A/N: Sorry it took me so long!!! I've been busy with skoo and i had writer's block on top of that. Forgive me?
Chapter 4
Sess said he was willing and asked me to go to the beach with him the next day. I agreed and promptly kicked him out of my room. Just because I forgave him did not mean that everything was going to go back to the way it was… Right before he left, however, Sess caught me around my waist and kissed me full on the lips. I swear I think I saw fireworks. It was an effort to force myself to kick him out after that. But I did.
I was now sitting on the king sized bed in the hotel room dialing Sango's number.
"Is Sess dead?" She asked as soon as she answered the phone.
I laughed. "No Sesshou is not dead. Why'd you say that?"
"Because you're calling me… I figured you were calling to give me your condolences or something…"
I laughed again, louder this time.
"Leah are you ok?" Sango asked, "You're sounding kind of hysterical…"
"No Sango I'm happy… Like really, truly happy."
"Eh…? What did Sesshou say to you?" She asked. "Because you haven't been happy like that in years."
"He told me why he left… he wanted me all along, it was only for my safety that he left, and since when have I ever been concerned with that?"
"Never." Sango answered my rhetorical question. "So you guys are getting back together?"
"I don't know yet. Like… I wanna get back with him but I'm not sure if I can trust him enough to stay with me this time… You know better than anyone how bad it was when he left the last time… I don't know if I can handle it twice in one lifetime…"
"I feel you." Sango said compassionately. "He was wrong. No matter if his reasons were justified, he should've told you what was going on and let you decide whether to leave or to stay."
"Well we both know I would've stayed."
"Yup. Obviously Sess doesn't know that though."
"I don't know why. He's so ridiculous sometimes."
"I know, right? Look Kagome, I know I have no right to say this but… I really hope you two get back together. You're both a lot happier and more… alive when you're together… You're alright with Kouga but it's not the same as when you were with Sess…"
I paused, unsure for a moment what to say. I knew she wasn't trying to pressure me, but I still felt it and it made me uncomfortable. "I know what you mean," I said after a while, "But I can't live the rest of my life afraid every day that he might one day disappear again… that's no way to live Sango and we both know it."
"I know Kag I'm just saying…"
"Yeah." I paused, "Look San, it was nice talking to you, but I have to call Kouga and then I'm going to sleep."
"Oh, ok." She said. I could hear it in her voice that she still wanted to talk to me, but there was awkwardness between us that I'd never noticed before, and I didn't like it. It was as if she was afraid to talk to me… afraid that she'd say something she shouldn't and it'd set me off… I felt guilt rise up in me but I smothered it when I heard her continue speaking, "Call me when you decide… if you don't wanna talk to me sooner that is…"
"I'll call you tomorrow Sango." I said rolling my eyes. I was making her sensitive… we were gonna have to fix that. "Sess and I are going to the beach so I'm sure I'll have a lot to talk about."
I heard the smile in her voice when she replied. "Ok then. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Love you sis."
"Love you too. Night." I hung up the phone, went and took off my makeup and called Kouga.
"Hello?" He sounded tired, as if I woke him up.
"Sorry, did I wake you?" I asked.
"Yeah." He replied. Kouga was never one to front. "But it's alright. What's up?" now he sounded apprehensive.
"Sess and I are cool."
"You're not getting back together?" he asked, surprise laced in his voice.
"That's where it gets complicated… See, what I told Sess was that I want to date both of you while I'm on vacation. Go on a date with him one day and you the next… I deserve to have a couple of fine ass boys competing over me if I do say so myself. Besides, I'm not sure if I'm willing to make that commitment with Sesshou again because he might leave again…"
"So I'm competing with your ex over who gets to be with you?"
"See when you say it like that it sounds kinda bad…"
"That's because it is bad! I'd almost just rather give you up to him… I can't believe you're asking me to do this Kagome."
"But I am. So if you'd rather just rather let him have me then speak now or forever hold your peace, because if you're not up for some healthy competition than you obviously don't want me as much as you make it seem like you do. It's not that difficult a decision. I'm not gonna be sleeping with either one of you and I'm not even gonna be tryina kiss either of you if you're in. It's not fair to be doing all that. It's either that or have Aya, Dymond, Sam, Tamika, and Kagura fly out here and sit in my room with me for the entire week and help me decide…"
"I think I'd prefer that." He said, cutting me off.
"I don't know what to tell you. I'm not about to ruin their summer because you're not up for competition. If that's the case just let me know so I can tell Sess that he wins by default."
"Do what you do." Kouga said before I could continue. "I'm not gonna compete for you Gome. We're not in high school anymore.
I felt the sting of his words as they hit me, but I wouldn't change my mind. I deserved to know who cared more. I just got my answer sooner than I expected. Not that I'd tell Sess now, of course. He'd learn on Friday, just like he was going to from the start.
"Whatever Kouga. If that's how you want it, that's how it'll be."
"We can still be friends Leah but I'm not competing."
"I get that Kouga. You've said it about eight times. We can be friends, but I am a little irritated I'll admit."
"Sorry." He said. But he didn't sound sorry.
"Not." I said. "But whatever. I'm going to sleep. I'll see you when I see you."
"Alright then, night."
"Night." I said before hanging up, rolling over and drifting off to sleep.
Bright and early the next morning, I heard a banging on my door. Dragging myself out of the comfortable bed, I opened the door only to blush at the sight of Sess standing there in a pair of black jean shorts and sneakers, a towel around his neck.
"You're not dressed yet? You better go change unless you're tryin to go to the beach like that."
I grinned at him in spite of myself and headed back into the room, closing the door behind me. I pulled on my red and black two piece bathing suit.
"So what're we going to do?" I asked as we left the hotel and headed to Sesshou's car.
"Everything." Sesshoumaru whispered in my ear, wrapping his arms around my waist.
I smiled wider, anticipating the fun filled week now that I had no reasons to hold back.
A/N: Just so you know, i changed the Vacation Spot to Acapulco instead of Hawaii becuz i've never been 2 hawaii n didn kno how 2 write like i have so yah...
Review replies:
Poisonflower: lol. thanks soooo much!! i'm glad more people are reading and reviewing and stuff. hope this chapter didnt dissapoint.
Kattana: Hahaha! Yeah we sooo can!! i think it'd be fun to have a fighting buddy. And you kno sesshy, he'll keep trying until he gets what he wants.
Kouga's Older Woman: dont worry, kouga will make his reappearance later on in the story. hope you continue reading and enjoying my story.
Sweetest Angel: As you can see, Kouga wasnt up for the competition. He's not competitive in my story, ooc, i know, but that's how it is.
Hemiyami: you're welcome on the update. and kouga wasnt up for the competition, but he will be around...
Littlegirlblack: i'll definitely keep going, hope you enjoy!!