Dislaimer: I don't own anything affiliated with One Tree Hill or the song I'll Stand By You

So I got a tumblr if any of you want to follow me, I will follow back :) my url is 23idontwantobe just remove the spaces http : / www . tumblr . com/blog / 23idontwanttobe

I also have a OTH tumblr confession page that is shared with some other Fanfiction writers too... http : / one-tree-hill-confession-23 . tumblr . com/

Oh and check out my fan account on twitter only1treehill, I will be doing a quiz later so follow me I will follow back and make sure to mention you are on fanfiction

I need help, I need new stories to read so if you have any recomendations send them my way, but only if they are ongoing and the author is good with updating, or they are already finished. And they don't have to be solely about Naley, I will attempt to read anything :)

Warning I will be discussing my take on 9.01 at the bottom of this so those who haven't seen it :SPOILER ALERT. Also, I have watched it twice so far (when it originally aired, and then there was an encore showing of it after) and I loved it so much I want to watch it again!

A little somewhat important note: the title is Could Make Me Love You Less, which is supposed to kinda be combined with last chapters title thus meaning Nothing you confess could make me love you less.

Please read and review! I love when you do! (p.s. that rhymed...I'm such a nerd.)

Ace5492: Thanks so much :)

Jen: That is how I do my reviews for Ashley too! We are really bad at this then, my are always crappy for WLA because I get delirious when tired and say dumb stuff (Sorry Ash) It is awful short ;) I feel the same way my dear. Ummm...LOVE again? :P It wasn't that long was it? I update on Fridays or Saturdays usually. I love Castle so its okay, they are pretty funny sometimes. Well what else did you do after? Have you read any good stories lately? I need something new. (possibly an old story, I just meant new as in something to read that I haven't before...yeah)

Hebewe- Thanks :) Of course Naley is cheesy its just the way they are ;) (I think I use emoticons to much...) And who do you mean as in that they get along so well, the group or naley...? The date will be next chapter, but their is some Naley in this chapter. Oh yeah we do, but now I know its you :) Well thats a good thing if your addicted to reading, haha, I'm like that alot, but recently I have had a tumblr addiction...yes I have admitted to it haha. And of course Naley all the way.

Godschildtweety-Thank you :)

Ashley- So I just realized the downside to my OTH playlist, thus making up almost all of the songs on my ipod, none of my friends know them so i can't play them when their around because they don't listen to this type of music. I like that you have embraced your nickname. You will have to wait until like chapter 15 til they find out though ha ha ha! Yes a DATE, but its next chapter so ha! (I think to torture you) Of course you wouldn't be Ashley if you didn't inform us all about that at random times, but now you have me thinking and I have to pee so THANKS ALOT, but it will have to wait (I have been working on this A.N and editing for like a half hour and have been hungry since I started so thats where I will be after this. I know you love Naley...and yes you are conceded. And yes I haven't touched sparks fly since...oops...I'm working on another OS though, yet I didn't start the one I told you about.

TessyMeeniac-It was 'on the spot' haha, glad you liked it

Jodie- TAKE THAT ASHLEY JODIE REVIEW TWICE IN A ROW! HA! So I have had something to tell you for the longest time and we were never online at the same time and I was to lazy to pm you but now I feel bad because I feel like you if you read back my tweets you would see I invited Ash and Jen but not you and it wasn't intentional it was because Iw anted you to be online when I asked so that way I knew you saw it, and to be honest when I thought of this idea you were the first one I wanted to ask...anyway on with the idea i started a OTH confessions page and i wanted you to be an administrator on it and help make them and all because I thought ti would be fun, but if you don't want to do it its totally fine, if you do like pm me, or say so in the review or dm me or something. Review Reply: thank you dearie :) AWW your sick, I hope you feel better Jodester! I feel like crap too so we are in the same position, and I have empathy for you. Oh okay, then I am not even going to bother with them haha. Oh well that sounds fun, I think you need to go all Dan Scott on her. Anywho, thanks. I like writing that its developing slowly yet their feelings for each other are anything but slow. Lucas and Haley are struggling with this whole thing and as you see in this chapter it is really hard for them to deal with, except when Haley is around Nathan *wink wink* And yes it is a storyline ;) I always loved the Keith/Haley relationship and feel like she was short changed in emotions when he died but don't get me started on that.

