Jaraaan~ The fourth chapter is now uploaded. Please enjoy yourselves with this shit. Joke ^^
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CHAPTER4
"Chowie, where are you, darling?" Takumi's voice echoed in their household early in the morning.
He heard nothing in reply and he sighed and tried calling at the name again.
"Takumi, so early in the morning and you are so energetic already." Gii said, descending the stairs and wrapped his arms on Takumi's waist as he pulled into their morning kiss.
"Morning, Gii." He tsk-ed, "I was looking for Chowie. It's almost time for breakfast."
"So, I am now your second priority? I'm your husband just so you know." Gii playfully punched Takumi in the cheeks.
"Chowie is a child and I should take care of him. Besides, you can feed yourself." He stuck his tongue out.
Then they heard a small whimper-like sound making them set their attention on the thing on their feet. Its bluish tongue was stuck for a whilebefore it went inside its mouth and its tail was wagging from left to right.
"Chowie!" Takumi pulled away from Gii's hug only to bend and cradle the nearly four-month old cream-colored Chow Chow.
The uke poked the puppy's nose and it seemed to enjoy it. Then Gii cleared his throat to catch Takumi's attention. As his gaze landed on him, he chuckled to see a pouting Gii.
"I should have seen this outcome." He murmured. "You!" He pointed a finger on the pup that seemed to enjoy being cradled by Takumi, as if accusing him of a crime, his eyes narrowing, "This guy who is holding you is mine. If you take him away from me I will throw you outside our house, got it?"
The pup only looked at him with watery almond-shapedeyes; as if pleading and apologizing, small tail wagging still. Gii groaned. Damn, the puppy was cute that he was aching to kick its furry body. Takumi merely smiled at the scene before him. This is my family, he thought.
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Gii's eyes fluttered as the harsh sunrays invaded their room and hit his eyes. Usually, Takumi would awaken him before the sun, but now… He stretched. Where's Takumi?
He went downstairs and saw in the kitchen that breakfast has been served. Why did Takumi not awaken him, then? He descended further and the door opened. It was a sweaty and panting Takumi and his hand was holding Chowie's leash.
"Oh, Gii! Did you just get down?"
"Yeah." He went to Takumi and snaked his arms in his waist, pulling him in a morning hug and placed a kiss on the top of his head.
Takumi slightly pushed Gii away saying that he was sweaty and smelled horrible.
"Now that you mention that, where did you and Chowie go?"
"Ah, we went to jog. I just thought that I'll make it a habit every morning." He said, as he freed Chowie from the leash and the dog went to his dog bowl half-filled with water.
"And you brought Chowie with but not me? That's favoritism!"
"Jealous again, are we?" He grinned at Gii but it faded away when he only received a cold stare. He sighed."Come on, Gii, Chow chows need their exercise, he's growing up and I also learned that an early age, we can train him do some tricks." Gii didn't respond to this. "Gii, your face will freeze in that ugly state if you don't smile." He pulled at Gii's cheeks.
"You smell." Takumi frowned.
"Huh? Of course I do, I just went jogging. It's only natural, stupid." Then he stood on his toes and kissed Gii.
"I don't know, Takumi, there is something that irritates my nose."
"Then I'll just go and take a bath and then I'll join you for breakfast 'cause I'm really starving." Then he went up.
Gii stared at Chowie who stared back at him.
"You, Takumi-taker, what happened during the jog, huh? Did you see some other guy with him? Or you were only looking at the bitches in the neighborhood."
The Chow chow cocked his head on the other side, not really understanding Gii.
"Look, I bought you because I want you to accompany my Takumi while I'm not around since I'm already working soon. We even fought because I don't want him to work because I want him all to myself and now," he sighed, "It didn't cross my mind that a puppy will take his attention away from me." He picked up the still-puzzled pup. "And because you are attached to him, I have a proposal. You will look after Takumi when I'm at work. When someone flirts with him, you bite them, okay? But save the person named ShingyoujiKanemitsu; he is his best friend. But if a person named ArataMisu gets near our Takumi, just feel free to bite him, understand? Though it was a very long time when he said that Takumi is a looker, but still! You bite him, ok?"
