I grunt as the ropes on my legs are being untied. I rub the sore skin on my ankles gritting my teeth.
"Think you tied these hard enough?" I ask glaring at Itachi. I'd been tied up for two weeks with noting to do but sit there and listen to multiple people talk about nothing but themselves. The only person I actually enjoyed talking to was Deidara. Actually over the past week I had developed a small crush on him. He was funny and good looking and kind (though I don't think I'd trust him, I didn't trust anyone at this place).
I sigh as I get up rubbing my sore neck standing up and stretching. I peek over at Itachi to see him looking over some papers. I look away watching out the window at Deidara blowing something up then back to Itachi.
"Don't you ever talk?" I ask raising an eyebrow at him.
"Hn." Is all he says. I groan in annoyance as I push past him. I stop listening to him talk.
"We are going on a retreat to a private beach a day away by request of Deidara, so pack your things and be outside in ten minutes." He says bluntly before closing the door in my face.
I puff my cheeks in anger at his rudeness before storming off toward my room.
I open the door which was strangely unlocked. I walk in to see the room cleaned and the key on the bed along with piles of clothes and a letter on top. I walk over picking up the letter and reading it.
Junko,
I realized you didn't have any clothes nor a bathing suit with you, or anything else besides some things you had with you when Deidara found you. So I bought you some things. I hope you like them
- Konan
I smile as I set the letter aside but then dropping the smile and blushing a billion colors of red at the bathing suit on the top as my stare goes down to my non-boobs as cover my face in shame.
I'm suddenly snapped out of my shame by a knock on the door. I stuff everything on the bed into the black bag next to it, there were a few sets of shirts and pants in the pile (for my days off) sandals a dress, some bath stuff and sun screen plus the bathing suit. I fling the bag over my shoulder as I walk to the door and open it to see Deidara smiling down at me, him wearing a white t-shirt and black shorts that went down to his knees and some sandals. He frowns as he sees that I was stillwearing my PJS. I sigh as I let him in.
Instead of sitting on my bed like I thought he would he walks over to my dresser and opens it.
I blush noticing which drawer he had opened. He ignored it closing it and opening the one below it and looking threw the few cloths in it (which just happened to be more that Konan put there because there weren't any there before.
He smiles as he holds out a dark blue skirt and a white t-shirt with some blue jogging pants with them.
"Go put these on over your bathing suit so when we get there we can be the first in the water, yeah!" He says smiling.
I take them then look at the black bag I was holding thinking of the bathing suit as the blush comes back, I shake my head. "N-no! I don't want t-to swim!" I say looking down at the floor thinking about the embarrassment. About my fat body and small boobs and being in front of all those boys.
"Aw, come on, un, you'll be fine, promise, yeah." He says smiling at me and shoving me down the hall into the bathroom.
I sigh as I pull the blue and white stripped bathing suit and put it on top of the clothes that Deidara picked out as I start to change. Then putting my hair in a high pony tail.
I open the door pulling off the pants.
"These are annoying." I say throwing them onto the ground in the bathroom and shutting the door.
"Um shouldn't you put those back into your room then, yeah?" Deidara questions. I shrug as I walk past him down the hall.
"No time, i'll do it when we get back." I say turning the corner.
I walk outside followed by Deidara.
"You two are late" Kisame states in a fatherly tone. I shrug as Deidara scratches the back of his neck nervously.
"Well, Deidara, lead the way, you know where this place is." Leader-sama states motioning for him to go forward. He leaps off the top of the cliff and into a tree as we all follow.
After endless hours of running threw trees in complete silence we reach the beach. I look up to see the sun setting as I sigh and look over to Deidara.
"This wasn't the brightest idea you know, its already dark don't we have to go back soon anyways?" I say crossing my arms and raising an eye brow at Deidara.
"Smart one, we're staying here for a few days, we have time don't worry, yeah." He says smiling, which in my opinion he does to much of.
"Quit smiling so much it'll give you wrinkles!" I say walking past him and sitting in the sand cross legged watching the sky.
