Let It Rain – David Nail

She stood there with tears running down her face, she was making gasping sounds, and her hand covered her mouth. He felt broke like he wanted to lay down and die rather than see the hurt on her face. When she had walked in she had a huge smile on her face and had wanted to tell him something but he insisted that he go first. He was about to throw seven years out the window.

The one night he forgot to wear that ring and now he felt like his life was ending. He had to tell her the guilt had eaten away for way too long. He sat her on their couch and held on her hand. He kissed the back of her hand, "Rachel I cheated on you." Her smile slipped, "What?" She pulled her hand out of his grasp, "Rachel I'm so sorry. It was the night of that huge fight we had about kids. I was so mad that I got drunk and I slept with Quinn."

She stood and walk away from, "Rachel please, say something." It was then he saw her shoulders shaking and he knew it was over. It killed him to see her like that. He walked to their bedroom and started packing his stuff. He didn't want to he wanted to stay here and hold her but he had did what every guy she'd ever been with did, he slept with Quinn while he was with her. He heard something break in the living room. He ran to see a Rachel holding her hand and blood dripping onto the floor.

"Rachel baby let me see." She shook her head, "Why Noah? I'm I not enough? Did I do something wrong? Please explain why Noah." She sobbed. "Baby you're bleeding let me see." He took her hand in his and pulled her to the sink. He cleaned it and gave her a paper towel to stop the bleeding while he went to get the first aid kit. They sat at the kitchen table while he wrapped her hand. She was still crying when he finished.

He stood up to finish packing when he heard her whisper, "Noah wait." He sat in front of her, "What Rachel?" She looked up into his eyes, "Noah when I came home this afternoon I wanted to tell you something so important about our life and then you do this and you think you can just leave without me telling you my news." He looked down, "Sorry I just thought you wouldn't want to see me after I told you but what is your news."

She sniffled, "Noah I'm pregnant." When she said it there was no smile on her face only more tears. She tried to keep looking at him but it hurt too much. She stood up sobbing heading for their bedroom. He sat at the table in shock; it's what he wanted, to have children with her and be happy but no he had to ruin that. He stood following her. She laid across their bed holding onto one of his baseball jerseys.

"Rachel. Do you want me to leave?" She looked at him with tears in his eyes, "Do you want to leave?" He crawled in the bed beside her, "No I don't want to leave you, I never do. Rachel I love you and I wanted to be the one who told you." He wrapped his arm around her waist as she said, "Are you saying that because of the baby?" He pressed his nose into her hair, "No, Rachel. Even if there was no baby I would give you time and space and then I would ask you if we could try again."

She turned to face him, "Why Noah? Why her?" He wiped a tear off her face, "To be honest because she wasn't you. She wasn't the reason I was hurting. Rachel she was there and she wasn't short with brown eyes filled with so much love but refusing to have my baby. I'm sorry. I can never forgive myself for breaking my promises to you. I don't want your forgiveness because I don't deserve it. I deserve your hate." He watched as her features changed from sad to pissed back to sad.

"Noah I don't think I could ever hate you but I do need time but I don't want you to leave. I need you and I know you feel guilt but I need you to be here with me while I'm pregnant. I need you." He looked at her and felt his heart break even more because he could still see the love in her eyes. "Noah I love you, please don't leave me." When she said that it ripped his heart out of his chest, he was so fucking stupid. She was perfect, she loved him, she gave him everything and he threw all away because he was pissed at her.

"Rachel I thought you said you didn't want to have kids." She nodded, "I said that because I thought I couldn't get pregnant." "What?" She looked into his eyes, "I tired with Finn and I couldn't conceive so I thought I could get pregnant and then after we had our fight I went to a doctor. He said there was nothing wrong with me but I didn't want to get your hopes hope so I didn't say anything. I'm sorry if I had been honest this wouldn't have happened."

Suddenly he realized why she wasn't Rachel Barbara Berry pissed, she was blaming this on herself and it pissed him off. "Rachel just because you didn't tell me about your medical problems doesn't give me the right to cheat on you. We're married and I broke our vows." Now he was crying because of his actions. "I'll never be with another woman Rachel. I can't this hurts to much. And I know I still might lose you because you'll wise up eventually. Oh God Rachel I'm so sorry."

He placed his forehead on hers both were crying and holding on to each other for it felt like the earth was falling away. Neither knows how long they laid there like that but both of them knew they couldn't live without the other. She didn't forgive him because she thought there was nothing to forgive and he stayed with her even though she lied to him. They never went outside their marriage again and they now talked about everything in their lives.