I lost my memories because I died. I lost who I was. I was brought back to life by a sword, the sword wielded by a man, by him. I had tried sleeping, but there was no possible way. Every time I closed my eyes I felt myself die in all sorts of unimaginable ways, and some weren't even realistic. I couldn't help but wonder if one of them were real. I watched Rin as she stirred in her sleep, rolling over toward the fire. Slightly my eyes moved up toward Jaken, and I found that his light snoring was unamusing.

I shifted my eyes toward the other side of the fire. Sesshomaru lay still with his back against a tree. His eyes were closed, though that was the only change in his face from the day. His mouth was slightly pointed down, and he seemed a little more peaceful. He was stunning. He was breathing slowly, and I couldn't tell if he was sleeping or just resting his eyes. I felt tired, so I knew we slept, but he was like a statue.

I pulled my hand up and looked at it. My nails were long and sharp, and my skin was flawless. There was no sign at all that I had died, and I felt fine. I remembered back to my dream, though it must've been reality. I had felt sick, like I was dying. I brought my hand to my chest as I remembered my heart beat so fatally slow. I had seen Sesshomaru stand in front of me, sheathing his sword. It was true; I had died, but how? Why did I lose my memories? I had to wonder if any of them knew what happened, or if they had simple came across me by chance.

I stood up, my demon feet able to walk across the ground without the smallest sound. I walked through the woods, staring up at the trees and looking for a sky with the moon of Sesshomaru's head. I watched the stars twinkle as I walked, my tail trailing behind me, hitting a lose stick every now and then. My ears twitched, listening to the forest, but it was sleeping. I was far enough away to where I didn't see the glow of the fire anymore and leaned against a tree.

I leaned my head back and stared at the sky, praying to the moon that it would give me some hint of what was going on, like the night I had died, it had told me before I became unconscious that my name was Yuzuki. It has not spoken to me since. I squeezed my eyes shut, begging my brain to tell me anything. I just wanted to remember. What if I had family out there…

My ears twitched, and I had thought I heard something when suddenly a figure was emerging from the darkness. I saw his white hair, his marking on his face, and his long fur wrap that was slung over his shoulder. "I…I'm sorry Sesshomaru…if I woke you." I said, my voice shaking even though I had tried to cover my sadness. He looked at me, his face quiet and his eyes shining in even the smallest moonlight.

"Feeling guilty for yourself will not help your situation." He said simply, and I opened my mouth and then closed it again. I didn't want to sound stupid, because I didn't know what to tell him. I couldn't help how I felt. His fur pelt swayed in the wind, and his boots blending with the darkness. His sharp nose probably had smelled where I was, and there was no doubt that he didn't hear me. "I didn't see what happened to you. All I can tell you is that I caught the scent of dog demon blood and followed it. I found you with tears in your clothes, blood all over your body, and as you died I healed you." He explained, and it did not make me feel any better.

"Thank you," I replied as full heartedly as I could. He had saved my life after all. "I don't know how I can ever repay the debt I have to you." I added sadly and stared at the ground. I could tell that his jaw tensed and his eyes grew hard. Was he getting angry with me? Without another word he turned around and started heading back toward the camp, and I followed him silently. What else was I supposed to do? He was the only one that even knew at least a portion of who I was even if it was the dead portion.

I slept very little that night, and days started to go by even more slowly. A week went by before I had another memory flash, and Sesshomaru hardly looked at me. The memory was simple and useless. Sesshomaru had gotten Rin some noodles, and I had remembered as I sat in front of a fire, I seemed to be alone, and I was cooking chicken and noodles, but I was a demon, so I couldn't help but wonder who I was cooking for.

The more time went by, the more I kept thinking about what my past could have been like. The more time went by, the more I thought about Sesshomaru too. He was so quiet, always in his own thoughts, but he was taking care of us. I was mainly in charge of watching Rin when he went off. I had also learned from him that we feed on demonic energy of the demons we kill. He had killed every demon we came across, and I think it was in order to feed both of us. Jaken had told me that he normally let most of them go if they didn't mean any harm.

I was wearing different clothes now. We had passed by a traveler that was selling clothes, and he wasn't afraid of us. It was a light blue kimono with short sleeves and a lot tighter than regular kimonos. It was open toward the bottom and spread out toward the back, revealing my legs. I had to cut a hole for my tail which was embarrassing, but I liked it a lot better. We were walking like always, and I had gotten a lot more courageous around Sesshomaru. I wasn't afraid to tell him when I thought Rin was hungry, and I and she had actually become good friends.

She was on my back as we walked, talking to me about her favorite color and the foods that matched that color. I turned my head and smiled at her. "My favorite color is blue." I admitted to her, and she praised all the things so could name that was blue. I could see how Sesshomaru had become so attached to her. She was so small and innocent, and she seemed to find the good in almost everything. The only thing I didn't get was what she saw in him other than a father figure.