The puppy barked, understanding, or that was whatGii thought
."If you did a good job, I'll feed you with high class meat every meal time, got it?"
And at saying the word meat, the puppy's tail wagged excitedly and he licked Gii's cheeks.
"Now, I'm starting to like you."
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The next morning, Giiwas awakened by .But it was better than be awakened by the sun so he really didn't mind it. Takumi was off to jogging again with Chowie and even though he entrusted Takumi to that puppy, still he's worried. It's not that he thinks that Takumi can't take care of himself or he can't be trusted but… he stopped his thought. Why was he stressing over something that's impossible? And it's still early in the morning.
He stretched and before going downstairs and saw that the breakfast was ready on the table but he wanted to eat together with the two. It's already six-thirty and it won't be long until they arrive. He'll just make himself coffee and read the newspaper that Takumi probably got for him. He decided to do the coffee-drinking and newspaper-reading outside to have fresh air.
He was in the middle of reading the interesting news about economy when he heard laughter coming to the direction of their house. He recognized Takumi's voice but he was unfamiliar with the other. Then he saw Takumi with another man who also has its dog with him. He frowned. Who is that man?
When the two was two or three meters away from him, he strode fast to Takumi, who was so shocked, and grabbed his wrist. The grip was firm and Takumi winced at the pain.
"Gii!" He pulled his wrist and freed himself of the steel grip. The poor wrist was red. "What were you thinking grabbing me like that?" He turned to the guy that he was running with and bowed, saying his apologies. The man waved it away which eased Takumi.
Gii frowned at what Takumi was doing so he grabbed his shoulders and kissed him hard right then and there even if Takumi tried to push him away. And the irritating smell was present again, just like yesterday. So it was because of that man, he thought as he broke the kiss and faced the man, "He is mine!"
The shock in the man's face made Gii laugh triumphantly in his mind. The man continued on his way, running.
"What was that for, Gii? Don't you know how embarrassing that was?" Takumi snapped at him.
"So receiving a kiss from your husband is embarrassing, Takumi? And what were you doing with that man?"
"We were just jogging." He emphasized the word jogging as if that was the most obvious thing in the world. And he turned his heels and went back inside the house, Gii following behind, and unleashed Chowie once they were in.
"He was flirting with you and you were so blind to see that. Didn't you notice how he looked at you? His eyes were undressing you."
"For Pete's sake, we were just having a chat about dogs and he told me his ridiculous experience while training his dog." Takumi's brows almost meet at his temple.
"And his story was so silly that you had to laugh like you really like that man?!" Gii snapped at Takumi and his finger pointed on the door as if that was the man.
Takumi's jaw dropped at the accusation, "You're impossible, Gii." Then he turned his back and started ascending the stairs when the grip on his already-abused wrist came back, caused him to grimace again.
"You smell again, just like yesterday, tell me, were you with that man yesterday, too?"
"Yes, and so?" Takumi raised a brow.
"Are you really provoking me, Takumi?" His eyes narrowed.
"Not really, but you are so close-minded and it irritates me. Now, please, let go of my hand. I'm going to take my bath so that the irritating smell will vanish."
And the last string of his patience was snappedand he grabbed Takumi's wrist and he went collided with Gii's chest. Then he felt touches on his body and when he looked at Gii, his face was someone he did not recognize for a moment. Just like that time when he went home from his school and the only person around was his brother. Yes, they have the same look and it frightened him.
He was dragged to the nearby couch and was pushed on it. Then his shirt was ripped without mercy.
"G-Gii!"
The taller man started kissing and biting him harshly on his neck and chest and down to his abdomen.
No, this was not his Gii and he was scarier than his brother.
"Please, stop!" His pleas fell on fear ears as his pants and boxers were yank down together. He heard zipper being unzipped and his eyes widened. At certain circumstances, he would love the sound of that, excite him even, but today, it just frightened him. Then the intruding pain attacked his back. Gii was thrusting inside and out of him but he didn't like it. It was only pure pain and he was not even hard. He screamed for Gii to stop but he was again neglected. The pace was faster this time and he knew that Gii was close to completion.
