Alex had trouble going back to sleep, when she woke up at six so she decided to get out of bed for the day. Looking back at the bed, she saw Olivia and Ally both asleep on their stomachs with their hands under their pillows. The blonde leaned down and kissed them both before going to the kitchen to her beloved coffee maker.
When Ally woke up she looked at her mommy and giggled. The detective woke up at the slight movement. She opened one eyes and saw that her daughter was the only one in the bed so she pulled the covers over her head. Ally giggled again and sat up in bed, "Where mommy go?"
Olivia pulled the covers down a bit and looked at Ally who started laughing.
Hearing her girls playing in the bedroom, Alex decided to watch for a while before sending Olivia to the shower and rounding up Ally to get dressed and ready to go to her grandma's house.
Managing to get away for lunch, all the SVU detectives and their captain sat with their ADA and Serena Southerlyn while Alex explained what might happen.
"That's great Alex," Serena smiled, "Its why you joined the DA's office."
Alex nodded, tapping her fingers on the table.
Being ever perceptive Cragen mentioned, "You're worried about the affects of a political life on your family."
Alex nodded.
"If you're worried about people coming after you, we got your back," Fin told her, "I don't know a cop in this city that wouldn't."
The blonde smiled, "Thanks Fin." She sighed, "I think I called you all here to ask your opinions. I'm still on the fence."
"Ultimately, it's your decision," Munch stated, matter-of-factly.
"I know," the bureau chief answered, "but I'd like to know what you think. I respect every single one of your opinions."
"I think that if it's something that you'd like to do," Elliot said, looking Alex dead in the eye, "and you can do good with it, then you should go for it." He ended with a smile, "I'd vote for you."
"Thanks El," the blonde chuckled.
Lunch wasn't very eventful, mostly a discussion of what running for DA would entail and minor comments on the repercussions of running. It wasn't long before Munch and Fin got a call and pretty soon after Casey got to call so they all disbursed.
Olivia managed to slip away a little later. She told Elliot she had some errands to run. She just needed some time to think. Pulling to a stop in the cemetery parking lot, Olivia exhaled. She knew what she needed to do. She just needed to talk.
After settling at the foot of her mother's grave, Olivia ran her hands over the thick grass under her. "I'm so proud of Alex. She's doing everything she set out to do and the last step is right in front of her. She's…brilliant and she can do so much, but…it's a really public life. I think that's the only reason she hasn't jumped on this. If she was single, she wouldn't have hesitated. She's thinking about me and Ally. She's putting us before her dreams…" Olivia knocked her knuckles together, "I don't wanna say we're holding her back, but…" She paused, "She's so considerate. She puts us before everything else. And Ally…she's growing up so fast. She's…she's starting to understand what's going on around her. I don't know what I'm doing. Or what I should be doing .I'm…I'm scared that I'm going to mess up. Maybe when she's older I'll leave crime scene photos out and she finds them, or something happens and someone comes after me, my family. What if I…turn into you."
She didn't see the tall blonde standing next to a mausoleum a few yards behind her. She shifted her weight from one foot to another, feeling conflicted about listening in. She wanted to know how her wife was feeling and was saddened that Olivia never shared any of these doubts, on top of feeling like she was doing something wrong by eavesdropping. She looked at the flowers in her hand and then back to her wife.
"I don't know," Olivia looked at the grass, "Alex always seems to know what she's doing and I feel like I should too, but…I don't…And what if I cost her the job she's always wanted? I don't wanna be the reason she doesn't get elected. I'm not a political wife. I don't have the family history or the money or the job. I don't want to hold her back."
Alex couldn't listen anymore. She walked past Olivia and put the flowers on the grave before leaning down to kiss the top of Olivia's head.
Stunned, Olivia looked at Alex, "How long have you been here?"
"Long enough to know you're wrong," Alex smiled gently, "You're not holding me back."
The detective looked down at the grass under her, "What if I am?"
"You're not," Alex knelt down next to Olivia, "You and Ally are my number one priorities. You two are my whole world."
"But you've talked about being the DA since I've known you," Olivia looked up at Alex.
The blonde nodded, "I have and it was my goal when I started in the DA's office, but I know I don't need it now." She ran her hands over her face, "I'm starting to think it was a bad idea."
"No," Olivia shook her head, "Don't give up because of me. I'm just nervous. I don't know if I can live up to what you need me to be."
"If I do decide to run," Alex's fingers played on the denim covered Olivia's knee, "I just need you to be supportive. I'll do everything else."
"Done," Olivia reassured her wife, "But if you're going to run, I'm going to help."
After a short paused, Alex sat down completely and steepled her legs, wrapping her arms around them. "I was looking at Ally this morning while you were both still asleep. She's getting so big and I realized that, soon this is going to be her city. She's going to be walking down the street to get coffee while she's cramming for finals. She's going to be taking cabs to shows with her friends. I want the city to be a safe place for her and if I can help make it that way, I want to."
"You're going to run?" Olivia smiled.
Alex nodded, "Yeah I think so."
"Good," Olivia stood up and offered her hands to Alex. After pulling her wife up and kissing her, "But when Ally goes out into the city one of us is going with her or she'll have a GPS on her at all times."
"That'll be a fun fight," Alex chuckled.
Olivia raised an eyebrow, "Who says there's going to be a fight?"
"She's my daughter," the future DA candidate took her wife's hand as they walked out of the cemetery.
"Oh yeah," Olivia made a face like she just smelled something unpleasant, "Good job. You corrupted her teenage years."
"It's not my fault," the blonde pulled Olivia toward her car, "One time my mom and I were fighting when I was a teenager and she told me that someday I'd have a daughter just like me."
"Wow, what have we gotten into?" Olivia smirked as Alex unlocked her car.
Alex kissed Olivia, "I wasn't that bad."
"I've heard some stories that would make you recant that," Olivia opened the door for Alex, who sat in the driver's seat.
"That's all hearsay," the blonde pulled Olivia down to kiss her again, "I have to go to work. I love you."
"I love you too," Olivia answered. Alex started her car and with one last kiss to Olivia she drove off.
Olivia watched her disappear then glanced back at the grave maker of Serena Benson. She didn't even notice the dozen red roses surrounding a single white rose that Alex had left on top. She looked back at where Alex's car had just disappeared. She wasn't sure she was ready to be a politician's wife, but she'd just agreed to it. She just hoped she could live up to what Alex needed.
