DROWNING IN SORROW
CHAPTER 4
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Alaric stared at Damon as if he had seen a ghost. His eyes were wide, his hand gripped the knob of the door as if his life depended on it. Damon stared back at him with a smirk, his posture relaxed and his eyes shining with amusement.
Damon smirked as he entered the boarding house. "Hello Ric." Damon said calmly still smirking. "How are you?"
Everyone got off the couch suddenly wide awake staring at Damon with different emotions. Alaric slowly closed the door, still staring wide eyes at Damon who was acting like nothing happened.
Bonnie ran to Damon hugging him tightly and than smacking him on the arm as hard as humanly possible.
"Ouch!" Damon said mockingly, rubbing his arm.
"Where have you been! We have been worrying sick about you!" Bonnie exclaimed.
"I needed some time." Damon said with no emotion. Bonnie noticed the change in Damon. Before he disappeared he never talked to her like that. With no emotion in his eyes. It reminded her of the old Damon and she hated it.
She narrowed her eyes. She knew that no matter how mad or angry Damon was, he would never dare talk to her like she was trash waiting to be thrown out and he knew very well that Bonnie would never let anyone, especially him, her best friend, talk to her that way.
She touched Damon's arm in a comforting manner as she thought that Elena cheating on Damon was the reason he was keeping his emotions hidden, but quickly took it as she felt a strange wave of energy pass through her. It seemed familiar yet it gave her a sense of danger, death, darkness. It was like the power was forcing her to move back, run away, hide and never look back. It didn't feel like it usually felt. It didn't feel like home. It didn't feel like Damon. Bonnie's thought were interrupted when Klaus spoke.
"You don't call. You don't write." Klaus said as he stepped closer to Damon.
"I didn't get time. Damon replied looking straight at Klaus.
Now, I am tired so please go home." Damon said as he took a sip of the bourbon on the table.
"I will still be here tomorrow." Damon said smirking.
Elijah squinted his eyes in confusion but decided not to say anything. He saw everyone staring at Damon confused but motioned for them to not say anything.
"Well, we are just glad you are back." Elijah said.
Damon nodded, tipping his glass as a gesture of thank you and turned to leave. Everyone stared at Damon's back in shock. Millions of questions going through their minds, confusion clouding their thoughts.
Stefan ran down to Damon and smiled. "Damon! Damon! I missed you so much!" He hugged him tightly.
Damon hugged him back and smiled. "It's good to see you brother." Damon said and walked over to the others who greeted him.
Finally he went to Elena. He looked at her for a second as if studying her an than nodded his head. "Elena." He said softly.
Elena smiled not sure what else to do. The guilt eating her alive.
They all saw Damon head to his room. Everyone stayed silent.
"That was... weird." Jeremy said out loud. Everyone nodded and looked at Bonnie who had wide eyes and deep in thought. She motioned them outside and everyone followed.
"Damon do you need anything?" Bonnie yelled.
"No." He said. "Alright, we are going to a party call me if you need anything." Bonnie said and closed the door.
Everyone quickly gathered outside and Bonnie scanned all their faces. Caroline who did not say anything was smiling slightly as she looked at Stefan who was smiling like a child on Christmas. Bonnie looked at Klaus who was hiding a smile and Alaric who wore an expression that told everyone he was finally relaxed. Bonnie sighed.
This was going to be hard.
Everyone looked at her confused. "What's going on Bonnie?" Stefan asked innocently still smiling ear to ear after seeing his brother. Bonnie's eyes softened but then it returned back to determination. She walked till they were out of earshot and looked at them taking a deep breath.
She was always the one who ended up saying the bad news. She felt like she had become the person who would rain of everyone's parade. She closed her eyes and cursed at what her life has become. She tried to stop worrying about Damon, and everything else and take a break for a second, but she knew that wasn't possible. She opened them again and prepared herself.
"That's not Damon." She whispered horrified.
"Hey." Stefan said as Damon entered the boarding house.
"What?" Damon asked frustrated. He had a rough day and had no interest in more drama.
"I am sorry." Stefan responded sounding guilty.
"About what?" Damon asked confused.
"For being the guy who made you turn 145 years ago." Stefan said, voice filled with emotion.
"Enough Stef, it's late. No need to re hatch that. Not in the mood to go back to the past." Damon replied, trying to end the conversation.
"You know, I've never said it out loud. I guess I need to say it, and you need to hear it. I'm sorry. What I did was selfish and I didn't want to be alone. I guess I just needed my brother." Stefan said to Damon and his eyes softened. He needed his brother too. He wanted to tell him that he forgives him, that he is glad that he is a vampire because he got his brother, but he walks away.
Damon jerked his head as he got out of the vision and looked around, but all he could see was water that burned his eyes and filled his body. Damon tried to stop the tears but gave up.
He missed his brother.
He forgives him. He forgives him for turning him, he forgives him for Elena, He forgives him for everything. He just wants to go back to him. He wants to hug him. He wants his comfort.
He misses his little brother so much.
With the thought of his little brother and the good times they had before all the Katherine mess, he let a smile on his face and he let hope come back to him. He knew his brother would come to him.
After 6 months Damon Salvatore actually had some hope.
"Damy! Damy! Where ave you? Damy?" Stefan's lip trembled as he looked for his big brother. "Right here stef." Damon came out from behind him quickly picking up the 3 year old Stefan. Stefan smiled satisfied. "Stef, how many times do I have to tell you not to cry." Damon wiped away his tears. I will never leave you. Stefan held out his pinky. "Promise?" He asked innocently. Damon nodded. "Promise." he repeated as he held out his pinky and entwined it with his brothers tiny pinky.