Could Make Me Love You Less

When I woke up I grabbed a quick shower before heading off to work, six hours later I was at the graveyard. I sat down and wrapped my arms around myself. "Hi Momma, Daddy, I miss you guys so much. I don't know how I am going to live without you. Aunt Karen and Uncle Keith are great and all, and Lily is a joy to have around. Cause boy does that girl have a ton of energy. She reminds me a lot of Luke. I think I'm going to like it here, I love Honey Grove but it will never be home without you guys. I made friends already though, theirs Julian, he is funny and he loves Grease 2 too Mom. He wants to be a director, and he is dating Brooke, she is so energetic. She is really sweet though and she loves to shop so I will never wear anything out of style. Peyton she is artistic and she loves music like me. I could talk to her about music for hours. Plus, I think Lucas likes her but don't tell him I told you.

"And then there is Nathan, Brooke's brother, and he is kinda my boyfriend. I know daddy I haven't know him long enough but he is just different, he treats me like a princess and I really like him. I feel like I can talk to him about anything I opened up to him about everything, well...almost everything, and I never did that with anyone. I never felt that I could but with Nathan…its just different. He is so sweet to me and I think you guys would like him.

"Now listen I don't think Lucas is going to come today because he's just not ready, but he loves you and misses you too I know it. I am trying to protect him and everything and stay strong for him but it's just so hard too. I don't know what to do, I know you guys are watching over us and watching us from Heaven and all but I can't help lose faith that I won't see you again. And I know you would want me to move on with my life, like you said in the letter you wrote that if anything ever happened to the two of you that you loved us and not to dwell on it and to live life to the fullest. This has taught me this because you never know when your time is up and I will try. I love you guys and miss you so much. I can't see you but I know your there. And if you're here with me and listen just please send me a sign, please?" I whispered wiping the tears that strayed down my face. Then two birds flew and sat on each grave stone.

"Okay, okay" I smiled slightly just sitting their staring at them for a few minutes quietly before putting yellow sunflowers on my father's grave, and pink daisies on my mothers. I kissed each of my hands then placed my hands on their graves. "Bye Momma, Daddy, I will talk to you later."

I headed back home alone, in my room, on my bed, crying. I missed them so much; I don't know how long I can go without them. I mean I hadn't ever been separated from them for more than three days before.

I heard a knock at the door; it was probably the mail man needing me to sign for something, some of the stuff we shipped from the house hadn't arrived yet. I took in my appearance, my hair was up in a messy bun, my face was stained with tears, and I was wearing an extra large t-shirt and a pair of pajama shorts. I walked down and opened the door only to find, Nathan. "What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to check on you, see if you wanted anyone to talk to because I knew Karen and Keith were at work and Lucas had the afternoon shift." If possible my heart just swelled at him, it was so sweet of him.

"Actually yeah, come on in" I opened the door more to allow him in and we sat down on my couch. "It's been a month, and I didn't exactly give you all the details, but even though they were hit by the drunk driver, it's my fault, I am the reason my parents are dead." I sobbed.

Nathan wrapped his arm around me "Now I know that you aren't, unless you were that drunk driver, or you gave him the keys knowing full and well he was drunk then it's not your fault."

"No, it's is, you see I was dating this guy Derek, and nobody liked him, he didn't treat me right but I didn't see that, I only saw a guy that liked me. And the night of the accident I was fighting with them about him and they told me to break up with him. I said no and stormed out of the house, my parents knew I would go to Derek's so they came to get me. But on the way they were hit, they wouldn't have been on the road if it wasn't for me."

"No, no no no" Nathan said as I cried into his chest "It was destiny, and supposed to happen, they would have been in that car for one reason or another, and I don't know your parents but I know that they would not want you blaming yourself for their death okay?" I nodded. He was right; they would want me to move on not dwell on it.

"Thanks for this because you're really the only one I can talk to because it was Karen's sister and Lucas, he puts up this wall ya know, it's all fine and dandy we joke around and talk about stuff, but anytime that comes up he just stops talking and shuts me out. And I don't know what to do, but I should because I am his older sister and some days it feels like he is older because he is more mature but I should be there for him and not the other way around. And I just I think he is afraid to cry in front of me, like it would make me think less of him."