He closed his eyes and tears fell. He can't look at him. He was scared to see a different Gii.
On his left side, he heard a small whimper and when he opened his eyes, Chowie was sadly looking at him and his tears only doubled. Sorry you had to witness this.
He shut his eyes when he felt something exploded inside of him and shiver ran to his spine when he heard the satisfied groan above him. The limp member slid out of him. The whole thing disgusted him to his core that he felt like he had to vomit. What's really happening to you, Gii?"
He kept his sob silent as he sat up, wincing at the pain in his back, and grabbed his clothes. Gii was still sitting on the couch but he couldn't dare look at him. He put on his boxer before his jogging pants and decided to leave the shredded shirt on the couch. The first step was painful and his cheeks flush when he felt something came out of his ass but he continued his journey full of agony up to their room. He couldn't stand being around Gii this time.
Gii felt something tugging at his pants and he looked to see Chowietrying to hurt him with his teeth. He smiled sadly at the puppy. "Yes, that's right, bite me. I hurt him after all."
He didn't even know either why he did that to his husband. It was marital rape and Takumi has all the right to call the police and arrest him. He sighed. Seeing Takumi with another man really hurt him and he thought that he had to make Takumi acknowledge who really owned him. But even he could tell that he went overboard. Will that traumatize Takumi? Of course it will, idiot. And a sudden thought frightened him. What if his phobia came back?
He was alerted and stood up, startling the puppy and dashed upstairs.
He was standing in front of the door, what if it was locked just like the other day? When will he come out again? He gritted his teeth, it's worth a try. Then he turned the knob and was shock and glad at the same time to find it unlocked and fully opened it and was shock of what he saw.
Takumi finished his bath as quickly as possible. What Gii had done to him and the short-time vomit in the bath hadtired his pained body and he wanted nothing than to sleep on the bed. The thought of the breakfast on the table didn't even excite him. As he opened the opened the door to come out of the bath, white fluffy towel surrounded his waist, he was shocked to see Gii. What does he need this time?
The look of surprise on Gii's face had him frowning and he followed the direction of the stare. It was fixed on his chest and he slowly looked down and saw how his chest was decorated with bruises. Takumi shrugged it off and went to get his clothes in the closet. Each step was still painful but he couldn't really do anything about it.
Gii wasn't happy to see the extent of what he did to Takumi.
He was about to go to the bed where he used to put down his clothes so he could dress properly when Gii approached him and carried him to the bed and placed him down slowly. Well, he must have noticed how I walk like a duck.
Gii held both of Takumi's hands up and Takumi only frowned. You want to do it again?
Then it dawned on him that he just wanted to dress since his shirt was on his other hand. Their eyes met when the shirt passed by his head down to the still-surrounding towel. Gii's eyes were full of sorrow, hurt, apologies, regret and guilt and it also hurt him inside. He knew Gii was doing this to make up with him and although he's not yet ready to forgive him, did he really have a choice? He loved him so much and seeing those mixed emotions in the eyes of his beloved was too much.
The towel was opened and had him gasping but he knew Gii won't do the same mistake again. The guilty man lifted a foot so it went in the hole of the boxers and did the same for the other. When the boxers reached his knees, he slowly grabbed Takumi's hands and let him stand up so he could easily pull up the clothing. And he did the same for the khaki shorts. When he was done, he slowly guided Takumi to sit down and grabbed the towel to hang it back to the towel rack. He came back in their room and grabbed a brush on the tocador.
The hair was so smooth that the brush never met with tangled hair. As he was done, he knelt in front of Takumi and looked at him directly in the eyes.
I'm sorry. I really didn't know why I did that, Takumi.
Although I am mad at what you did, do you really think I could hold grudge against you for so long? Forget what happened last time, the argument me not working, this is more serious.
But I know I really hurt you. I was just afraid you find that man better than me. Gii's eyes watered at the thought of Takumi leaving him.
