Hey Loves,
it's been a while. I was on holiday in Thailand which was great! Definitely recommend it. And I was lacking creativity so that's why its taken so long for this chapter. Hopefully the next chapter wont take as long. Please enjoy and don't forget those lovely reviews. have a great week. :)
"So how did your visit with Ali go?" Mona finally asked.
"It was fine. Nothing ground breaking." the taller brunette replied from her spot on the couch. Her eyes glued to the television.
"Are you ok? You were pretty quiet all the way home?" Mona asks sitting down next to her.
Emily nods not speaking, her eyes still glued to the screen. A million thoughts and memories including the not so good ones were swirling in her head again. None of which she knew would leave again anytime soon.
"You've never been a great liar Em- Even when you were one." placing a hand on her lovers knee.
"I'm fine Mona." Emily snaps jerking her knee away.
"Em, sweetie. Come on just talk to me." She wanted Emily to talk about what she was feeling. Unfortunately that was never an easy task...unless tequila. Getting Emily a little bit tipsy had always worked in the time they had been together. Once Emily downed a few shots she wouldn't shut up. She was kind of an emotional/chatty drunk. Mona knew it wasn't right to manipulate Emily's feelings out of her like that but if it helped her understand where the brunette's head was right now then what was the harm?
Clearly her visit with Alison had stirred old feelings and unresolved things. Emily was clearly far from fine.
"I feel like some tequila. Want some?"
"No thanks. If it's ok with you I might just go to bed. The drive took a lot out of me." Emily stood up pecking Mona on the cheek before retreating to the bedroom leaving Mona concerned.
Brilliant idea Mona. Make Emily see her ex girlfriend after everything they went through together that brought her here to your apartment in the first place. Yeah brilliant. Mona thought, mentally cursing at herself.
"Sure. Sweet dreams." she called after her. The next few days passed slowly for Alison. Time seemed to be standing still. Her mind was trapped, stuck in the past.
It's Saturday morning Emily & Alison are still in bed enjoying a trouble free zone for the weekend. They had somehow managed to get some alone time without their fur baby Pepe getting the middle. He never liked being alone especially when they were together. Cece had out of the blue offered to take him for the weekend.
She had been crushing hard on her next door neighbour. Fireman Bobby (Robert) Green & was hoping to score some brownie points with him by bonding with his Dalmatian, Rocky by way of Pepe.
Not a sound or soul to disturb them. The blonde curled over to the other side of the bed. Being naked amongst the bed sheets feeling deliciously sore. Their skin covered in bruises from passionate love bites making their morning complete and total bliss. Alison allowed her fingertips to softly trace the curves of the brunettes back and the side of her breast as she lay sleeping.
Her toned muscles so prominent yet subtle from all that swimming. Inspecting every dimple and freckle she happened to come across with her lips. With every feather light touch the brunette stirred. Emily was all hers and no one else's. Her mermaid, her knight in shining armour, her love, her life. All of her. The blondes gaze swept over the image in front of her. The sheet pooled so erotically between her lovers tanned legs and just below the swell of her hips. Alison delivered kisses to Emily's spine with her mouth and tongue pulling her slowly out of sleep.
'Morning beautiful, you missed the sunrise earlier it was so perfect from our bedroom window.'
Emily's eyes fluttered open. One eye was greeted by a golden waterfall over her face. The other falling on Alison's nakedness.
'I hope you didn't stand at the window like that,' Emily commented 'You know the neighbours can see you. Plus creepy Craig across the street has a teloscope. I'm pretty sure he uses that to see into our bedroom.' Emily adds, her voice still heavy with sleep, half moaning when Alison kisses her mouth. Slow and tender.
'That's what the sheer curtain is for.' Alison replies. 'Besides, he's just jealous because I have the most beautiful woman in the world.' Emily chuckled softly at the compliment 'I want to stay here forever.'
"Alison. talk to me, please." Dr Sullivan probed sitting opposite the blonde in the same chair she always did when they had their sessions. Alison stared blankly completely lost deep in thought. "Alison?" Dr Sullivan said again.
"Sorry." Alison apologised after being so far away in her minds eye "Can we skip this session today I'm not feeling up to it."
"Hmm, this wouldn't have anything to do with a certain visitor the other day would it?"
Alison shrugged. "I think you want to talk about her but you're not quite sure what to say."
"Where would you start Dr Sullivan? If you knew someone so intimately. If you knew all their secrets, hopes, dreams and worst fears how would you begin to talk about them when they're no longer in your life? Tell me because I've got no clue."
