deciding to go for a walk to clear my head.
I got outside and found it was snowing. Being me I didn't bother to throw on a jacket let alone a shirt. I didn't really care though. My dream had to mean something I just didn't know what though. I knew Dimitri would never be a strigoi again and Lissa would never EVER be one while I was stil on this earth. So what could it possibly mean?
"Aren't you cold?" a certain Russian voice asked from behind me.\
"Nope. I'm used to it. New York is slightly colder than this." I said suddenly remembering I was only in my sports bar and sweats. Awkward…
"Here take my coat." He said handing his duster to me. I waved it off not wanting to be more awkward.
"Why are you awake?" he asked.
"Couldn't sleep. I don't really sleep much these days anyway. Why are you up?" I asked not looking at his. I just kept my eyes on the sunrise.
"Patrol." He said. I nodded.
"Rose, I'm sor-"
"Who is she?" I asked finally looking at him. He looked confused for a second.
"I accidentally saw you in the woods with her earlier." I said.
"Oh. Um that is Gwen. A miori teacher here." He said now looking away.
"She's pretty. I hope you happy." I said trying not to cry.
"Roza, I've only wanted you." He said turning to me. I scoffed and turned around to walk away.
"Doesn't really look like it, Guardian Belikov." I said feeling tears fall quickly down my cheeks.
"Roza-"
" No it's Rose or Guardian Hathaway to you." I said defeated once again. I turned and ran. I knew exactly where I was going. To the person who helped me cry my pain away. Jace. I reached his door and knocked until a very groggy Jace answered. He saw the tears falling down my face and knew immediately who had caused them.
"Come on in." he said moving aside so I could get in. He turned to me and wrapped his muscular arms around me and we laid down on his bed. I fell asleep sometime later.
A few hours later I woke up still wrapped in Jace's arms. I didn't want to leave my safe haven but I had to go pack and be ready to leave soon with Ali for New York. I slipped out of Jace's arms and crept out of his room and headed towards mine. The grounds were empty all except for a few guardians that were on guard. When I finally reached my door there was an envelope taped to my door with one word written on it, Roza. I sighed and sat down on my bed to read Dimitri's letter:
Dearest Roza,
I never meant to hurt you. When you left I realized how much you meant to me funny way of showing it Dimitri. I left and searched for you but after a few weeks everybody told me you weren't coming back and to just get on with my life because you would have wanted it that way. That's when Gwen came in. We were never serious and then you came back and yesterday night I knew I had to break it off with Gwen. Gwen understood and we said our goodbyes and now we are just friends. Nothing more. You are my entire world, Roza. I love you now and forever. Have always and will always. Please forgive me.
-Dimitri
I fell on to my bed. I couldn't take this anymore. Dimitri still loves me. I know that I have always and will always love him. But with how much pain I've gone through I don't think I can go through it again. I get up and grab my duffle bag and put the letter in the bottom and fill it up with my clothes. I dress in black skinny jeans, a black cable knit sweater, black uggs and my grey wool pea coat. Just as I'm buttoning my coat somebody knocks on my door.
"Who is it?" I ask.
"Roza, please open the door." Dimitri pleads.
"Why? So you can hurt me yet again?" I snap.
"I really just want to talk. Please open the door." He begs again. I grab my bag and throw the door open again.
"Thank y- Your leaving again?" he asks looking sad.
"Yes I am. So I can visit my friend Angel with her daughter Ali. Now excuse my." I say pushing past him. I know rude but I deserve to show some hate after what I've been through.
"Wait! Your coming back right?" he asks.
"Yes. I promised Lissa I would. Goodbye Guardian Belikov tell Lissa I will be back in one week."I say turning away from him.
By the time I get down to the car Ali is already there and ready to leave.
"Finally Aunt Rose! I was just about to tell the driver to leave." She joked. I threw my bag in the back and got into the car and buckled my seatbelt. Ali and I left St. Vlads again but this time we would return. We got to a small airport and boarded a small jet en route to New York. I sat down and quickly fell asleep.
I was back in a garden at court. I was dressed in a flowy light blue and white dress with pockets and white platform wedges. My hair was left down slightly wavy.
"Adrian!" I call out expecting to see him. But then I smelt a familiar after shave behind me. I spun around scared to see red ringed eyes but only saw chocolate brown orbs staring at me.
"Oh thank God!" I breathed out.
"What is wrong, Roza?" he asked concerned.
"Nothing! Wait! How in the hell are you in MY dream? Adrian?" I asked getting pissed.
"Yes he let me into your dreams. I really miss you, Rose." He said stepping towards me.
