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HPOV.
How could I be so stupid? I let Nathan nearly kiss me! I let his warm hands caress my cheek! What the hell is up with me? Is it wrong I liked it? Is it wrong I want him to try it again? God I sound like a school girl who is all crushed on this boy. Well I guess I am all crushed out on him.
I mean the heart wants what is wants right? That is what my mum always used to say to me. But now I seem to be thinking that even if the heart wants something, if it is forbidden it can't have it. Which well sucks.
Lucas is still in my room rambling over something I have no interest in, well it's not that I have no interest in his squad it's just I can't get Nathan out of my head.
Why does he have to be still in school?
"Haley?"
"Oh sorry look I completely zoned out there."
"Tell me about it, hey are you and Nathan getting along okay because it looks like you two don't get on?"
"What you mean?" If he only knew it was the exact opposite.
"Well when I walked in there it looks like you two were arguing or something. I mean if you don't like him Hales just say, I know he comes across like a jerk but that is only because of Dan, he really is just a good guy."
"Lucas I don't think he is jerk. I like him he is a good student." Student. The thing that is stopping me running down the hall and finding Nathan.
He is my student. He is forbidden.
"Okay well good because I am going to invite him over soon, we really need to get to know each other."
"Luke?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you do me favour?"
"Sure what is it?"
"Don't pressure him in basketball practice, I know he is the start player but I get the feeling he gets enough from Dan."
"I know Hales, thanks for looking out for him he needs people like you to help him." As Luke said those words I suddenly felt really guilty. He trusts me with his brother, he trusts me to help him. This just makes the situation even worse, I mean even if Nathan and I were together Luke wouldn't be happy. He wants what's best for him after having a hard life and well shacking up with his teacher isn't exactly great for him and he would definitely be excluded from the basketball team.
Everything about whatever is going on with us is doomed right from the start, I guess we are more like Romeo and Juliet than I first thought.
"Well Hales I am going to go see one of the boys, he is having trouble with his fade away. He thinks it's weak when really it's one of the most useful shots you can play."
"So you keep telling me Luke" I started laughing and he stuck out his tongue and made his way out my classroom.
I looked around and everywhere I saw Nathan. I couldn't get his face out of my head. The way his leg touched mine when he sat down shot a jolt of electricity through my entire body. I made it so obvious that he affected me with the way I was acting. I just can't keep my cool around him.
The way he told me all about Dan and his basketball just made me want to comfort him even more. I was drawn to him.
Is it me or is it really hot in this classroom? I needed to get out of this school. I just needed to think. Nathan has me all confused and believe me I am never confused about anything, I am Tutor Girl!
I decided I would go to the beach; I seem to be able to do my best thinking out there beside the sea. It's like a whole other world and it takes me away from everything that is going on.
I pulled up at the beach and I started to walk along it just taking in the fresh air, just clearing my head. I found it very therapeutic.
I found a spot I like and I sat down feeling the sand about my feet. It was such a lovely day but the beach wasn't crowded at all which I liked.
I let out a loud breath that I didn't even know I was holding. What am I going to do? I have only been here two days and already I am hung up on this guy. He is like none of the other people I have ever been interested in.
His blue eyes captured me as soon as I looked into them, his bad boy image that I have heard about all over school was just a mask. I know there is a vulnerable guy in there just wanting to be left alone. The pressure he is put under by everyone is unbelievable. I just want to take it away, please help me take it away.
"We are more alike that I first thought." The husky voice startled me and I turned round to see the man of my thoughts walk over and sit next to me.
"What do you mean?"
"Well I do my best thinking out here and it looks like you were deep in thought yourself." He smiled at me then looked out towards the sea.
"Yeah I just needed to clear my head." I couldn't stop looking at him.
"I take it you are out here for the same reasons as me Miss James?"
"Call me Haley." What ? Call me Haley? Is there something wrong with me?
He turned towards me looking straight into my eyes, "Haley, beautiful Haley." I blushed at his words and he smiled softly.
"To answer your question I think I am out here for the same reason as you."
"Thank god, I was starting to think I was the only one out of the two of us that knew there was something going on."
"No believe me I know." I know.
"It's funny, you hear about it books and you see it in movies and well you think it's a load of bull but when I saw you in our class it hit me that it wasn't, that people can have a connection when they first see each other." There he was the vulnerable guy who just needed love, help.
"Nathan I feel it too but nothing can happen I am your teacher! If I could change that I would but I can't-"
"I know there is nothing we can do but I just wanted to check I wasn't the only one that was going crazy?" I laughed.
"No you are definitely not." He smirked towards me.
"So Hales who was that dream about that got you all hot and bothered last night?" I punched him lightly in the arm.
"Funny and also none of your business!" He laughed and brought his mouth to my ear, "Well that is a shame because I can tell you I have been having dreams about you all the time" he whispered softly in my ear. I shivered at his words as my dream from last night played over in my head.
His mouth was still at my ear and he kissed it softly I went to move away but I couldn't, I wanted him there and I couldn't deny it.
One of his hands made its way to my cheek the other rested on the small of my back.
This is wrong, so wrong but it feels so right. He kept kissing my ear moving down to my neck. I moaned at the impact. I must look like such an idiot I mean I am just sitting here!
I turned towards him and he stopped kissing my neck and inside looked deep into my eyes.
"Please don't deny me of this Haley; I can't stay away from you any longer."
There were hundreds of things I could have said there. I could have stopped whatever was about to happen, I could tell him he would just have to get used to staying away from me, I could have run away and stayed away from him. But I couldn't.
"I don't want you to stay away from me, I just, I just want you Nathan." He smiled softly and slowly started moving closer towards me. His eyes were never leaving mine as he leaned in. I titled my head to the side and closed my eyes waiting for what was about to happen.
I then felt his lips on mine; it was magic, better than I ever dreamed.
Our kiss wasn't rushed; it wasn't awkward it was just full of complete need and want for each other. We were both completely new to the feelings that we held for each other, none of us even thought it was possible. But we are joined, we are supposed to be. I didn't need him to tell me that as I knew, I mean what else would we be doing out here endangering everything we stand for?
His tongue licked along my bottom lip just begging for entrance which I granted, I moaned slightly at the feel of his tongue in my mouth. Out kiss because more heated as he slowly laid me down on the sand and hovered above me. His hands felt through my hair as mine felt the muscles on his back.
We both pulled away a few minutes later in attempt to gain our breaths back.
He laid his head against mine in defeat and I knew like me we were done trying to stay away from each other. We had both given into temptation and we were never coming back.
To say I know what I am doing is a lie.
I am scared about what is going to happen if anything.
But I do know I have strong feelings for him; the guy who is forbidden, the guy who I can't have but in some strange way I already do.
What have we got ourselves into?
YEEEEEYYYYY!!!! They
kissed :) I know it was short but I just needed the kiss to happen so
I could start their relationship and all the drama so yeah :)
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