Summary: A collection of
snippets, depicting possible scenes either never taking place in
front of a camera, or ideas/thoughts/emotions hard to relay via that
media...
Warning: The tense may vary from piece to piece,
as will the length and POV. Spoilers about for each and every
episode so far released in the USA.
Disclaimer: If I owned
the loveliness of the Winchesterverse, I'd be a much more troubled
woman.
COGITATIONS
104: Phantom Traveler
by
Sade Lyrate
The darkness outside troubled him thousandfold less than the one inside. The things that went bump in the night...those he knew how to deal with, had known as long as he could remember. But the things inside...?
He turned his attention back to the television, eyes briefly
passing over Dean's sleeping form. He knew he should try and sleep,
too, but...
Sighing, he reached to turn the distraction off. At
least one of them needed to get some rest. And the less there was
disturbance, the better.
As quietly as he could, Sam rose up, shaking his head. Everytime he closed his eyes, the recollections rushed in with revenge. Jessica, first and foremost, vivid enough to veer him far from sleep. But there were others, his own fears mixing with memories. Not just from the last few months, but from over four years back, and farther. It all had begun bleeding back. Ever since Jess.
He had had over three years without most of the crap of the
lifestyle he had left behind. Almost. He had managed to fool himself.
He had thought he could live without a weapon at arm's reach at all
times, without salt anywhere but the shaker in the kitchen, without
monsters and bogeymen but in the horror movies.
He had thought he
could leave it all, just like that.
He should have known it would all just come back with a vengeance.
These things always did.
Thoughts his only company now, he snatched his jacket, left the room as stealthily as possible.
A walk might be a good idea. He would give Dean an hour or two, enough for the sun to rise, before heading back with coffee and something to eat. They wouldn't stick around for long anyway. They never did.