Four Years Earlier

I remember the first time I gave myself to Edward Cullen. It was the last day of our junior year, just before our summer started. That particular week had been relatively warm to Fork so of course, most of the population of the town were wearing shorts and t – shirts. However, despite the fact that Edward and I had been dating for almost a month and a half, we hadn't had a chance to have sex with each other. The only time we got to spend with each other were for a few precious hours a week where we had both been able to sneak out of our respective houses and meet in our meadow.

It was a clear night and the moon and stars were shining above us. Edward had managed to start a fire (with some help from me of course), and we had been toasting marshmallow and making s'mores. It was in that moment, when we were cuddling under a blanket, sitting around the fire, with his arm wrapped around me that I realised that I was madly in love with Edward Cullen. I was in love with his smile, I was in love with his laugh, I was in love with his messy hair, I was in love with his perfect face.

I was madly and uncontrollably in love with him.

Okay, I know it sounds totally cliché but the moment was perfect and that night was definitely the happiest I had ever felt. Even to this day I can remember how Edward caressed my skin and gave me gentle kisses as we made love under the stars.

It soon became evident that we couldn't get enough of each other – we would deliberately go to the same parties with separate groups of people just so we could sneak off and have sex. Frequently I would climb out of my bedroom window so as not to wake up any of my family and meet Edward and have sex.

Basically we had a lot of sex that summer.

However, that soon changed.

At the start of the summer, my best friend Rosalie moved back to town with her family from Seattle where she had lived for the past two years. Of course I was ecstatic to see her and everything was great when she first returned; we went shopping, had sleepovers and hung out like we used to.

But she had changed; in the past two years she had developed curves and her once short blonde hair was now long and flowing. So it didn't really take her long to capture my older brother, Emmett's attention. Within weeks they began dating and before long they were going out with each other, despite having a three year age difference between them.

I had always trusted Rosalie and I thought I always could do, so I told her about my secret relationship with Edward Cullen and how we were in love. At the time she had promised me that she would not breathe a word to anyone about us both and that I could trust her with anything.

Of course that turned out to be a big fat lie.

Soon after her and Emmett began dating, she let it slip that I had been seeing Edward Cullen.

And of course Emmett flipped.

I had been lying on my bed reading a book when he stormed into my bedroom with Jasper in tow.

"Bella, what the hell do you think you're doing with Edward Cullen?!" he shouted.

My blood ran cold as it became evident that Rosalie had told him my secret, however, I tried to play it cool. "I don't know what you're talking about."

"Don't bullshit me Bella, I know that you've been seeing with him. How the fuck can you betray our family like that?!"

"Emmett, calm down," Jasper tried to reason with him but to no avail.

"Who I see is none of your fucking business," I retorted jumping off my bed and walking to Emmett. "I'm my own person and I want nothing to do with this family feud, it's ridiculous." I tried to walk past him but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back.

"The Cullen's are evil Bella, they're trying to take our business away from us. You need to stay away from him."

"He's right Bella," Jasper added, "You need to stay away from him. It's for your own good."

I stepped away from the both of them. "You two know nothing about mine and Edward's relationship. We're in love with each other and once we've graduated from high school we're going to go to college together far far away from all of this and all of you! You are pathetic. Emmett, you're twenty years old, you should be at college or travelling but instead you're stuck in shitty Forks being the local drug dealer. Wow you should be so proud of yourself, you've really made something of yourself haven't you?" I seethed. "Rosalie could do so much better."

Emmett's face twisted into anger and I could tell that my words had hit him deep became suddenly he punched my bedroom door.

"Get out of this house you little slut. I'm going to tell Charlie everything when he comes home. He is not going to bed happy with you."

Quickly I grabbed a few essentials, shoved them into my bag and pushed passed Jasper and Emmett and left the house.

Of course I ended up returning home two weeks later having run out of money and I was forced to lie to my dad and tell him that I had ended things with Edward, but Emmett never spoke to me again after our confrontation. I was hurt at the time, Emmett and I used to be really close when we were younger but I suppose that time changes people.

Edward and I on the other hand began to drift away from each other around the same time. He became more distant with me, rarely answering my calls or my texts and would only sneak out to meet me around once a week and even then he seemed like something was on his mind. I would ask him all the time to open up to me and tell me what's wrong but he would just bite my head off. In the end I decided that it wasn't worth the arguments and just left it, but at the same time, each day, another piece of my heart was breaking.

Back then I should have seen the signs that something terrible was up with Edward but I was so blindly in love with him that I chose to ignore the signs that he was becoming more involved in the family business. It was not until an incident with my younger cousin Seth that I realised that Edward Cullen was in fact evil and that our whole relationship had been a lie.

It was at that time that I realised that I hated Edward and I was going to destroy him and my family.

Present Day

A month went past, and then a second and then a third. As each month crept by I lived in constant fear that one day someone would turn up on my doorstep and try and kill me, despite Jacob convincing me otherwise. However, by the time four months had gone past I was really starting to believe that I was free from my family and that they wouldn't come looking for me seeking revenge.

However I was wrong.

It's Seth's high school graduation today.

It still amazes me how fast this past four years had gone past, I keep forgetting that Seth was no longer the shy and innocent 14 year old boy he had been when we had fled to Seattle.

And now he was graduating high school – it was enough to make me feel old, even though I was only 21.

After that eventful summer four years ago, I managed to finish my last year of High School in the Indian reservation in La Push. Billy Black who used to be a friend of my father's let Seth and I live in his house with him for a year until I managed to get granted guardian status of Seth after I had finished high school. After that, I used the money I had stolen from my father to search for an apartment in Seattle and not long later, Seth and I fled there. After we had settled down in Seattle, I had Seth enrolled in a private boarding school so that I was able to go to college and earn my degree before starting my life completely anew. That was where I met Alice; we clicked pretty much straight away and a few months later she moved into my apartment with me.