"Well I would never have left if you and Lissa hadn't pushed me away. Remember 'Love fades Mine has'? Yeah that was my breaking point. Then Lissa took your side over mine and I unknowingly took ALL the darkness from her and I almost lost myself to the darkness. I had nobody to turn to. So before it got worse I packed up and left so I didn't end up hurting anybody. I was on the brink of insanity, Dimitri! While you were playing 'lost puppy' with Lissa I was fighting for my life nearly losing myself. That was until Angel Henderson found me and took me back to St. Margaret's. That's when I finally started to heal." I cried. I felt a steady stream of tears falling quickly down my cheeks.
"I never meant to hurt you, Roza. It just didn't feel right to even be near you after what I did in Russia." He whispered.
"Yes you did! You wanted to hurt me so I would give up on you. But you know what? I never did. EVER! Nor did I ever stop loving you because it hurt too much to even try to forget about you. I-I just couldn't let go." I sobbed. Dimitri wrapped his arms around me and held me while I cried into his chest.
"There wasn't a day that passed where I didn't think of you. I wished everyday that passed that I could take back those four words. I was broken when you left, Rose. Please never leave me again. Or Lissa." He cried softly into my hair. I couldn't help my feeling towards him. I nodded but tears still came down my cheeks and soaked his shirt.
He pulled me closer never wanting to let go of me. I swear if I could stay here forever I would.
"I love you, Roza" he whispered in my ear. Finally those three words I begged to hear finally are spoken!
"I love you too, Comrade." I whispered back and then the dream began to fade. I was then back on the jet.
"Are you okay, Aunt Rose? You were crying in your sleep." Ali asked looking worried.
I nodded and replied," Yeah. Everything is perfect."
We landed on New York and grabbed a taxi to the academy. Once there I went to my room and turned on my cell phone. I had three text messages.
One from Adrian:
Rose don't get mad but I'm sending Belikov into your dreams. You two really need to talk. I am doing this because I really care about you and hate seeing you depressed.
-Love you Little Dhampir
One from Lissa:
Rose I really miss you! Stay safe. You and Dimitri should really talk. I know you both miss and still love eachother. Love you!
One from Dimitri:
Thank-you Roza. Please never leave again and hurry home. Stay safe.
I love you, Roza.
I was smiling when I was reading them but was still going to kill Adrian but also kiss him. My life was finally coming together and for the first time in five years I was genuinely happy. Then I remembered Angel and Raymond's death today last year. That was the third worst day in my entire life. 1. Dimitri being turned into a strigoi. 2. Dimitri telling me his love for me had faded. And 3. Angel my best friend, besides Lissa, dying. I felt joy from Lissa through the bond and I decided t see why she was so happy so I popped in her head.
"So you and Rose made up?" she asked excited.
"Somewhat. I didn't know if it was real at first but then she told me why she left and her eyes had darkened to a black and I knew the darkness was escaping. That's when she began to cry." He said softly.
"She said she didn't feel 'stable' What did she mean by that?" Lissa asked.
"The darkness almost took her, Princess. She never looked so scared when she told me that." Dimitri said looking down. Lissa gasped and sat down with tears running down her cheeks. That's when I pulled out.
"Aunt Rose. Are you ready to go yet?" Ali asked through the closed door.
"Hold on Ali." I called back. I threw my clothes off and shoved on a black cashmere sweater dress with black leggings and I slipped in my black Toms. I grabbed a bouquet of white and red roses and walked out the door of my dorm.
"I've never seen you in so much black! Not even for my parents funeral." Ali pointed out.
"I know I just realized I really miss you mom." I sighed as we got in to the black range rover waiting for us.
The ride to the Ivashkov family plot was a silent one. The silence was killing me. Finally after 30 minutes we arrived at Keller cemetery. The Ivashkov plot was in a very elite spot but unfortunately Queen Bitch wouldn't allow for a dhampir to be buried in there. So Angel was in a different area. Ali laid blue and white roses on Raymond's headstone and we sat there for a while. We finally began to make way to Angel's resting place. Finally we found it and I placed the roses on her headstone. We sat there for at least thirty minutes. I had tears softly falling down my cheeks while Ali was sobbing. I remembered her burial. Teachers, Guardians, and a few miori came to say goodbye. Raymond's sister was the only one who said goodbye from his family. Usually Guardian's are buried with their stakes but Angel gave me hers just before she died to give to Ali when she was ready. Ali doesn't know I have it.
We got up to leave and we were at the gates when a wave of nausea hit me.
"Get to the car now Ali!" I yelled grabbing my stake from my pocket but it was too late ten strigoi surrounded us grabbing Ali.
"Put the stake down, Rosemarie. Or little one here becomes dinner." A haunting voice said. I knew that voice anywhere. Suddenly he stepped out from behind four strigoi.
"Victor."