CHAPTER 4

My thoughts began to get clearer, the pain started to retreat from my palms and toes. The fire was being extinguished from my entire body. Thank God. But.. oh no. The fire wasn't getting extinguished; it was getting thrown on to my heart. As if it werent going through enough already! My hearts pulse was getting faster and faster until...

It stopped. The agony, the fire was completely gone. I opened my eyes and i could see everything! The sunlight coming in from the trees was glorious. The light rays bounced off at every angle. I could see each colour of the rainbow, and as i looked closer another colour i couldn't place a name to. The leaves on the trees had little droplets of rain that glistened in the sun. They were beautiful! I hadn't realised that it had been raining, so i looked down at myself. My skin! My skin was sparkling. The rain drops paled in comparison to me. Now theres something i never thought i'd say! I always thought i was 'Plane Jane' next to Edw... Him. The hole in my chest had become un-bearable. I didn't think it could ever happen, but the pain over him has gotten twice as bad. I guess in my new form everything is clearer, even the bad things.

I stood up, just to fall back down again. It was too much. I took in a deep breath. The action felt odd, unnecessary. My eyes felt dry and the next breath i took in hitched in my throat. I began sobbing tearlessly. Vampires couldn't cry. All my thoughts were tainted with Edward. Even though i felt as if i had alot more space to think, it didnt matter because he was all could think about.

After i gained control of myself, i stood up, and just started to walk. I needed to get back to Charlie, he would be so worried! Wait, i couldn't go back to Charlie. How was i suppost to go back to him as a vampire. I wouldn't be able to control myself. The ache in my throat seemed to go to the front of my mind. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be; I could easily ignore it if i tried. So i would go home. I started to run. It was exhilarating. I had always wondered why Edwa...He never hit any trees when he ran. But now, actually experiencing it i could tell why it was so easy. You would think, because of how fast i was going, that it would all be a green blur, but i could see everything perfectly!

I was at Charlies house in a couple of minutes. His cruiser was in the driveway so he was definetly home. I decided, a look through window first might be a sensible thing to do. I was not prepared for what i saw. Charlie was a mess! He hadn't shaven in days, his clothes were filthy and his hair was stuck in every direction. Their were papers sprawled all across the living room table. I could see with my vampire eyes that they were maps and newspaper articles of recent crimes and local runaway spots.

What had i done? Charlie was going crazy looking for me. Literally. How could i ever think Charlie would just get over my death? I am so selfish. I need to get away from here. From my old life, and just start a new one. I can't cause anyone else anymore pain.I began running again; I ran north for a while then west, then north again. I lost track after a while. I must have been running all day because the next time i looked up it was night time.

I had stopped in quaint little town. There were small estates dotted around, and a small shopping centre in the middle. I decided to stop in a little corner cafe called 'Granny Maples'. I held my breath and took a step inside. There were only four customers and a waitor. His name tag said he was called Thomas. He walked over to me with a smile on his face. He looked me up and down and smiled even wider. I hadn't really looked at myself yet. I wonder what i looked like now. "Can i take you to a table miss?" Thomas said in a polite voice. "Yes, please" I refused to get distracted by my voice. Thomas showed me to a small table in the middle of the cafe. I heard murmers as i walked past the other customers, not caring to listen to what they were saying. I sat down and put my head down on the table.

So much to think about. Where was i going to go?I couldnt go back home looking like this! "Excuse me?" a small voice said. "Yes?" i mumbled keeping my head on the table. "You seem upset do you need any help?" I looked up to the polite voice, to see a face i was not expecting. She was gorgeous. She had blonde curls with a hint of strawberry blonde that were gracefully fitted around her face. She had pale, white skin and pretty topaz eyes.

"Hello, I'm Tanya"

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