True ;
I wanted to forget , but I never wanted him gone forever .
I began to shut myself in more and more ,
It was like ;
Now that he's out of my life , Even as just a friend , What would honestly become of me at this point ? .
He was .. The only reason .
The only reason ; I take in air , the only reason my heart can beat , The only reason , I live this brought out - - washed up journey called life , What was I without that .
Without him ? .
Nothing .
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School was coming to a close soon .
He had , Well , I don't know ; Stopped going , Couldn't go ? .
Honestly , I don' t recall to this day .
I was dealing with other ' demons ' masked over of what I had felt , I kinda wan' t showing my face in class either , so I just gave up ;
No , Not just on school , On life .
Really , Why live without the only reason you breathe ? .
Tell me . !
Aha , Sounds obsessive , I know .
It wasn't admittedly , We shall name it love .
Just . Love .
Did I tell anyone these feelings ? . ,
Eh , Some people - - Some feelings , They didn't understand , Not a single one .
Lust , They'd say , or mean things about him - jerk , asshole , player -
. i g n o r e .
Most ; Questioned why .
Why , Why , Why ? .
I keep the why to myself though ; Too much information I figure , Besides , I barely understand it myself ,
How would they ? .
Alright guys ,
sorry for the lame , short chapter .
I just wanted to show you all , i' m not dead & i haven' t given up on the story .
(: .
once again - sorry for the horrific chapter ( loll ) ,
i only worked on it for about 7 minutes & somehow my account logged out when i went to save it , so ugh . i had to re-type what i ( barely ) remembered . Annoying , am i right ? ? .
but , the next one will be better , & longer , && up sooner . Promisee . (: .
Song listened to while typing ;
[ Only Girl ( In The World ) ]
{ Falling For You }