Twenty Broken Years
(Renesmee's POV)
"I do not want you dead." The now familiar voice said from behind me, I ran to hide behind Uncle Emmett.
"You promised Uncle Emmett to protect me." I slowly back into the house.
"We said wait till after you talk to Bella." I heard Aunt Rosalie hiss.
"I know. It was just. I could not stand her feeling that way." I heard his voice closer.
I peeked out the window and seen he was in arms reach of Aunt Rosalie and Uncle Emmett. Kill him. He turned and looked at where I was peeking out with the burning man look. As if you really care. It's all an act, so drop it, jerk. I let the blind flip shut.
"Bella and Jacob will be home soon." Uncle Emmett's voice was normal no hatefulness or nothing. "You had better go and let us warn her, let her decide if she wants to see you." He finished just the same. How could he be nice to him. "Oh and you look like hell, bro." Uncle Emmett laughed rattling the windows. He promised I thought he loved me now he is even calling him bro. "Come on in, you can get cleaned up and we all can talk a little before they get home." Uncle Emmett invited him in. Is he bored with me, he doesn't want me anymore, do full vampires really turn their feelings off so quick to those that are not their mates?
I have to get out of here, find momma and Jacob lie to them like I have never lied before. They both have turned on me, chit-chatting with him, like they have never been apart. I took my stuff as quietly as I could as they came in the front.
"Thank you. I hope Bella will talk to me." His voice sounded like mom's did most of the time. No it is all an act just to get close enough to get rid of me.
I went out the back running like the wind to my car, jumping in throwing it in gear speeding away.
I pulled into the parking lot of the advertising agency Mom and Jacob worked for.
"Hello Renesmee, who are you in need of today?" Stacy the receptionist smiled over the oversized desk as I stepped off the elevator.
"I need both today, Thank you Stacy." Hiding my fear nicely from her.
"Yes Mrs. Cullen, your sister Renesmee would like to see you. Okay I will." Stacy hung the phone up smiling at me. "You may go on back dear." I nodded, as she pressed a button then her voice crackled over head. "Mr. Black please report to Mrs. Cullen's office. Thank you." She winked shooing me back to my mom's office.
"Thank you." I shrugged then waved.
My phone rang I reached in turning it off.
"Hi sweetheart." Momma greeted me with a warm smile. "Are you bored at home." She got up hugging me. No but everyone at home is it looks like.
"I want to talk to both of you." I put my head down clicking my nails.
"Hey Bells what's u... O! hi honey." Jacob lifted me in the air then brought me slowly back down to his chest kissing me. I did not kiss him back they way I really wanted to. "Mm, you can interrupt me any day." Jacob smiled at me, then studied my face. "What is wrong?" He set me back down on my feet taking my face into his hands.
"I was wondering the same thing." My mom was right next to him. I put my shield up around the whole mess. Time to lie like a dog no a deadbeat dad.
"Uncle Emmett...drank from some humans today. Aunt Rosalie tried to stop him they fought then I guess the scent got to her, she drank too.. Now there is cops around the house, we have to go now without them." I walked quickly to the window looking over the city, making sure not to see their cars. "If your phone rings, It will be a trick, they called me too, turn off your phones please." I looked between mom and Jacob begging for them to believe me.
"Oh no." Momma gasped heading for the door.
"We can take my car." Jacob offered heading out the door behind momma, holding up his keys. "Emmett and Rosalie can take care of themselves let's go." He added taking my hand pulling me out. Yes it worked.
The elevator seemed to take forever to get to the lobby floor.
The doors dinged open, I ran out only to crash into an iron wall. "Uncle Emmett!" I squeaked rounding back around Jacob, holding onto the back of both his arms.
"Is the police still surrounding the house?" Jacob looked confused back at me then Uncle Emmett then at Aunt Rosalie walking up from the other direction of the hall leading to the lobby.
"Police? What are you talking about mutt?" Rosalie snapped crossing her arms looking at me, mad and hurt at the same time.
"Their eyes are not red. Renesmee what is this all about?" Momma looked sternly at me, I could see hurt in her eyes from my lie. "Young lady explain yourself now." She crossed her arms in the same way as Aunt Rosalie.
I looked at Uncle Emmett remembering him talking so naturally to him, I ran out with fresh tears of hurt and embarrassment.
