Different (Reprise)
I guess it's plain to see, when you look at you and me. We're different, different as can be.
Kurt had finally decided that he was going to pluck up the courage and ask Blaine what the hell was going on with him, so that day when he saw him at school he took a breath and called after him,
"Blaine!" It was a friendly call down the hallway, just to get his attention, he didn't want to make him feel as though he was annoyed at him, although he was slightly. Blaine didn't stop walking, "Blaine! Stop. Please!"
"Kurt, what do you want?" He didn't stop walking but Kurt picked up his pace a little so he managed to catch up with him,
"I just want to talk. You have been avoiding me ever since the first day in the canteen, and I want to know why? I want to know what I've done wrong, because honestly, I have no idea," Blaine refused to look at him, he just kept walking on and the taller boy could see that there was something up with him. In the little time he had known him he seemed like he was the life and soul of the party, yet whenever Kurt was around he was emotionless and he couldn't figure it out.
"I just want to be on my own, is that too much to ask. Now if you don't mind." He picked up his pace and headed to his room. Kurt had no idea what he was going to do. Blaine wasn't going to talk to him, and there was no way he was going to apologise for something he didn't even knew that he'd done, so there it was, as far as he was concerned he and Blaine were no longer, if they every were, friends. Blaine obviously couldn't stand to be around him.
Kurt knew that he had to get over what ever it was he was feeling for Blaine, because nothing was going to happen, he was probably straight anyway, all of the boys Kurt fell for usually were. They were just too different. The only thing they had in common was the Warblers, and Blaine didn't seem to be enjoying that anymore. It was like he didn't want to be there. He felt like it was a duty rather than something he actually wanted to do now, and it seemed that most of them had picked this up with his behaviour.
"Blaine. If you don't want to be here, I'm sure we can find someone to take the solo's. Don't feel like you're being forced to stay." David said from behind the desk, he was obviously getting annoyed at the lack of effort he had been putting in the last few weeks.
"No! It's fine. I do want to be here. Sorry, lets start again." It was always the same thing, every time someone asked him if he was okay, he'd slap that fake, yet beautiful, adorable smile on his face and carry on as if everything was okay, when everyone knew that it wasn't, and Kurt knew that he was the reason for it, which made him feel bad, he didn't want Blaine to feel uncomfortable, but he wasn't going to stop being who he was just because of him, he had enough of that at McKinley.
Little did Kurt know that the reason that Blaine was ignoring him was the complete opposite to what he thought. When he went back to his room Blaine just lay on his bed and curled up. Kurt thought that he was just being homophobic, and he didn't like him because he was Gay. Blaine really needed a friend now, and he knew that he could talk to Kurt, but he was too scared of what to say. He'll admit that avoiding him probably wasn't the best thing to do, but it was time to make up for it, so he went out to try and find him.
He felt like he had been looking forever before he found Kurt sitting in the library. Slowly he went over to the table that he was sitting at, picking up a book at random from the shelf and getting out a note pad and pen before writing,
Kurt, I'm sorry. I've been an ass. I shouldn't have avoided you, and I shouldn't have snapped at you earlier. Will you forgive me?
He carefully slid the note across the table and watched until he picked it up, wanting to see his reaction when he read it, although Kurt was quite subtle. He waited patiently, yet nervously, for the response. When he got the piece of paper back it read
Of course I'll forgive you, I just wanted to know what was up. You seemed upset and I just wanted to help you. I still don't know what's going on in that brain of yours but please, even if you don't want to talk to me, talk to someone.
Blaine smiled while he read the note.
I do want to talk to you, I just don't know where to begin. There has been so many things going on in my life, and I'm weary when I meet new people. Can you meet me in the rehearsal room in half an hour?
I'll see you there.
Kurt felt a lot better after the note passing conversation they had. At least he knew that they were getting back on track again.
Half an hour later they were sitting in the Warblers rehearsal room just as they had planned,
"So Blaine. You wanted to talk." Kurt thought he had better start to conversation as the room was filled with an eerie silence.
"Yeah. It's just that. Well. I haven't been here that long, and before you came I was like the new kid, and I don't know, well everyone loves you. I'm not saying that I'm jealous or anything, but at my old school I was always the odd one out and no one really liked me, for the way that I dressed, and I wasn't aloud to be myself." Kurt felt like he was telling his story not Blaines.
"Sounds a bit like why I moved." Kurt Let out a little laugh, he didn't want Blaine to feel like he was taking the mick, because he wasn't. He was being genuine.
"Kurt, before I moved here I was bullied constantly. I hated going to school, but now I'm here I feel safe and it's like I can actually be who I am. When you were telling everyone about why you moved here, it reminded me of the times at my old school and the reason that I couldn't be around you was because I would think about it." Blaine started to tear up and Kurt instantly felt bad. He didn't want to make him cry, he didn't want him to remember the bad times of his life when he looked at him.
"Blaine. I'm sorry. I didn't know. I don't want you to feel bad when I'm around."
"It's not your fault you didn't know. How could you have known? I don't talk about it." He looked down at his hands, "But I feel like now you know, I can be honest with you." There was a slight pause, "I was bullied because I'm Gay, Kurt."
Kurt was a little taken aback by Blaines confession. He didn't know what to feel. He felt bad, because he knew exactly what he had been going through, he'd been through the same thing. But he was happy, because for once a guy who he liked actually had the change of liking him back.
All the time Kurt thought that he was avoiding him because he thought he was scared that he was going to turn him gay, when in fact he already was.
"I never meant to make you feel bad, Kurt. I just couldn't be around you, and I realise that I am going to have to get over it. But it's not that easy. I assume that you of most people understand that."
Kurt took Blaines hand in his "Blaine, I understand completely, and if you ever need anyone to talk to, you know where I am okay. Just call me or something and I'll come and see you." There was nothing that Kurt wouldn't do for Blaine, he knew that he was falling for him, and after he had finally got him to open up to him, he felt closer to him more now, but he knew that right now he didn't need a lover, he needed a friend, and that was what Kurt was going to be.
"Thank you, Kurt. I appreciate it." Blaine put his free hand over Kurts which was holding his other one and squeezed it gently. "I am sorry that I didn't say anything before. I didn't mean to make you feel uneasy or left out. I realise that you left your old school for the same reasons as I did, and I just made you felt like it was happening all over again." He smiled a smile which made Kurts heart race at double speed. This whole just friends thing is going to be a lot harder than he thought! "Anyway, I better be going. So much work to be doing. I'll see you tomorrow Kurt," He flashed him another smile before heading off.
"Okay, so maybe were not as different as I first thought." Kurt muttered to himself, there was the biggest smile plastered on his face. He didn't think that he had felt this happy in a while. And all for one reason. Mr Blaine Anderson.