As far as I knew, Seth enjoyed his new school, he seemed to have no trouble making friends and whenever I would visit him he would always have a huge smile on his face.

Alice also grew very attached to Seth when he would stay with us during the holidays, and she treated him as a little brother as she never had any siblings of her own.

So here we were, Alice and I, watching Seth stand on the stage and taking his certificate from his principle before giving a cheeky grin in Alice's and I's direction before standing next to a classmate on the stage. It was a hot summer's day, the graduation ceremony was taking place in the school's gardens under a blazing sun with not a single cloud in the sky.

"I can't believe he's eighteen now," Alice whispered in my ear. "Where have these past few years gone? He's no longer that sweet boy that I first met now is he?"

"Tell me about it," I whispered, "I'm starting to feel very old, I can remember his first day at this school, I was so scared of leaving him."

"Bella, you're starting to sound like a middle aged mother, you were only eighteen yourself when you moved here."

Before I could answer, a woman behind me shushed Alice and I, so we shut our mouths and concentrated on the stage where the principle was giving a speech. Soon enough, he gave one last congratulations and all the students on the stage threw their hats into the air.

Parents stood up and rushed over to congratulate their sons and daughters.

"Come on Bella, let's go get Seth!" Alice said and began to drag me towards Seth who was just exiting the stage. However, instead of heading towards us, he began to walk towards someone else.

"Perhaps he has a secret girlfriend that we don't know about?" Alice said, just as confused as I was.

"Perhaps," I echoed but for some reason I had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach as we strolled towards whom Seth was talking to. As we walked over, I couldn't see the man because Seth's build was so big.

"Hey Seth, congratulations," I exclaimed jumping onto his back before quickly climbing down with a huge smile on my face.

However, that smile soon dropped off my face when I came face to face with the person that Seth was talking to.

A man that I never wanted to see ever again.

My Father.

"Bella," he said, taking a step towards me with uncertainty laced throughout his voice. He reached out a hand to touch my shoulder but I slapped it away and took a few steps back.

"Don't you dare touch me," I seethed. "Seth, what the hell is going on?!"

At least Seth had the decency to look guilty. "Bells, I'm really sorry but I wanted him here. He's my uncle and he practically raised me since my dad died. It's right that he should be here."

"We made a promise Seth that we would leave all of our family behind, how could you betray me like this?" I could feel tears prickling into my eyes, an unfortunate trait I carried when I became angry because it made me look weak.

"It wasn't his fault," Charlie said, "I was the one who came looking for him. He never made the effort to contact me. I hired someone to look for the both of you but I thought it would be easier to approach Seth first." Not once did Charlie's eyes leave my fact, but instead of the anger I expected he only looked sad. "Please Belle, I just want to talk to you."

"Don't call me that, you haven't called me that since I was twelve and I sure as hell don't want you to start calling me that again."

"He wants to make things right," Seth said, "Please just give him a chance."

"How long have you both been seeing each other?"

"Just over a month," Seth looked so guilty that he could not look me in the eye. "Bella, I'm really sorry I went behind your back but I –"

I cut him off before he could finish his sentence, "It doesn't matter, we're leaving now anyway. Come on Alice," I grabbed Seth's arm and attempted to pull him away.

"No."

"Excuse me?"

"I don't want to go with you Bella. I really appreciate everything you have done for me, believe me I have, but I think it's time for me to go home. Back to Forks. I miss Jasper and Emmett, they were like my older brothers and I miss the calm of the countryside."

"Seth, please don't do this." The tears began to fall down my face. "Please Seth, just come with me and we can forget about all of this."

"I'm sorry but I made my decision weeks ago."

"This is all your fucking fault," I flipped out on Charlie, "you have to ruin everything, Seth and I were perfectly happy in our new lives and you just have to turn up and mess it all up! Why are you out of jail anyway? Huh? Who did you bribe into getting you an early release? I thought I had you locked up for good, once and for all!"

"I haven't forced Seth into doing anything that he doesn't want to," Charlie replied calmly. "I just want to salvage any relationship with you both. I honestly mean no harm."

I scoffed, "I have a hard time believing that. Everything you, do you cause harm to someone. Seth almost died because of you!"

"No, he almost died because of the Cullen's. What happened to Seth was through no fault of mine." I could tell that Charlie was becoming angry because his voice was beginning to rise.

"I don't give a shit, this whole mess is your fault, I'm glad I sent you to prison, I had been wanting to do it for long enough." I turned to Seth. "This is your last chance, I'm leaving."

"I'm sorry Bella, I'll see you around I suppose."

"No you won't, I don't ever want to see you again." I could see in his eyes and his face that my words cut him deep. I turned to Charlie. "I most certainly don't EVER want to see you again. Don't come near me, don't contact me in anyway or I will file for a restraining order. I never want to salvage our relationship with each other. You lost a daughter the day that I found out you were involved in the drugs trade."

Turning away from Seth and Charlie, ignoring their calls of my name, I let the tears fall down my face and before Alice and I reached my car I was full out sobbing for the little brother that I had now lost.

But I knew deep down that that wasn't the last I was going to see of my father, and boy was I right.

So does anyone have an song suggestions they could suggest to me? I like to listen to a particular song on repeat whilst writing and I have run out of songs so any help would be appreciated!

Next chapter is going to be a big one so I will hopefully update within the next few days!

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