"What the..." I heard Jacob's voice trailing after me. "Hold up Nessie, what is wrong?" Jacob's cuddly strong arms wrapped around me before I got to the car, pulling me into his chest.
"Please, Renesmee what is it, why did you lie to us?" Momma's voice was muffled by Jacob's arms and his heartbeat in my ear. I pulled out of his chest looking at my mom, her face so open and caring. I can not crush her like this. "Renesmee?" She walked over, Aunt Rosalie and Uncle Emmett right behind. Even Uncle Emmett looked deeply hurt. Dang it momma must have told them my lie. "Maybe if you show me what it is that upset you we can talk." My mom looked between me, Aunt Rosalie and Uncle Emmett.
I can not do this to her here that would just be to mean, she needs her comfort zone for this blow. "Can we go home first then I will show you." I raised my hands palms up then got into my car.
Aunt Rosalie got in with me. "I am going to make sure you do not run off again." She frowned at me then looked straight out the window.
"Why do you care, you invited him in." I spat focusing on the road more than I really needed to.
"Never say I do not care about you." Aunt Rosalie growled looked at the side of my face. "We love you more than life it's self. Sure we made a major disaster out of things but it was all for love." Her voice soft wind chimes, looking back out the road.
I parked next to the house, just in case.
"Okay we are home now show me why you thought lies and leaving everyone was a good idea?" Momma started pulling me to the house. "No shielding any thoughts young lady." She let go of my arm looked straight into my eyes. "If I see any blank spots or blurred imaging I will shield myself to see what you are hiding or should I do that now." Momma knitted her eyebrows together then started to chew on her lip.
"I don't want to hurt you, I love you." I looked at momma pouring all the love I could into her.
"Show me Renesmee. What has you so upset honey." She stepped to me putting a hand on my shoulder. "Renesmee Cullen, I need not count, so explain."
"Maybe I can help explain that." He came out from the edge of the woods. I instantly stood behind Jacob holding his arms again.
"Edward." Momma whimper-whisperer.
Jacob started to shake. "Step back Nessie." He growled I ran into the house, from behind me I heard the loud crack of Jacob phasing.
I stood at the window waiting for a fight.
"No, I am not here to hurt anyone, Jacob." Edward stayed at the edge of the woods not coming closer.
The fast low talking started and I could not hear anything. No one moved or showed any emotions except for Momma and Edward they seem to almost show the burning people face that would quickly turn blank.
As time went on Edward inched his way toward them away from the woods into our yard. No stop him. Make him go away. He will just hurt momma again trying to kill me, he never wanted me to be born. I had crinkled the blinds into permanent twist before releasing it.
Jacob turned coming back into the house, phasing at the door pulling on his shorts. If it was any other time I would have whistled at him then blushed, that always got a smile and kiss out of him, but today my mood was not in it. I wanted the monster in the yard dead, away from my too kind heart-ed and forgiving mom.
"What is going on?" I demanded.
"Just talking I got bored of it." He made a gagging face rolling his eyes.
Aunt Rosalie followed by Uncle Emmett came in. "Is he leaving now? About time." I bobbed my head over them looking out the door, but I seen momma standing with him just a few feet away still talking where I could not hear them.
I seen him slowly go to his knees then set down on them, with his hands on top of his head fingers through his hair as if to pull it out. Then momma went to him setting on her knees in front of him her head on his and her arms over his shoulders. They where like that for at least an hour.
Suddenly momma stood up pulling him with her motioning to her cottage she uses when she is depressed.
No, no, no She can not just forgive him. I kicked the end table embedding it in the wall. "What did the table do to you?" Uncle Emmett said with a laugh.
"Not the table, its all of you." I took my bags and box running to my bedroom, slamming the door then grabbing a pillow and blanket and Jacob's P.J. pants off the bed throwing it in the hallway, slamming the door again.
How can they forgive him so fast. I curled up on the bed staring at an old rocking chair grandpa had sent momma. The same chair momma said he use to watch her sleep from when she was still human. I got off the bed then pounded it to sawdust. A chair of lust, he could never have cared about her, he did not want me, I would have been prof of their deep love but no all I am to him is just prof of his lust for a naïve teenage human girl. I hate him. Momma should hate him.
