Thanks for the reviews! Here's Chapter four!

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Kyo smiled at her. "How…?"

"It's a long story. But let's just say that Kagura was a major part of it."

Kyo frowned. "How did you see Kagura? Did she escape from the clinic?"

Tohru laughed. "Nope. I was her roommate for a month."

Kyo raised an eyebrow.

"Like I said, it's a long story." Tohru said again.

"Well, now what? Somebody's either seen you, or is going to see you." Kyo said.

"Right, which is why you're here to help me." Tohru said cheerfully.

"What?"

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Tohru approached Shigure's house and turned back to Kyo to make sure he was still hiding in the trees. He gave her a reassuring smile, and she nodded in return.

She took a deep breath, and slowly opened the door.

The first thing she heard was Ayame's loud voice which she instantly panicked as she heard Hatori yelling at him, followed by Shigure starting to laugh.

Tohru took slow breaths and tried to calm down her heart, which was beating a mile a second. If Hatori were here he would surely erase her memories again. She couldn't let that happen, not now.

She still stood in the doorway as a teenage girl came clomping down the stairs. She had orange-blonde hair and bright amber eyes, she was a little tall, and she was dressed in black.

Tohru instantly recognized her as Kisa. Her heart began to speed up again. She had to remember that these people had changed and that they probably weren't the same person that she remembered, especially Kisa from what she had heard from Kagura.

Kisa glanced up just as she was approaching the kitchen and spotted her. Tohru mentally hit herself for not hiding. Kisa stared at her for a long moment, an indignant look on her face, as her eyes narrowed dangerously.

Tohru remained still, waiting to see what she was going to do. She seemed to be having a mental argument with herself. She hesitated as she looked at the door leading to the kitchen, and the hallway where Tohru was. Finally, she slowly approached Tohru and grabbed her arm.

"Don't make me regret this." She whispered as she pulled her up the stairs.

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Tohru shifted uncomfortably at the bed that had once been hers, but was now Kisa's. The whole room was different, everything was covered with posters, pictures, CDs, almost as if you covered enough space it would just erase her.

Although Kisa did live with Hatori, most of the times he sent her over to Shigure's house whenever she really made him angry.

Now, Tohru was waiting for Kisa to say something as she played with the comforter on her bed.

"I'm sorry, it was stupid of me to bring you up here. I don't even know what to say to you." Kisa said quietly, not meeting her eyes.

Torhu smiled. "It's okay. It's just amazing how beautiful you've become. After all, you went from such a little girl to this young woman before me. I just wish I could've been here to see it. I guess this just means that we have a lot of catching up to do."

"How…Can you say things like that? You're so happy…Why? If you saw the real me you wouldn't be happy to see me at all." Kisa said.

"That's not true, just as long as we're talking and we're seeing each other, that's all that matters to me." Tohru said.

"You don't get it. I'm not the same person I once was. I'm not afraid of anyone anymore, I start fights, I'm failing my classes, I'm always suspended, and…I'm on drugs." Kisa said slowly.

Tohru looked at her in surprise. "Well…Why do you think you started all of that? Why do you think you decided to change?"

"...You were gone. You just disappeared from our lives, and everyone expected us to move on like everything was okay, and it wasn't. You were the motherly figure in my life, and you were the one who always listened and understood me. But, when you were gone…Everything just felt so empty, you know? As if there was no point on making friends or having people listen to you. I couldn't put my trust in anybody, because I knew that if I did, they'd hurt me like you did. So that's probably when I started drugs, and that's probably why my mother abandoned me." Kisa said, too ashamed to even look at her.

"You know, I can see why you did all of that, but a the same time I can't. There are always going to be people leaving you. Whether they died, or moved away, or you just drifted apart from each other. But, either way, you shouldn't remember when they left, you should remember the great times you spent with them before they left, and that way, your life's just a little bit easier." Tohru said.

"But…You were the light…My hope, everything. When you were around, I always believed everything was okay. And then you were gone, and I was no longer so sure of myself."

"Why didn't you go to Hatori? Or somebody at least?"

"Because…He doesn't care about me…He never did." Kisa said.

Tohru laughed a little. "Well, then can you explain to me why he was so worried when you stopped talking, or how he always let you tag along when you visited Shigure's house? And after my memory was erased, did he not comfort you? And when you were living with him did he not want you to talk to him so he could listen to what was wrong? You don't think he was worrying about you? I bet he was. Maybe you might not see it that way, but I'm sure if you asked him, he would tell you how much he worries over you all the time."