Rin put her face close to my ear and whispered. "Yuzuki…I'm kind of hungry, but we already stopped once and I don't want to bother Lord Sesshomaru with it again." She pulled back and looked around, almost like she was looking for a snack. I looked forward at Sesshomaru and saw the smallest turn of his head. Rin didn't understand, I guessed, that Sesshomaru could hear every single thing she whispered to me. I watched as his chest rose, almost impatiently, and then fell back down.

"Rin…if you are hungry, you must tell me." He stated in his always regular voice. "Yuzuki…find her something to eat." He kept walking forward. I continued to follow him knowing that there were berries ahead, just like I knew he knew that too. Ah-un and Jaken had gone on an errand for Sesshomaru, though I hadn't caught what the errand was. We got to where the berries were and I put Rin down who bounded at the sight of them.

"Look Yuzuki, they are blue!" she grabbed the small, round blue berries and plopped one of them in her mouth. I had wanted badly to join her, but I had tried fruit and it tastes even worse than the cooked fish. Rin and I stayed there for a moment as she picked and ate berries and Sesshomaru kept going. Suddenly there was a scent in the air. I had come to learn that it was a demon. The ground shook violently as a demon that was large and brown emerged from the dirt and split the ground around us.

Rin ran around and hid behind me. She yelled my name and I held up my claws as the demon growled and bellowed as it held up it chubby arms and bared its sharp fangs. "You there dog demon. Your demonic aura smells delicious!" he rubbed his belly and licked his lips. His voice was booming and crackly, almost like he was growling the entire time.

I half smiled at the demon, allowing my sharp incisors to show and then flexed my hand so that my claws looked sharper. It wasn't the first time a demon had come across my path. Every time it was just Rin and I a demon would try and kill me. "You smell weak and worthless." I mused and jumped up into the air, spinning until my feet were down as I flew forward and smashed them into the demons head. I sunk in slightly and pushed off back into the air as the demon fell over. I landed effortlessly, scanned the area and found Rin hiding behind a tree. "Stay there Rin!" I yelled as the demon stood back up, blocking her from my sight.

"I will devour you and then your precious human slave!" he snarled and snapped his flesh forward which entangled my body. One of my arms were trapped against myself, and I took my free hand and sliced off the demons tentacle. It yelled out in pain and grabbed at its arm. "You will pay!" it reached forward with its other arm and slammed into me, flying me toward a tree. Pain snapped into my spine as I fell to the ground. My ears twitched as I heard the wind from his arm flying toward me again. I reacted quickly, fighting against the pain.

I jumped forward and slashed at the demons belly; I hit my mark and put forward large gashes as he shrieked in pain. I landed and just as I did the demon thrust his tentacle through my thigh. Blood shot from my leg and agonizing pain flew into my leg. I pulled hard, forcing his arm from me as I jumped and slashed at the demons head, separating it from the body. I landed on my feet and fell to my knees from the terrible pain. The demons head rolled to the ground, and his body fell, blood shooting from his dead body.

"Yuzuki!" Rin yelled, running out from behind the tree and grabbing onto my shoulder. "You're hurt!" she shouted into my ear, and I could feel myself losing blood. Suddenly I watched as the demonic aura from the demon lifted into the air and drew closer to me. It hovered around me, like it always did, and then I absorbed it. It was the first injury I had received from an attack, and I was surprised to see as the hole in my leg started to disappear and my skin grow back. I didn't feel any pain anymore, other than a slight stinging and burning sensation where it was. There was a large red spot there, so I guessed I hadn't absorbed enough.

"It's alright Rin…everything is fine." I looked at her, and she smiled and threw her arms around my neck. I hugged her back and smiled. I looked up as Sesshomaru emerged through the trees, and was surprised to see worry on his face, but as he saw Rin and the demon his worry disappeared. I stood up and Rin ran over to him.

"Lord Sesshomaru, another demon attacked us, but Yuzuki killed it." She looked at me, and he looked my head as his eyes traveled down my body and rested on my leg.

"I see Rin. Are you alright." He asked, and it was the first time I had ever heard him ask a question like that. I nodded my head as a reply and he turned around. "Good…let us keep moving." He started walking again. It was long after that I heard the roar of Ah-Uh's voice and Jaken landed him right beside us. "Jaken, do you have what I asked?" he looked at him with his death stare that he only ever gave Jaken.

"Of course, Lord Sesshomaru…here is the sword you requested." He jumped off the dragon and handed him a sheathed sword. The sheath dark blue with a purple wrapping around it, and the hilt was a dark blue too. He pulled the sword out of the hilt and I watched as it gleamed brightly. It was very sharp and had an excellent point. He slid the blade back into the sheath and looked at me. "Here." He held out his hand toward me, the sword in his hand. I looked up at him and then at the sword. "I think it's about time you have your own weapon. You need more than just your claws to protect Rin." He added.

I reached forward and took the sword from him. I held it in my hands, and somehow it just felt right. Looking up at him I saw a small hint of a smile pull at Sesshomaru's lips, but it was gone in a second. "Thank you…Lord Sesshomaru." I said gratefully and put the sword into the black wrap around my kimono top.

"Let's get moving." He was facing away from me, but somehow I felt like it was a gift from him to me. Somehow I was starting to feel like he cared about me.