I heard Jacob take a deep breath outside the door then tap on it lightly. "Nessie can I come in?"
"No go away." I snapped throwing a hand full of dust at the wall.
"Please?" Jacob voice was soft and sweet, he knows I can not resist that. He plays dirty.
I jerked the door open "What for, you have a pillow and your P.J.'s." I pointed to the blanket on the floor.
Jacob grabbed my shoulders pushing my back into the room shutting the door with his foot. Then kissed me out of no where, deep but soft then pulled away. "I love you Nessie Monster." He set me on the bed looking deep into my eyes.
"I know you do Jacob." I took his hand in mine he laid his other over both.
"You know I would never ever let anyone or anything hurt you, right?" His eyes seemed to reach my soul sending goosebumps over my skin.
"Of course Jake." I tried to study his face worried about where this was going.
"I know you hate your father right now, but try to look at it from their view." I seen big tears forming in his eyes. He's good at playing dirty.
"Their view, what do you mean their?" I ripped my hands out of his, going to the window, keeping my focus, or trying to at least.
"They love each other. They always have and always will." Jacob slid his hands around my waist slowly pulling himself to me. "They both made a huge major mistake when they found out she was pregnant." Jacob kissed my neck sending chills up to my scalp and down to my toes, he knows I like when he kisses or lightly brushes over that spot.
"NO! I wont allow it, they can't!" I pushed him away storming out then down the stairs. "This is not fair! I do not want him to stay here! I do not want him around momma!" I yelled ripping the front door off its frame.
I kicked in the cottage door.
"You get away from my momma and go the hell away!" I had him pinned to the wall yelling in his face. "You can drop the act!" I grabbed his neck pushing with all I had making his head crash through the wall. "If I ever see you again I will kill you before you can kill me." I pulled my knee up with every bit of force I could manage. "Get out now!" I screamed in his stunned face then let him go pulling momma out the door.
"Renesmee, let me go." Momma wiggled her wrist.
I kept on walking toward the door. "No, I know you. He does not get to make you feel bad. He wants me dead." Momma stopped jerking me back toward her. "Come on you know it is true you forgive people to easy. Not this time mom, I wont allow it." I snarled looking straight over her head at him. "Leave her alone. I am alive only because of her, Aunt Rosalie and Uncle Emmett." I pulled momma behind me. "I would be dead if it was up to you and ...grandpa." I jabbed a finger at him.
"I am sorry Renesmee. I want to explain everything, please give me a chance." He walked slowly toward me hands up.
"Get back, I don't want any of your lies." I hissed then growled crouching down. I have never done this before hum I do have wildness in me to protect.
"Renesmee stop." Momma stood in front blocking my view of him, pulling me up.
"No, I want to kill him for hurting you and wanting me dead." I snarled in momma's face.
She slapped me. "Ow." I rubbed my face. My knee started to throb too.
"Remember you can feel pain and get hurt a lot worse than we can." Momma folded her arms.
"You didn't have to slap me." I pouted still rubbing my jaw.
She laid her hand on my now red cheek. "You was not thinking straight, this way you can see what I mean." Momma pulled me into a hug. "I love you, you know I do, but me and your father needs some time to talk."
I pulled away from her looking at her.
She looked different a spark I had never once seen in her eyes, she seemed to glow from the inside, she did not look like the shell of a person I always remember. Then I looked at him, he still looked like hell, something about him reminded me of her.
"May I?" I said in defeat holding my hands up to him.
"Really, just like that?" Edward smiled at me, grabbing me up in a hug then twirling. "My little girl." He cooed in my ear then set me down on my feet, the strangest most beautiful laugh came from my mom's direction.
I pulled away from him roughly to see it was my mom, she is beautiful now I have never seen her real smile, a real sparkle in her eyes, and this, a real laugh so beautiful I thought that sound could never be made.
"What?" Edward half smiled looking confused but when I looked at him, he to had changed his half-smile was nice and his little nervous chuckle sounded like music.
"She did not want a hug, she wanted to touch your temple to show you things then in return see into your past." My mom still laughing trying to stop, she sounded like a clown choking on its helium balloons.
"Oh." Edward looked at me dropping his arms. "Go ahead."