"Um wrong one Junko, frowning will give you wrinkles not smiling, un." He says in a questionable tone.
I look up at him glaring. "That's what they want you think.." I say standing up and looking around.
"Where are we sleeping?" I ask now looking at leader-sama.
"Here...You brought a tent didn't you?" He asks with a plain expression.
"N-No." I look away embarrassed.
A sudden arm is flung around me "She can sleep with me, yeah!" Deidara says winking at me.
I remove his hand and glare once again. "I'd rather sleep in the water." I say coldly at him.
"Kidding, you should really learn to be nicer Junko, un" Deidara says turning around taking off his shirt and running to the water.
I look down at my feet as everyone walks past me.
It was true, I was cold, I was scared to get close to anyone. Everyone I ever got close to would hurt me some how and I knew it. I did this when I liked someone though, I got even meaner and cold toward them so I could push them away. I sigh as I sit down rubbing my forehead. And were am I going to sleep tonight?
"You can sleep in my tent." I hear Konan say as if she were reading my mind.
"O-Oh, t-thank you..." I say looking up at her with an attempted smile but a failing one.
She sits down next to me smiling slightly and looking up at the stars that were slowly coming into view.
"You know, Deidara is a once in a life time kind of guy, he has that bad boy part of him but he's still sweet and happy, you know?" I say bluntly out of no where also looking up at the sky.
Konan looks over at me a bit surprised but still with a smile. "Yeah, I guess he is" she says playing with the sand.
"I-I really want to be nice to everyone, but, I'm scared to..." I say looking away from her blushing with shame and embarrassment in which I was doing a lot of today.
I feel a hand on my shoulder as I look over to see Konan with a friendly but serious look on her face.
"Look Junko, I really understand that. But you should try hard on being nicer, these guys are strong and easily pissed off, but remember you can't trust really any of them fully, only a few you can trust, but in our line of work it is always a better bet to only trust yourself, but you know that doesn't mean you can't have fun with us and it also doesn't mean you can't be a little nicer.." She says smiling a little more then before.
I look down slowly nodding. "I kind of want to go swimming now... But can I just do it alone please?" I say. "I need to think
"Of course, just come find me if you need me." She says smiling.
"Will do." I say walking off on my own.
I walk all the down to the other end of the beach to the point where everyone else is the size of an ant. I look up to a cliff with lots of sun flowers on it that ended right over the lake. I start to climb it slowly.
When I finally reach the top I stand at the end of the cliff taking off my clothes and letting my hair down. The wind blowing slightly moving my hair only a tiny bit. I lean down to a pretty little red flower that was obviously put there after being picked seeing how it was the only one there and the only other flowers where sun flowers. I pick it up along with my little bow pony tail holder, wrapping the tip of the steam with a tiny bit the holder then wrapping them both around a small piece of my hair. I smile for the first time in a long time.
Places like this the beauty of it made me happy but most of all, Deidara made me happy. He was everything I'd always wanted. Rather needed. He made me want to laugh and smile and joke around again like when I was little... way little.
I look down surprised to hear someone yelling to me.
"Hey Junko! Jump down, yeah!" I see Deidara waving to me with something in his hand. I grin thinking of the huge splash I could get him with and then with no warning I jump aiming to land beside him.
After landing in the water I swim back up smirking as Deidara was whipping the water off his eyes.
"Uncool man uncool, yeah." He says grinning at me.
I smile at him innocently.
"Oh my gosh! You smiled! You ARE human, yeah! HEY EVERYONE! JUNKO SMILED, YEAH!" He shouts over at the group of boys swimming making a few laugh and others just look over to us blankly. With no warning I jump onto Deidara's back making us both go under. I open my eyes under the water to see Deidara also with his eyes open holding what I could now see was a underwater camera. I shake my head no as I swim away holding a hand out trying to hide my face with it and laughing starting to run out of air as a few fish swim by and SNAP!
He takes a picture right before I go above water gasping for air. I was soon followed by Deidara but instead of him gasping for air he just started laughing.