"It's not that" I heard Lucas say from behind me, he must have just walked in.

Nathan leaned in and kissed my forehead "I will always be here for you to talk to if you ever need me, just call"

Lucas came and sat down next to me "It's just, I feel that if I break down and cry that I won't be able to stop, but Hales, I look up to you and respect you so much and

I just can't go to thinking about it because then I will just fall apart, and you don't deserve to have to pick up the pieces." I enveloped him in a hug

"Luke, it's okay to fall apart sometimes, everybody does and I mean I can help you pick up the pieces every now and then because I am your sister and it's my job to be there for you."

"I know, I know"

"Alright let's talk about something else, I have cried enough today…so you and Peyton seemed to hit it off last night."

"I like her Hales, she is like perfect for me, she likes art and music and books, and I like art and music and books, see perfect." I laughed slightly at him.

"I think that we are going to fit in just fine with their group I mean they are all pretty awesome. And like they each have their place like the jock, the cheerleader, the mathlete, the artist, and we fit in too the nerd, and the brooder."

"I know, they are pretty great..wait did you just say I was a brooder."

"Yes, yes I did."

"One of these days Haley, one of these days"

"One of these days what?"

"Youre gonna get it."

"Mhmm"

"So what's up with you and Nate?"

"I like him, he likes me, we have a date tomorrow night, ya know typical stuff"

"I have a feeling you more than like him you like like him"

"Am I seriously having this conversation with you, Lucas" He shrugged. "So umm, something came in the mail today and I didn't want to open it without you." I reached out to the coffee table and grabbed it "It's from Honey Grove Prison." He just sat there as I opened it.

To Haley and Lucas James,
You may not know me and I may not know you, but I felt like I owed this to you. I found out who you were form the papers and I asked a guard if he could find where you were living and send it to you. I know whatever I say may never be enough to ease your pain or get your parents back but I wanted to say that I am sorry, truly and deeply sorry. My words will not heal you or make you feel any better, but I can only hope that they will help you in some way, anyway. Mainly, I hope that it gives you a sense and feeling of closure. I will never forgive myself for my irresponsible and reckless actions, I wish it would have been me that died everyday and your parents lived because I do not deserve to be alive after what my careless actions have caused. Your parents were good people, I read about all their charity work but even in that, that does not define a good person but in raising two kind smart teenagers defines people who tried, they started off just trying to make a living and ended up building an empire and a legacy of James' Motors, but since you two were not of age you lost that legacy and will not have that piece of your parents until you are twenty-five, and who knows what would have happened by then.

I caused for you two to now grow up without parents, they will not see you graduate high school or possibly college, and I don't know you future plans but they will not see you take over the company, get married, have children and in one way I understand. Two years ago I lost my mother to cancer, and afterwards I fell into this deep spiral of depression I just drank and drank until that night, that night was the last time I will ever taste alcohol. None of that matters though because even in my unright mind should I have drank and driven, and it may seem that I am using my mother's death as a cop out because what I did was my decision and I regret it every day. I will never forgive myself for the pain I caused you, for me wasting my life with one dumb decision of getting behind the wheel, or even driving to the bar and ordering all those drinks, for embarrassing my family and bringing shame to them, for bringing bad to my last name, and mostly for killing two innocent people. I know what I have done, and I would take it all back in a heartbeat, I would give my life to get your parents back here in an instant or even if I could just get you another day with them I would do whatever it required but I can't and I wish I could. I do wish that if I get out of here in five years that I will become an activist for not driving under the influence to prevent it from ever happening again.

I know it has taken me almost a month to write this, and by the time you get it is almost a month if not a month since the accident, truth is I could not take pen to paper and try and find the words to heal you and I finally realized I can't do that, but only try to help in some way.

I know sometimes people try to put the blame on others like maybe if this hadn't happened they wouldn't have been driving, or if I had just done something differently they would still be here, but don't blame yourselves, blame me because it is my fault. I am so sorry and I only wish you two the best so if that requires you to talk to me in person come visit, if that requires you to write back, do so and I will then reply to that, or even if it requires you to burn this I understand but just know that I am sorry.