I placed my palms against his temples, pushing everything I remember from being born, looking down at her bloody mangled body, Edward let out a weird noise. I moved on to Aunt Rosalie and Uncle Emmett watching over me, fighting over me, for three long days waiting for momma to fully change. Then momma taking right up with me, my blood not even making her thirsty, to learning and growing worrying everyone that I would get old and die soon, then my sudden stop in growth, Jacob imprinting on me, our wedding. I have a shield around the Honeymoon and other times. I blushed making Edward chuckle. I ended with us moving around, and other small details, even me in mirrors telling him off, when watching momma suffering trying to hold it together just for me but failing got to be too much.
In return I seen images and could feel, so much, deep to the very core, fear, pain, regret, heartache, the same things I feel when I did this to momma. I seen him struggle not to step through the gates of an old village, the same village in one of momma's memories of the time she saved his life after a big misunderstanding.
I pulled away breathless tears streaming, he hurt just as much as momma maybe even more and here I was hating him, wanting him dead, but he didn't really want me dead, he was scared of what I would do to her while pregnant, scared that she would not survive, he was also afraid I would be like one of the immortal children in some of Uncle Emmett's ghost stories he use to tell me when I was a kid.
"Can we start over?" I mumbled with my head down.
I was wrapped in a loving hug, a hug I have never had before it felt nice. "Of course." Edward's, my father's voice sang lightly in my ear.
I pulled away holding out my left hand taking his. "Hi, my name is Renesmee Cullen and I think you are my father." I really looked into his eyes for the first time, his face turned burning.
"Hi, I do believe you're right." He pulled me back into a hug then I felt momma's arms around both of us. My heart leaped as the warmest feeling ever ran through me.
It was daybreak when we finally broke the hug and I dried my face heading to the house where Jacob, Aunt Rosalie and Uncle Emmett was waiting.
"Well that was some sappy crap." Uncle Emmett doubled over laughing, the windows shaking in their frames. We all laughed a beautiful melody almost ending in a deep sigh of relief.
We chatted for a while longer before the yawns set it.
"I need to go to sleep. Jacob." I picked up his pillow and blanket off the couch, he had me scooped up laying on the bed before I said goodnight, brushing his fingers lightly over my cheeks to my hair kissing me softly but passionately.
"Jacob." I heard my mom called.
"Mm, yeah." He said in between soft kisses.
"Just for tonight let her sleep...please."
Then Uncle Emmett's laugh rang through the house again.
"Fine, just this night." Jacob snapped but smiled winking at me, pulling me into a hard kiss follow by kissing my neck, his hand wondering.
"JACOB!" My mom scolded, windows rattled the door shook.
Jacob stopped, laughing so hard the bed crashed to the floor. "More comfortable this way anyways." Jacob lightly kissed my ear. "Goodnight love."
"Goodnight honey." I kissed his neck when he laid his head on the pillow.
I fell to sleep but I know not for long.
"Where is she I want to see her, with my own eyes?" A strange but almost familiar, voice violated my dreams. Suddenly my door opened and I was being attacked by a blur of chalk-white and black spikes. "She is gorgeous!" The little pixie vampire that was attached to my side squealed. "Look at them curls! She has your eyes." She squeezed me tighter.
"Can't bre..ath." I tried prying her off of me.
"Alice you are scaring her." My father came in laughing.
"Huh, what is going on?" Jacob's voice mumbled groggy with sleep.
"Visitors, It is okay go back to sleep." I kissed his forehead he relaxed with a smile melting back into his pillow.
"Ewe!" Alice hissed jumping back to the door. "You married him?" I just stared at her. "Oh, sorry I am your Aunt Alice." She stuck her tinny hand out to me. "Jasper, Esme and Carlisle will be here soon." Alice's voice sang like silver wind chimes looking at my father.
He smiled then nodded. "I have a lot of apologizing to do." He set next to me on the bed pinching his nose.
"I will help you ...d..dad." That felt weird to say, I took his hand in both of mine.
He let out a heavy sigh. "Thank you but it is my mess to clean up."
"No, it is our mess." Mom took both our hands pulling us up to stand. "I will not lose either of you to guilt, or a misunderstanding ever again, if something is bothering us we talk about it, the good, the bad, everything, no more lies either." Momma looked at me sternly I hung my head in shame. "And, we make our own choices even if the other thinks it is wrong, we stick together through it all." She pulled us into a big hug.