"You still love her- don't you."
"I'm not sure that matters anymore"
"Why do you say that?"
"Too m-much pain." was all Alison could say, her voice cracking slightly.
"Pain is a necessary part of life Alison. It helps us appreciate the good things when they come along."
For a moment Alison pondered Dr Sullivan's words.
"Dr Sullivan, do you believe in second chances? True love and all that?"
"We're not talking about what I think Alison. We're talking about you but yes I do believe in second chances. I think if someone has proven that they deserve it then yes. Now lets talk about the moment you and Emily ended your relationship."
"I don't want to talk about that. I can't-not yet. I'm not sure I ever want to talk about that."
Dr Sullivan sighed in frustration "Alison, if you can't face the issues of your past, you can't move forward. Making all this that we're doing here pointless. I'm not sure if I can help you if you aren't willing to help yourself."
'You're right. You can't help me. Which is why I've decided to leave. I need to go home. The things that I want to say. That I need to say, I need to say to Emily and I'm not going to find her here. So I need to go home Dr Sullivan. I'm sorry to have wasted your time these past weeks.'
'Well before you make any rash decisions - what if Emily was here right now now in this chair instead of me. What would you say to her if you could? What would you tell her? Don't over think it or analyse it just say the first thing that comes to mind'.
'I thought seeing things that aren't there was a sign of madness?' Alison joked
'Just humour me ok? If Emily were here. What would you say? What emotions does the vision of her sitting here provoke in you?'
Alison closed her eyes and without much effort envisioned Emily sitting across from her.
'Now pretend I'm Emily, maybe with your eyes still closed tell me what you're thinking. What are you feeling as Emily sits across from you? What is your brain and body telling you about her?'
'Shes wearing her favourite ripped jeans and flannel top. I smell Chlorine. I always hated that smell but on Emily it's like I can't get enough of it.'
Alison could hear Dr Sullivan's pen scratching against the paper of her notebook again.
'Now Alison, before we keep going I'm going to ask you to breathe in three deep breaths for me. Can you do that?' Dr Sullivan asked calmly
Alison nodded her head. Her eyes still closed.
'Good. Now take your first breath. In through your nose and out through your mouth. Make sure you feel that breath reach into your chest and feel it with your whole body. Feel it relax you. Feel it fill you up and let your mind empty as you slowly exhale. She repeated this twice more allowing herself to become still and peaceful.
'Alison, I want you tell me more about Emily.'
Alison's silent for a moment before she speaks again.
'Her eyes are puffy and red but she's still beautiful. We've been fighting."
"What have you been fighting with her about?"
Alison doesn't answer. She bites her bottom lip hard drawing blood.
"Alison, I need you to tell me out loud. What were you fighting about?"
Alison's face scrunches, tears slip from her lashes as her eyes are still closed "I can't. I promised her I wouldn't!" Alison's breathing has become ragged and uneven. Clearly distressed.
"Alison, I'm going to count to three. After three you will open your eyes and become still and calm again. Nod if you understand me."
Alison nods.
"1,2,3"
Alison opens her eyes. "Where am I? what happened to me?"
"Alison you are safe. You're in my office."
The blondes eyes scan the room as if regaining her bearings.
"Now, Alison I need you to walk me through what happened with Emily."
"No. I can't Dr Sullivan. I just can't. I have to go." without another word Alison leaves returning to her room she grabs her suitcase from under her bed and immediate starts throwing her belongings in it. Tomorrow she would call Jason to come pick her up and take her back to her old house which he had been looking after since she had been in here. She was getting out of here (since she wasnt forced to stay).
It was Saturday again. Emily's day off. She loved her job but she loved it even more when she didn't have to go in. She could sleep in until 11, go for her morning run, stop for a coffee and a pastry or two (rendering her run totally pointless). Then return home and chill about the house until Mona came home later. Today however much like the rest of the week was not so great. She hadn't been able to function or focus on much of anything other than the blonde that had been on her mind constantly. Without a seconds thought she grabbed her keys off the kitchen bench and headed out the door. If you asked her if what she was about to do was a good idea she probably wouldn't have an answer but she had to do it. She had to. Her mind racing, her heart thumping wildly in her chest as adrenaline pumped through her body. Backing out of the driveway she took a breath.
So there's that chapter done and dusted. So are you liking this story so far? What are your thoughts on the next chapters events? Where's Emily going? What's Alison next move? Will #Emison have a run in or will they reunite in an unexpected place or way? Any guesses? Please review you lovely people.
Until next time, xoxo