This took a while for me to word as well...

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or it's characters in any way shape or form-I'm just using them for my own devices.

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Let the Sunshine In 3 Seeing Diamonds (BPOV)

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"Alright, that's it."

"What?"

"You're going to Jacksonville, live with your mother."

I was astonished that Charlie would say that "I'm not leaving Forks."

"Bells…He's not coming back."

I already knew that, he told me before he left… "I know."

"This behavior is just not normal, quite frankly it's scaring the hell outta me and your mother. Just go, go to Jacksonville, make some new friends…"

"I like my old friends."

"But you never see them anymore…"

"I do. I'm going to go shopping tomorrow with Jessica."

"But you hate shopping."

"It's a girl's night out…"

"Girl's night…good. Well go…buy stuff…"

I left for school, and that afternoon I called Jess to ask her out shopping. She was surprised that I asked her in the first place, but she agreed to go.

We were just walking out of the movie theatre, when someone called out to us. I turned my head to see bikers.

"Keep walking."

I jumped. I heard him, I swear that I heard him. I swear that I heard Edward's voice!

"Bella?" Jessica asked my, snapping me out of my reverie "Are you okay?"

"Um, yeah…I just think I might know those guys."

"That's nice, now come on."

"Just let me check…" As I slowly walked towards the bikers, I heard his voice again.

"Turn around."

I ignored his voice as I got on the back of one of the biker's bikes. "You left me." I mumbled.

"Ya say something beautiful?" I heard the biker ask "Not like it maters to me." He said, before we took off down the street.

I swear I saw him flash by. When I looked forward again, I saw him "Stop stop stop stop stop!" I screamed.

I felt the motorcycle screech to a halt, and I saw Edward's ghostly shadow disappear.

I slowly walked back to a panicked Jessica, who had an outburst about being interrogated.

"That was a rush…"

"So you're an adrenaline junkie now? Great, why don't you just go jump off a cliff or something."

If that's what it took to see him, then that's what I would do.

The nightmares started to get better from that point on.

I started paying attention in class more and more, and the nickname 'Zombella' started to wear off.

But I still couldn't bring myself to smile or laugh.

It felt like there was still a huge hole in my chest.

It felt like someone punched a hole right through me.

In a way, I'm glad though.

The pain is the only reminder that he was real.

That they all were.

Jake still stops by occasionally.

When he comes, it almost feels as if the hole closes.

But it always reopens as soon as he leaves.

My screaming fits still haven't gone away though.

I feel sorry for Charlie.

I have to see him…

I have to see Edward now.

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I'm really nervous about how this chapter turned out...

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