"About time, you two make me sea-sick." Alice giggled heading down the stairs. "Rosalie, Emmett!" Alice squealed then the sound of rocks colliding met us as we got to the bottom of the steps. Alice was wrapped around both of them.
"It is good to see you too." Uncle Emmett pried her off of them with ease.
"Come in." Edward said behind me.
Three people, that was about as familiar as Alice, stood staring at me from the opened door.
Alice zipped in front taking the tall blond's hand pulling him to her jump into his arms. "Oh Jasper, she is so beautiful, can you believe it." Alice sang looking back at me.
"Yes, a perfect blend of them." His southern accent sounded warm and inviting.
"Well come in." Alice jumped down pulling the other two in, both young but still a bit older than the rest, they looked the age I should look if I would not have stopped growing four years ago, between twenty something and maybe tops of thirty-ish. The woman's face was that of the burning person the man just smiled. I felt no bad vibes from them almost love of the purest kind, this from the man who I always thought was with my father out to kill me.
"Esme, Carlisle." My father's voice was soft going to them. "I would like you to meet my daughter. Your granddaughter, Renesmee." My father's face when he turned back was glowing and he said my name with pride.
"Hi dear." Esme stepped slowly to me to take my hand.
"Hello Renesmee." Carlisle shook my hand to with a nod of the head.
"This is your uncle Jasper." Alice sang patting Jasper chest.
"Hello." He smiled with a nod.
"Lets go sit in the living room." My mom motioned toward the living room.
"What is that." Jasper crouched down sniffing. "One of them are here?"
"It is Jacob. You can attack him if you want I wont stop you it will be fun." Aunt Rosalie laughed slapping her leg.
"Funny Blondie." Jacob growled as he got to the last step. "Nice to see guys again." Jacob came in with his hand out for Carlisle to shake, then Jasper, then hugged Esme.
"Good to see you too dear." Esme hugged him back patting his back.
Esme set down in a Lazy-Boy chair looking around sobs started to rake though her.
Everyone surrounded her in a hug. "I am sorry Esme. I know you deserve better than the way I treated everyone." My father's voice crackled raw.
"I should have stayed and fought to make you all see everything would work out." My mom's voice whispered under my father's.
"Our family is back together." Esme whispered when everyone let her go. "I am happy. For the first time I can cry for something good." Carlisle pulled her up to him wrapping his arms around her shoulders putting his face in her hair, Esme wrapped her arms around his waist sobbing freely.
Aunt Alice chattered like the wind to My mom and Aunt Rosalie about a line of clothes she started, while Jasper told Jacob, Uncle Emmett and my dad about taking over a company that does paper work for people in need of a change. Grandma Esme stopped sobbing, then talked about the houses she designed over the years and Grandpa Carlisle even said he now owns a chain of hospitals with only the best top of the class specialist.
"So tell me how have things been with you." Grandma Esme asked me with a sweet warm smile.
"I can show you all."
Esme looked to my mom than dad with a smile. "She is gifted?"
My mom and dad both smiled looking at me, hugging each others sides the first true loving contact they shared. "Very."
Then turned facing each other my dad leaned down putting a hand on the side of my mom's face as she looked up with a smile they shared a soft sweet kiss.
"I love you." They whispered to each other.
My dad got down on one knee holding her left hand. "Would you do the honor of being my wife again?"
"Yes." My mom softy sobbed. "I always have."
My dad stood up in a flash lifting my mom to his face, she wrapped her legs around his chest. They kissed a true deep heart-swelling kiss eyes closed an a hand on each others face. Everyone went off talking doing other things, I could not help but watch, with Jacob's arm around me. I have a real family.
A sudden sharp pain jabbed my stomach. "Ow." And I got a sudden thirst to go hunting.
"You're pregnant." My father gasped rushing to me putting a hand over where the pain was "I hear the baby it is very hungry." My father smiled brightly at me.
Jacob passed out. Everyone cheered congratulating me.
"How will it..." I broke off whispering my body can't change, babies need room to grow, I have no room for a baby to grow.
"We will wait and see together." My mother grabbed me up hugging me. "But right now let's go hunt."