Kisa looked up at her in surprise. She always knew just what to say, and she was always right, in every single way.

"But…How can I tell him…my condition…Without him criticizing me?" Kisa asked uncertainly.

"Just tell him to not think or judge, and to just listen. It's always better when you're listening and not doing anything else, because everything seems a lot clearer." Tohru said.

"It'll be hard…" Kisa said, trailing off.

"But you'll have family there to help you along the way." Tohru finished for her with a smile.

Kisa smiled back, and hugged her tightly. "Hey Tohru? I'll do all of that right now if you promise not to leave this family again." Kisa said, as tears streamed down her face.

"It's a promise." Tohru said.

A few minutes later…

Kisa descended the stairs and entered the kitchen. Hatori looked up from talking to Ayame and Shigure and looked at her worriedly.

"Kisa? Were you…?"

"Don't think or judge, just listen." Kisa said, as she sat down at the table.

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Tohru smiled as she came out of the house.

"Well, did you talk to him?" Kyo asked as he hopped out of the tree he was sitting in.

"Nope. I talked to Kisa. And I've decided that I'm not going to talk to Shigure the way I was originally going to. I'm going to talk to everybody as an individual so I can understand where they're coming from before I fully step back into their lives." Tohru said.

"I'll come with you if you want…Just tell me who you want to see next."

"The head of the family himself…Yuki." Tohru said.

"I'll wait outside the door." Kyo said as he grimaced at the thought of possibly seeing the rat again if only it's at a glimpse.

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Tohru smiled reassuredly at Kyo before sliding open the door and stepped inside to the room she remembered Akito sitting in.

It's was almost eerie to see Yuki in the room now in the same position Akito had mostly been in whenever she had seen him. Memories flashed back of the encounters she had had with Akito, and she quickly pushed them away, not wanting to let her fears get in the way of what she had to do.

She knelt down in front of Yuki and bowed, waiting for him to say something.

"There's no need to bow. I'm nothing special. I'm still just the rat." Yuki drawled out lazily.

Tohru sat up and looked at him. "Yuki…I…"

"Don't say anything…What do you want? You are not allowed here, and you are not supposed to know who I am." Yuki said impatiently.

Tohru frowned. "Yuki…This isn't like you…What's the matter? Are you not happy here?" Tohru asked slowly.

"Happy? How can I be happy here? My family looks at me with fear, I never asked to be God in the first place, and now I have no choice or say in the matter. As you can see, the bitterness of God is all ready sinking into my veins as it did with Akito." Yuki said monotonously.

"The Yuki I once knew wouldn't have given in like this." Tohru said softly.

"The Yuki you once knew is gone, Miss Honda. I have no choice as to which I am now; it's not my place to say who I want to be and who I don't want to be. Who I am has all ready been chosen for me." Yuki said.

Tohru stared at him for a while. "But Yuki…If you could just…"

"…Miss Honda! You're lucky right now that I haven't called for anyone yet, if I were you I suggest you leave before I change my mind." Yuki said in a dismissive manner.

Tohru's eyes narrowed. "Yuki, you always talked about how heartless Akito was, but how I see it, that's what you've become. You've neglected your own feelings and you've just given in to what it is you have to be. You can fight back and change. Maybe then, your family will not fear you. But it's all up to you. I just know that the Yuki I once knew would never act like this no matter what."

"Maybe this is who I always have been." Yuki said.

"No, I don't believe that. I don't think you could be like that if you tried."

And with that, she walked away and left.

Yuki sat there for a moment pondering over what this wise woman had just told him.

"You don't have to be anybody. If you want to be somebody, only you can decide that, nobody else can choose your personality."

Yuki sighed. He knew he should be calling out to somebody and asking for them to capture Tohru so that her memories could get erased, but he couldn't.

Tohru had always been dear to him. For so long he had wanted to see her and to hear her voice. And, now here she was back in his life again. And he had turned so cruel and cold for the decision that had been made for him, when he had no choice. Yet, there she was telling him it wasn't too late for him to choose who he wanted to be. Here she was telling him that he could still change, that she still believed in him. That was all he had wanted to hear; was that somebody believed in him, without there being fear in their voices.

Yuki wept, he would change for the better…He had to…For Miss Honda…That one person who had always believed in him.

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Sorry, I had a hard time ending this chapter, but I decided this would be a good place to stop. Please leave a review on the way out, thanks!