I roll my eyes as I move over to the cliff. Focusing my chakra to my hands and feet I slowly lift my self out of the water and start to climb the cliff.
"That looks difficult, un." I hear Deidara say from in the water.
"Not if you do it enough." I say matter of factly.
I reach the top of the cliff and look down to notice Deidara climbing the rock wall behind me.
I smile offering him a hand as I notice him having slight trouble.
He shakes his head as he climbs over the edge of the cliff like a fish out of water. When he finally gets him self up he lays in his back breathing heavily with his eye brows creased in joking anger as he looks over to me.
"You made it look easy, yeah." He says laughing slightly as I laugh back.
I help him up after picking my clothes up.
We walk down the easier part of the cliff smiling to ourselves in complete silence.
When we reach the bottom of the cliff on the beach side Deidara starts to talk.
"So, why the sudden change in attitude, un?" He asks coarsely.
"I was just tired and being a grouch before is all, once I rested a bit I felt better" I say, more like lie.
"No that isn't it, you have never been so fun before, I thought you were another Itachi or Sasori that whole first week you were here honestly.
"Oh, I just was getting used to you is all, I'm sorry I am shy when I first meet people." I lie once again.
"Oh, makes since, alright."
"So, um why did you give up on your old life so easily, yeah and tell the truth, un" He says watching me as I watch our feet walking.
"I didn't really feel like I belonged there, I didn't really like very many people there and the guy I liked was way to old for me, he was one of the senseis'." I say now only watching Deidara's feet.
"Oh, which guy did you like? I swear I won't tell anyone, it'll be our secret." He says smiling at me.
I look at him curiously for two reasons, one he didn't say "un" or "yeah" and two, why would he want to know who I used to like?"
"I don't know if I should tell you." I say watching him closely, I had gotten pretty good at knowing if someone was lying or not over the years so here was my chance to see if he was lying or not.
"I promise, I wont tell" He says holding out a pinky and smiling.
I shake pinkies with him then decide to take a risk seeing how I couldn't tell if it was a lie or not.
"Kakashi..." I say looking down to his feet again.
"Really? The copy ninja, yeah?" He says laughing.
I look up at him angrily "Don't make fun of me, it was a childish crush from forever ago okay." Well that was a lie, I only stopped liking him like my second day in the Akatsuki, and second day with Deidara.
"Ah, I'm not, I just am happy I don't have much to compete with, I mean I am like way more attractive then that guy, I mean look at me, yeah!" He says smiling at me.
I roll my eyes even though secretly I agreed with him.
As we arrived back to the main part of the beach we stop talking to find everyone but Itachi sleeping.
Itachi looks up at us waves slightly with a "hn" then goes back to reading his book by fire light.
I look around at all the dark tents not knowing which one was Konan's and to scared to look at the possibility of getting it wrong. I gulp as I look back over to Deidara getting ready to go inside his tent.
I run over to him and stop him from getting in and as he looks over to me with curiosity, I swallow my embarrassment getting ready to ask what I knew was my only other choice besides sleeping under the stars (which no way in hell was I doing.)
"Um, I don't know which tent is Konan's tent so um I was wondering, U-Um, c-could I uh, s-sleep i-in your t-tent tonight?" I say blushing a deep red and playing with my thumbs.
"Of course, un" He says getting in an motioning for me to follow.
I step in and zip up the tent door behind us. I look over at Deidara very seriously.
"Don't try anything or i'll kick your ass into next week got it?" I say not actually sure if I could take him on or not.
He smiles at me reassuringly "Of course I wont Junko, remember I wont ever do anything to you that you don't want me to."
"Good, it better stay that way." I say laying down under the extra blanket he handed to me.
I turn away from him smiling to my self as I close my eyes.
"Good night Junko, un." He says in a whisper.
"Good night Deidara." I whisper back before falling asleep.
Alright! That was chapter 4! I hope you liked it, I am not sure if it is a long chapter or not but it sure as heck felt long to write. So reviews would be nice. And make sure to read the next chapter ^-^.