Damon's eyes were still closed. The memories of his brother caused him warmth. It made his see light in his world of darkness. Damon Salvatore felt slightly happy. He felt like he wasn't alone. He will always have his brother.
10 year old Stefan sat in his third grade class drawing a picture of himself and Damon, who left to join the confederacy army. Stefan sighed as he sat alone as the other kids talked. It's been months since he saw his big brother and he missed him. Damon knocked on the classroom door and the teacher opened it. Stefan saw as the teacher went outside and came back inside. Stefan looked up to see the door open and a familiar person walked in but Stefan looked down. Damon saw Stefan's eyes go wide as he looked back up and tears stream down his eyes as he almost knocked the seat down and ran towards Damon screaming "Damy!" Damon laughed as he hugged him back and kissed him of his head. Stefan held him tight as if afraid to let go. Stefan looked at Damon smiling.
"I made a promise, remember?" Damon whispered and Stefan giggled hugging him back.
Damon's eyes shot open as the 5 minutes of peace ended, and he panicked again trying to bang and open the coffin but nothing worked. He had to get out of here. This time though, it was the physical pain that made him panic and the memories that made him relax. This time the memories made him stronger, not weaker.
Bonnie saw how all their faces fell. The happiness shattered and the confused looks, the devastated looks and frowns that she was so familiar with made it's way back.
"What do you mean he's not Damon!" Klaus yelled causing Bonnie to flinch.
"When I hugged him I got a feeling, a vision. I don't know what it was, the point is I am a powerful witch and that did not feel like Damon." Bonnie paused giving everyone time to process the situation.
"That felt more like..." Bonnie began thinking.
She looked at Jeremy and they both shared the same expression. Their eyes widened and they both said the name with venom.
"SILAS!" They both said at the same time.
Stefan punched the wall as Caroline tried to comfort him, Alaric put his head in his hands and Klaus looked like he was about to kill someone. Elijah looked pissed and held onto his suit with a death grip.
Bonnie was on the verge of tears but quickly sucked it up.
"We have to do something. We have to get Damon back but for now we have to go with this, we can't let Silas think we know it's him. Let him think he is winning. Let him think that we are fooled by this stupid game he is playing. Block your thoughts." Bonnie told everyone. "Act natural." Bonnie waited till everyone nodded and agreed.
"Also, we know from the visions that Damon is stuck somewhere with water." Bonnie said her voice cracking. "So we have to start looking. That's the only way."
They all nodded again.
"Stefan and I will go to Liz tomorrow." Elena said putting a hand on Bonnie's shoulder.
"Haven't you done enough?" Bonnie snapped.
Elena looked shocked at Bonnie's sudden anger.
"I'll go." Klaus said surprisingly softly.
"I miss the little raven." He said pulling out his phone. Bonnie nodded. "I will look for some spells to see if it truly is Silas or not. Be prepared guys." With that everyone left to their destinations.
Stefan took a deep breath and looked towards the boarding house. He knew the guy in there is not his brother, but for some reason he wants to see him once again, he wants to hear him speak. He looked just like Damon. Stefan turned around and shook his head.
One way or another... he will find him. He will find his brother. He loves him too damn much to make the mistake of letting him go...again.
Stefan turned to look at Caroline and Elena. "I'll drop you both home."
He couldn't take the tension in the car. He listened to Elena as she ranted on and on about how Bonnie trusted Klaus more than her best friend. Stefan gripped the steering wheel tighter trying to calm himself down. He glanced at Caroline through the rear view mirror to see that she had a frustrated expression on her face.
"Oh my god Elena!" Stefan heard Caroline's voice echo through the car.
Elena stopped talking and Stefan sighed softly.
"Could you stop being such a drama queen! You're my best friend and I love you, but you cheated on Damon with his brother. Bonnie cares about Damon a lot. Even more than us at times! He was hurt Elena! And you know how Bonnie is and how protective she is of her friends. Especially Damon. Caroline's voice softened but she covered it up and continued.
He was broken Elena. He was emotionally broken even before he started dating you and when you cheated on him with Stefan, he was destroyed!"
Stefan bowed his head in shame. He couldn't believe he did that to his brother. He smiled at Caroline. It was sweet how she defended his brother and her best friend.
Stefan looked at Elena. He just couldn't see it anymore.
Why he fought with his brother to get a girl that he feels nothing for anymore.
He didn't feel better when he went to her after a rough day, and she tried to comfort him.
He didn't feel safe when he was with her.
The warmth he used to get from her was gone. They were surrounded by coldness.
The trust...
The trust was gone, no where to be found. How can he trust the girl who cheated on his brother. How can he trust a girl who couldn't make a choice, who destroyed his relationship with his brother once again.
In fact, how can he trust himself?
He looked at Caroline who was still arguing with Elena. Not that he was paying attention to what they were arguing about. He was just looking at Caroline.
How her eyes widened when she got mad, and her beautiful blonde hair bounced around as she made motions with her hands to explain something.
He remembered the time they spent together. How she tried to comfort him when Elena chose Damon. How there was warmth and closure present.
How there was trust present.
Stefan shook his head. What the hell was wrong with him. He didn't know the answer, and he was pretty sure no one else knows the answer to that question either.
Stefan didn't know what was going on, but he knew one thing, he was not in love with Elena anymore. Maybe he never even was in love with her. But a certain blonde has always been a constant in all this madness, and he was going to make sure he never lost her.
God, why was his life so confusing!
Okay, so the start of Steroline! I just love these two together. I know it's been a long time since I update this story, and for some reason this chapter took a long time. I guess that's it. I hope you guys like this chapter and thank you for all you support. I promise I will update the next chapter soon
-Shining Star