With great sorrow and respect for your family,
Andy Hardgrove, cell 518 Honey Grove County Prison

I had a few tears running down my face as I read it aloud, my voice caught in my throat towards the middle as Lucas took it and continued to read it aloud, letting the words resonate within me. I would never forgive him, but maybe I somehow could learn to live with what has happened.

"We need to go to Honey Grove, I need to talk to him in person, we can leave Sunday, and stay a few days and also grab the rest of the things we need from the house." I said as Lucas nodded. He reread the letter to himself as I went upstairs to start packing, but instead found myself writing a song.

First off, I hope you all liked it, and just saying you don't have to have an account to review :)

So my thoughts on 9x01

SPOILER ALERT

I don't find it realistic after everything Nathan and Haley have gone through, and after him always having to be away when he was in the NBA that he would leave for what seems like months at a time.

Nathan calls Haley angel, SWOON. I totally did not see that Chris Keller thing coming, but it was so obvious! "Well Well" I actually like how Victoria is with the twins, like she is trying to make up for what she did to Brooke. Chase whatever happened to "If you ever meet Chris Keller punch first ask questions later."? I was looking forward to seeing that! Did anyone else have a Haley/Chris flashback when Chris was calling Alex's music crappy and hitting on her? I have to admit, even if I am not a huge Quinn fan that I love that she stayed up to watch Clay. What the hell is going on with Haley? Why would she just walk in their shouting Hello? Hello a pshyco could be in their trying to kill you, and why didn't she check on Lydia or the rest of the house? "You say the sweetest things to me Haley James" I had a total flashback their :) But I was hopping Haley would correct him, she didn't...

"That just made my heart race" "Me too"
Naley love forever and ever

Who the hell is trying to get into their house? I hope its Lucas...its most likely Dan. OMG its halfway over, tear.. (its was 8:30) Their is a little part in all of us that grew up in Tree Hill. Nathan should have been the godfather! I thought her dad's name was Richard? I don't understand how Brooke is so forgiving of her father. That priest was totally the cop in 4x22. "peacock looking dork" oh SNAPPPPPP DANNN I bet he lit the fire on purpose! Damn it Dan stop making me feel bad for you! You throw your shoe alex! Dont you let him hold that baby haley! Brulian got a new bed! #yesinoticethesethings Why did julian say be carefull? "Just because I say you smell good when you do, which you do" Chris Keller

"double secret probation"? wth Haley? Aww i am kinda in love with the 'Haley Chris Keller missed you" line it was sweet CLAY why didn't you take your meds! OHHH SNAPPP NATHAN BEAT THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF HIM PLEASE Nathan Scott looks hot!

Sad that its over and then I see, they have a rerun of 9.01 after the premiere on YES! Aww didnt notice the purple elephant in the first naley scene til now :) aw I LOVE LOVE LOVE Lydia! DAN DON'T TOUCH HER! PUT HER DOWN! I hope Nathan pulls Lydia out of his arms and then beats the shit out of him! Its sad to see the rivercourt now and know its gone! Why didn't Haley get a voiceover? Dont you let him close to that baby HALEY JAMES SCOTT! I LOVE the wall of photos in Naley house!Harry Johnson and CHRIS KELLER!

Who the hell is in the morgue? It better not be Nathan I have this really bad feeling that he will be the one killed off and the second it happens I WILL automatically stop watching. "LIAR!" Haley yells (so so funny) "Did I mention you look hot?" Of all the things Chris Keller says

I just don't think that Brulian would be those parents who would be complaining considering that they children are miracles. I didn't expect this from Bitchtoria but I love it. I think they should have shown something like Haley was walking from Lydia's room when she saw the door open so she new Lydia was okay since she didn't check on her. Nathan loves her dorkiness :) As much as i wanted a naley seen i think the way Mark handled it with the very cute phone scenes made it good for the lack their of the actual moments I think Mark handled the loss of James very well Still hoping the series finale is 2 hours. This was an amazing premier episode and had to be one of my favorites. I love that chase tries to be defensive

I think I have to admit, I missed Chris that is the non naley trying to break up and take her on tour Chris. Okay so did Haley leave Lydia and Jamie alone with Dan to see Chris Keller! YES OMG I LOVEEE IT AN I LOVE when Nate called Haley his angel even though i wish he said haley james an she corrected him Chris Keller and Dan Scott are legendary!

and one episode is officially over :( Twelve more to go...