Even though I was a demon, I still had trouble sleeping and I cursed myself for it. I was sitting outside on the front steps, letting the wind hit my face coolly. I closed my eyes and cleared my mind, listening to the hollow sounds of the air. I sighed, happy and calmed, just like I was every night. It seemed to be a repeating cycle and I didn't mind it. When I lived with my brother, things were rarely ever settled or sedated, causing me to worry and go overboard on things that I shouldn't have to, like me becoming a demon to save his life. He would never understand…

"Wanted to get some fresh air?" I turned to see those pretty golden eyes. I smiled at him kindly.

"Just couldn't sleep." I said and shrugged, holding my chin with both hands.

"That seems to be happening a lot lately." The demon chuckled and sat next to me. We looked at each other with smiles. We've grown closer as friends about a month after I started living in the Trancy estate. He was very…unsettled before but relaxed more and more whenever I tried talking to him, especially when I asked him to train me. He gladly accepted it and started to turn the other cheek with me and I admitted it, I liked him as a companion. I'm not entirely sure if I ever established any actual feelings for him in that sense; my heart was still attached to Sebastian and I was fairly certain that Claude knew that too. He would scowl because he knew when I was thinking of him and sometimes he would ignore me for the whole day but then go back to normal by nightfall. His thumb stroked my cheek while I watched his eyes glow red. He was inching himself closer to me but I pulled back unhurriedly. He grimaced.

"Sebastian won't love you anymore if he sees you like this you know?" He finally said after realizing that I wasn't going to give in to what he wanted. I knew he would try again soon and as always I would pull back, besides the bet of course.

"I don't plan on seeing him for a long time." I said and looked at the ants that scrabbled on the ground, maybe returning home. Wonder how Ciel is…I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.

"Is that so?" His voice sounded inspirited.

I didn't like the idea, but I knew it would be for the best. I wanted to see him so badly and of course I wanted to see Ciel too but…after what me and Sebastian did, before all of this, I couldn't bring myself to forget him by any means. I wanted to be with him and have things return to normal; I knew that would never happen.

"Yeah." I said in a low tone and saddened by my decision. Claude was right too. Sebastian would never love me again if he saw me like this. Fingers grabbed at my chin again and drew me closer to him.

"So move on and forget about him. He isn't worth your time." He said and I glared grimly, scoffing back at him. How dare he say about the man I was in love with?

"Either are you." I pulled back and crossed my arms. Instead of backing away and that was the reaction I was hoping to get, he sat closer to me and put his arm around my shoulders. He nuzzled himself into the side of my face and whispered into my ear.

"I can change that very quickly." He purred into my ear and I rolled my eyes in disgust. He chuckled and licked the shell of my ear. Is he ever going to give it up? I glanced at him from the corner of my eye, emotionless.

"Oh can you?" I asked him, uninterested but interested at the same time. He shuffled down to my neck and licked up the top of my neck, down, gently blowing his breath on his saliva. I sighed with my eyes closed, feeling the cool air send shivers up my spine; it felt good. He nipped at my collarbone lightly bit me harshly. I moaned in the twisted mixture of pain and pleasure. He came back up to my ear.

"How does that feel?" I wasn't going to admit that I liked the feeling of pain on my body now but he was well aware of it I bet. My cheeks flustered when he nipped at my neck again and while he was trying to seduce me, he brung me even closer and turned me around so that my back was against his chest. His arms held my whole body as he continued.

"Get…off." I struggled to let the words out and started breathing heavy. My hands went up to his hair and latched onto him, trying to force him off but I take it that he saw it as a sign for him to continue so he bit down harder this time in a different spot. I moaned and pulled my body downward so that he would let go; he didn't. He thought I was enjoying it and in reality I was, it was a pleasure that I had never experienced before. Did all demons love this kind of pain? Claude let go slowly, flicking his tongue on the mark.

"Enjoyed that?" He rustled into my ear and nibbled at my earlobe. My body squirmed when his finger pranced to my heated area. I gasped overwhelmed by his movements on my body; he took hold of my neck and compelled me to look at him. "So…am I still a waste of your time?" My breathed turned from heavy to rapid in a matter of seconds. My head fell back into his shoulder, weary and breathless; Claude let go of me and picked me up into his arms.

"You devil." I scoffed to myself but he heard me and kissed me. It was rough but I could feel all his emotions pouring out in this kiss. Besides, if I didn't respond the way he wanted me to he would've kept going at it so basically it was a loose-loose scenario for me anyhow. I warmed up to the kiss and captured his neck in my arms tightly; we let go, leaning our foreheads together.

"I bet you're tired now." He said and walked inside the estate; I petted his head like Alois usually did and scooted myself off of him. He reached for me again but I shook my head.

"I'll see you in the morning." I said, curtsied and walked calmly further into the estate till I got up stairs then dashed to my room and quickly sunk myself into my bed. Alois was still asleep; he had a long day so I couldn't blame him either. I snuggled into my blanket and closed my eyes, hoping that I'd fall asleep soon and forget about the pleasurable pain that I never thought I would like so much.