You always think of me cheating on you, how do I assure you that it's you that I love and I won't find someone better than you because I already have the best. You're just so insecure.
Gii got hold of Takumi's hands and brought them on his lips and placed butterfly kisses on each of the slender digits. I really love you, Takumi.
Like I always argue with you, I love you more.
He surrounded his arms around Gii's head (it's all he can reach at the moment since hugging Gii on the neck required more bending down and his back was against it) and Gii returned the gesture by wrapping his arms in Gii's waist, his head buried in Takumi's stomach as he cried in gratefulness.
"I was scared that you're phobia will come back."
Though the voice was muffled, Takumi heard him clearly and hugged him tighter. "If it came back, will you promise to be there to cure me again?" He muttered on top of the other's head.
"Of course, Takumi. I will be there to cure you."
A little later, Takumi wrapped the head tighter as he let out a small whimper on the mop of blond-ish hair. "I-I was afraid to see that demon, Gii. I was begging for him to stop but he didn't." He really didn't like using the second person "you" since he knew that the person who did that to him was not his Gii. But deep inside of him, he was only convincing himself. Blocking himself of the reality that Gii had actually… betrayed him.
"I'm really… sorry." He whispered at Takumi's stomach, wanting to kill himself for allowing his jealousy to take over his rationality. Takumi loves him and he did believe that… Then, the reason why he did the most inhumane thing was really unknown to him. How could he do that to Takumi? How could he hurt this beautiful and caring person who did nothing than love him and give him everything? His tears freed from his eyes again only to be absorbed by the anticipating shirt which was now becoming a little wet, "I'm sorry." He once again said and he won't stop saying that just so Takumi could fully forgive him. He knew that Takumi was a forgiving person in nature but what he did was just unforgiveable. "I'm sorry." The trust he's given to him was now broken, "I'm sorry." He relived Takumi's memory of his darkest past, "I'm sorry." Takumi felt betrayed again because of him, "I'm sorry."
"Shh, just a single and meaningful apology is enough to make the offended person forgive his assailant."
"But I mean those…"
"Exactly my point."
"I'm sorry again, Takumi."
"Yes, I know you are. And I know that I already forgive you but I just can't say it. Or have I already said it? Or by saying those things mean that I was already saying it." He chuckled, "I don't even know what I'm saying anymore." He petted Gii's hair. Is it really possible to forgive the person who just, you know, did that to you, just because you love him? Maybe yes, because he has forgiven him, truthfully.
As they were busy of apologizing and forgiving, the door creaked and Chowie entered and let himself be acknowledged by his whimper-like sound again.
The couple looked at its direction and both smiled at him. Takumi beckoned the puppy and he shrieked a little when the puppy really came towards him and even jump on the bed so he could approach him without him bending down to pick it up.
Takumi put cradled him and Gii didn't go against the idea that the puppy was again in their center.
"We're friends again, Chowie, so you don't have to worry, okay?" Takumi smiled at Chowie who wagged its tail since he can't smile like Takumi.
"You can understand dogs, too?" Gii asked, his tears were long absorbed by Takumi's shirt.
"Huh, no I can't. But I can feel that he's worried, that is all."
Chowie was then licking at Takumi's face.
The couple just laughed when Chowie's short tail wagged since both found it cute and the straight hind legs were moving in ridiculous moves.
Suddenly, Takumi's tiredness was uplifted and then he decided that he felt tired knowing he won't be able to talk to Gii again for so long. But that was before Gii appeared in the room a while ago. Now, he could breathe knowing their home is peaceful again.
Gii stopped laughing and was contented to see Takumi laugh to his heart's content. Then Takumi noticed Gii was staring at him and then they found themselves staring at each other, then both smiled.
Love cannot be measured by how much you say "I love you" to each other, nor saying "I love you more," all that mattered is that you mean those things even without voicing them and knowing how to express yourself. When it comes to love, you can swallow your sky-high pride just to be with the one you love.
And by just looking in each other's eyes, you can both convey how much you love each other.
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